Since our family became just my mother and I, I had already accepted the reality that things were either going to remain this way of get better but any side of the coin it chooses it is totally fine and am ok with it but one thing am sure of is that ill never leave my mother and I here! Were my father left us at least I'll try to make our lives better in the little way I can. so in a bit to help my mother feel better ill usually take her out on walks in the evening tell her stories, sing to her and make her feel safe ohhh I didn't mention I was study public health in plateau state polytechnic so I have a little knowledge of this things so it made it a little easier and on every Doctors appointment we always receive very excellent reviews about her health and that made me feel so happy, I just want my mother to be fine and that's all and I can say she has really improved in the past month; that sometimes am tempted to have the conversation that lead to my mother and father separation and it's not because I don't trust my mother or I feel she did it, it's just so I'll look my father in the face and shout "I told you".
I know trust shouldn't be broken in marriage but I felt my father went too far like he didn't even give her a chance to explain and he left her in her most vulnerable state, but you see my mother and my father's issue don't interfere! I really didn't expect my uncles to keep sending the money for this long but they did but I also know it is time for me to look for something so as to save up for the raining days "are you saying you have giving up on school, you are one of the smartest girls I know please keep school in your plans" my friend 'kangyang' said, 'kangyang' has been my only friend and support system since all this ordeal despite a lot of warning by people to stay away from our family and our misfortune this girl was still consistently coming through for my mother and I even if it means sneaking out at night she will do it, simply put she has done it a lot of times and 'kangyang' is that friend everyone needs in their lives "smartness doesn't pay school fees or pay for handout or accommodation oh! Money does and I mean real money" I said and we all laughed about it but deep down I know that someday I'll definitely go to school.
Someone in our village that stays in Abuja visited and had told everyone that 'feng' was prostituting in Abuja, the news moved like wild fire and soon everyone was talking about it was I surprise? no! my only fear is I didn't want my mother to hear about it but 'feng' had gotten the freedom she had always desired and I wish her the very best of life. I got so emotional that I tried looking for my dad again but this time more intensely and I got information that he is fine and he was seriously job hunting because he had moved to 'Jos' I just prayed that what ever he was looking for comes through for him but am still surprise my father can just move on and forget about us like this, I returned home to his cloth washed by my mother (the same cloth she sniffed every night) yes the same one she washed it and dried it and drop it inside her box that day I became more scared, I know people were talking and she is not deaf but I didn't think it this deep but I didn't have the conversation with her.
My mother and i never had the conversation of what happened and i was ok with it until one of her friends showed up, they were more like childhood friends and i really don't know if they kept in touch so i think she visited her mother in our community and heard what had happened to my mom and she decided to come and show her concern about it, especially my fathers leaving her; their was nobody in the high school days that didn't know my mother and my father, when they got married everyone was so happy for them and now hearing this "i had to come and say hi" she said my mum just nodded her head and said "this is the life am living now" the woman showed her disappointment in my father and said if she returned to 'Jos' she was going to look for him. They talked for a while talking about their mates and were they where, it seemed my mother and the woman had a mutual friend and the woman said something i don't want to believe its the truth we all have been looking for concerning my mother the other friend and my sick brother.