My father had made up his mind he was going and even though he had no were in my mind to go or even figured what to do with us, he just wanted to leave this environment and nothing anyone of us was going say was going to make a difference. My uncles and aunt supported him to leave but he shouldn't leave anyone of us here and he agreed "dad please we cant leave her like this please" i said knowing fully well that none of them will be here to take care of her and she will left at the mercies of people in the area "go inside and park your things tell your sister as well, we are leaving" he replied almost immediately, aunt gee signaled me; more like just go and do as he says but i was scared seriously but as i entered inside to tell Feng what was going on i notice she had parked her things and left "left to were?" my father asked as i handed him the note she wrote 'am sorry, i cant do this!' my uncle bursted into laughing "karma is a bitch, it comes for you even if you are not ready" i really don't know whats funny about this and i kept on wondering why this people are laughing and for Feng this really didn't come to me as a surprise, its typical of feng to run when things get though.
I really loved my father and i want to understand why he is hurting but i cant really leave my mother in this phase alone so i tried to talk to my father that we should just stay and resolve our issues, it is bad enough that we lost Niri and now we don't know were Feng had gone and we all know it can never be somewhere meaningful "please daddy we can fight for this family, the three of us daddy please" he just went inside pick his bag and left silently. i was crying at this point were do i start from? what will i be doing to make money to take care of a mentally stable mother and myself? what about school? when i say alot was going through my mind ehhh i wasn't joking at all.
My uncles had resolved that they were going to be checking in on us and promised me an upkeep of fifty thousand every month which wasn't bad at all but that's if they will keep up, they also agreed to leave that space for us as it was my mother share of their inheritance but that my uncle that kept coming to harass us was just being greedy, he was warned to keep off and let us be. That gave me some kind of peace at-least accommodation was out of the way but to be honest that was not just the reason; i was really hoping my dad and Feng would one day return and locating us was not going to be a problem! at-least so i thought.
So many months passed and as earlier promised my uncles sent in money for me to take my mother to the hospital where she was confirmed 'mentally unstable due to traumatic experience' which was not permanent by the way but they advised that we should keep her away from the environment of the trauma which was almost impossible at the moment, secondly we should surround her with love and keep reminding her of the life she had before this whole situation and i can say that i really don't want her remember any of that; i mean what is the use anyway.
Things were beginning to look better, my mother health was fluctuating; everyday with its own symptoms; today you can have a meaningful conversation with her but tomorrow all she will do is cry, but in all i really thank the lord. My dad in a hurry to pack his things forgot one of his favorite shirts and it has become my mothers ritual to hold that cloth so close to her and keep sniffing it until she falls asleep, the last time i tried to wash it she almost cried so i knew we would have to leave the
sent on the cloth for her to keep sniffing.
This is almost a year and there is no trace or any news of my dad and Feng, its almost like they never existed, i looked for Feng in all the possible places she can be in but no news of her but one thing am sure of is that nothing bad had happened to her and my dad hmm i guess he really meant it when he said he doesn't want anything to do with my mother but what of me? am still his child but he never looked back or even sent a message for me and i know he didn't go back to his place because i asked people around there but no one said they saw him. So i guess its time to move on too and even though my mom was slowing the process down by holding on to every single thing that reminded her of our once beautiful family, i was determined to make it out of this place with or with out my fathers help.