After the burial rite of my brother was performed which was chaos on its own; my mother's people didn't want to bury him on their land which is traditionally correct but since the attack no one has been able to go back to my fathers village not more of just showing up with a corpse, that place is literarily empty but at that point they didn't really care they said that they had done more than enough for our family already which was also right in a sense. A family sacrificed their land for him to be buried on since there was no community cemetery over here, most of those were owned by individuals and families and it usually for family members only. It was a very hard and painful decision for my parents baring their only son at the mercies of another family but what else can they do, you can say all they do lately is always what is available and not what they want actually.
We passed through the worst storms of life and come out strong with both our parents smiling through it but you see this particular; I had not seen them talk, smile or even looked at each other since they returned from the hospital with the news of Niri death. I had not lost a child or a brother before so maybe that's how they choose to grief him, my mother has been acting so weird talking to herself, crying, shouting on top of her voice and sometimes urinating and stooling on herself yes! It was that bad and we really thought all were stages of mourning but no were wrong and we had something bigger to deal with but in it all my dad acted unbothered which was really surprising and scary at the same time.
On this day, she walked out of the house bare footed and was just going in no particular direction, some of our community people saw her and brought her back home after asking her where she was heading to but she didn't gave an answer all she did was laugh and cry at the same time, they knew all was not well with her in fact news was already flying that she has ran mad from the shock of the news of the demise of her son but as her family we just thought she needed more time to process the news but on this particular day I believed that the news on the street might not be correct but it is not entirely wrong "daddy, I really don't understand the silence between you and mum but I feel like its time we took her a proper hospital" I said but before I will finish "for a psychiatric test right" he cuts in casually, I wasn't surprised giving how they both have been acting lately but I really didn't care at this point. Our mother was losing it right before our eyes, silence was the last thing to do at this point "so what are you saying dad?" I continued "this is above just grieving now and I seriously feel there is more to it" "yes! now you are talking like your fathers daughter, why don't you ask her if there is more to it" turns to were my mother was sleeping on the mat on the ground and taps her "wake up and answer your daughter, what did you do that you are pretending to loose your mind and not have the conversation, tell her and please tell her the truth" he said trying to laugh but I could feel the pain in his voice "what are you talking about" I asked, at this point Feng was already attracted to what we were talking about
"is everything alright between you two?" she inquired but our father ignored her and continued shouting at our mother, my mother woke up and was terrified at what he was doing "tell them what you did! Tell them how you destroy our home because of money! Goo ahead slut!" "Stop it" I quickly stepped in," she doesn't deserve the names you are calling on her and how did she destroy us, Niri has been sick for the longest and everyone of you but in his very best to see that he got help; mom inclusive so where is all this coming from?" my daddy was in so much pain he almost cried in our presence which has never happened before but being a man he just walked out on us, my mom was shaking and trying to talk "I I I didn't do it" she said slowly "maa what did you say?" feng asked and I moved closer to hear what she was saying but she didn't say anything again only tears, painful tears, tears that has a lot of silent words in it, words that only the heart could interpret.
This world is really very unkind, especially to kind people and with everything my family has been through I really feel so scared about this phase, do you think this too will pass or this might just be the breaking point?