The doctors had told us that our mother was going to experience difficulty in remembering somethings that's why I don't want to push much when asking her questions on anything that made her cry too but with this new discovery I think it's time we talked about my father allegation deep down I knew there was a mix-up somewhere but it is going to really break me if I find out that my mother didn't do any of the things she was accused and is being punished for. In fact, she my mother didn't see anything wrong with what her friend said but I did and I was determined to have the conversation with her as soon as her friend leaves.
Since my mother's friend spent almost the whole day, I quickly stepped out to do some chores and errands that required me to leave the house at least ill not have to bother 'kangyang' today again, when I was back she had long gone but my mother was doing fine as I said earlier her health is really improving; she helps herself to the toilet even at night, she eats on her own, she hardly mumbles words to herself again, she doesn't remove her clothes and her shoes anymore and the most important of them all she holds and sustains a meaningful conversation with you and she doesn't skip in between and ask "who are you?" 'laughs' someone you have been talking with you are suddenly asking the person "who are you". Her improvement is tremendous and fast we couldn't be prouder of her.
I was busy in the kitchen and she was trying to arrange the room and when she was done, she came over to me and said "well-done my child, is it the 'Gote' you are making?" Gote is the 'Berom's people traditional meal and it has grown to be most people favorite within and outside plateau state, maybe because of the variety of vegetables in it, I personally love 'Gote' especially how my mother makes hers but as it is right now, she won't be able to cook for us so we will manage with my own which wasn't bad at all "yes Ngo" I replied but the look on my face she just laugh and said "I'll be here to help you" so she picked up a bench and came closer to me, Immediately she started to pick the varieties vegetables I had bought for the recipe.
We talked, played and laughed all through the period of cooking, I was actually leveling the ground and working on her emotions so I'll be able to bring up the most dreaded conversation. when we finished eating, it was time for the conversation and the truth is it was harder than i thought because tell me why i have been pacing round the room and mumbling words, i don't even know what to say. she had asked me like 5times now "Simi, are you okay?" and i will just nod "yes ma, am okay" and laugh my mother named me 'Simi' which means 'love' because according to her she found love in marrying my father and having me was a proof of the love they shared, she deeply and genuinely loved this man and you can see it but i was determined to clear her name and proof her innocence and since people where already saying 'Feng took after her' that really made me pissed and i just want to clear her name at-least i owe that to her. Growing up i saw a woman who was deeply in love with her husband, life threw a lot at them but they held each others hands through it all, so why will she decide to go after Mr. Edwards Solomon at that time like why would she do that to us?.
My mother was getting worried about how i was behaving and she was confused too, "you can tell me anything, you know that right?" "yes mummy" i replied "but can i ask you a question?" she smiled and gave that 'finally' look "feel free" she said making feel so relaxed, "do you remember why my daddy left?" she quickly looked sad and i said "its okay if you don't want to talk about it" but she quickly said "yes i do, i remember what happened and i know you will ask me someday, so it okay but one thing I'll not do is sit with you to discuss your father, he is a good man Simi and everything you see him do is just pressure that made him do it, finally I DIDN'T DO IT, yes i see the question in your eyes" i was shocked at her response because she literally just summarized our conversations in a few words and i felt the sincerity in her answer "but why are you not interested in telling your own truth to correct the narrative, people are talking and they are saying" "let them talk" she cuts in "which ever way they will still talk and so will i continue to clear the air every single time they talk? God sees my heart and at the right time the Truth will speak for itself" she moved closer to me "Simi, my child you are my source of strength in this season and i am grateful but let God do the fighting for us, please" she held my hands so tightly i felt the pain in her voice and her face too but that brought the healing we both wanted, at this point we were both crying "please pray for your father, Feng and the soul of your brother" she said shaking, i couldn't help but cry
"that's enough, its okay!.