My conscience is slowly fading. It feels like my legs can't support me anymore and my vision is blurring a little. For someone like me, being directly confronted like this must have triggered a strong stress response.
"I'm sorry, could you repeat that?"
Did-did he say something just now? I can't hear because of this ringing in the ear. My five senses are dulling. I've gone through this a lot but it's still terrifying. It feels as if my whole world is slipping away from while I'm still technically present. My knees are getting so weak I don't think I can stand anymore.
As soon as I felt like I would collapse, I found myself breathing in the way Mr. Hans thought me: in through my nose, hold, out through my mouth. I found myself stabilizing. Slowly, the ringing in my ear stopped and the blur in my eyes started to fade. To regain composure, I tried to steady myself.
Once the blur vanished enough for me to see, I finally looked up at the boy who's different than the rest.
Even within this embarrassing situation, his vivid blue eyes are still standing out, as if he would see right through me if he looked at me a little more seriously. No-not just his eyes, his whole being is standing out among all these sinful and terrifying people-at least in my eyes, he is. Amidst all this, he's face is vividly confused. His staring at me like he doesn't know what to do. I suppose for a normal person, a situation where a woman is staring at you for seven minutes and barely saying anything when confronted would be quite awkward.
I started to get really embarrassed again. I was a tiny bit proud that even if by a whisper, I was able to say something and not run away. But the shame was much bigger. Big enough for me to lose my composure again. I can only imagine what the boy in front of me is thinking seeing me stay silent, not saying a word and breathing in a weird way.
This situation where both of us are just staying silent and him waiting for me to say something and me waiting for my mouth to just open to let out a word will forever be my most uncomfortable, awkward and embarrassing situation ever.
The alien-boy seems to be reaching his limit. His scratching his head really aggressively and has the most uncomfortable and confused face on. His whole body is really restless. He finally opened his mouth a little to say something, hopefully something that will put both of us out of this situation (though, I'm pretty sure I will be beating myself over this for at least 3 weeks). But before he could say anything, he got dragged away by a weird-looking person.
Through I couldn't care less about the appearance of this person. What truly terrified me was the amount of ominous things behind his back. My heart sank in an instant. That person has most definitely committed murder. I could tell at a glance. But lord knows how many he killed. The only other person I saw with this amount was the next-door neighbor back when I was Eight.
I instinctively took a few steps back and went into defense position. Only that neighbor and my brother has EVER frightened me so much. Just then, I made eye-contact with that murderer. It was so horrifying, my knees wobbled. My whole body started to shake uncontrobaly. I couldn't handle it anymore. I ran from that place without looking back once.
My breathe shook, my heart beat got so fast I was certain it would pop out of my chest. I gasped for more air but I never stopped running. I never looked back, afraid I might see that person running after me.
Like that, I ran until I finally reached my apartments door. As soon as I got into the apartment I locked the door as fast as possible. I fell down to my knees right after and started gasping for air. I was genuinely so scared and terrified.
I pulled my knees close, tucking them against my chest until I can barely breathe. My arms circle around them, holding tightly. I stay in this position for a while to calm my mind. But the fear doesn't go away. My mind is stressed, and so is my body. I can barely think. Too much, like literally-TOO MUCH has happened for one day. My thoughts and everything around me has become hazy. I tried to breathe in the way I was thought to calm down but it only helped me to think a bit more clearly. I tried to forget what happened a while ago and put my mind elsewhere. That's when I vaguely remembered that Dr. Hans told me to join a small club.
I hastily took my phone out of my purse. I think I searched for a small club in Goggle. I don't remember much after that. After a few minutes I had finally got up from the floor and somehow managed to change. I was completely out cold after that. But I definitely joined a club, all while completely forgetting that joining a club meant that there will be 'people' and people also meant that there will be more of those 'things' and that I will have to 'communicate'. As well as completely forgetting the fact that I will have to be there 'physically' or 'non-physically'.
After a day full of chaos, when I was out cold because of the stress overload, I didn't have any idea I would fall into another state of panic after just a few moments of waking up.