Sitting there on a iron bench with wooden seating, a man cloaked in a navy blue sweater and blue shorts sat there quietly as he slowly breathes the nights breath and silence..
Eyes red, body shaking endlessly he fought to hold back his tears as he sat there trying to hold it all in... Unfortunately losing this tug of war between his heart and his tears.
Warm fluids ran down his face as he sat there over thinking as worried and disgruntled with himself for what had transpired...
His phone rang and the name that popped up was Aquileia, she has been calling him several times, however this time he chose to answer...
" Yes Leia... Did you get to her?...."
" NO! I didn't... She isn't answering her phone Mikhail.. nor my messages.... I'm scared...."
Trying to control his breathing and not let his worry show nor the fact his body and soul is crumbling down he tried his best to speak calmly...
" Leia... Calm down... We both know Lorelei... She won't do anything stupid... Well I hope she doesn't..."
" Hope! She doesn't normally take walks at night... It's all because of both of you can't calm down and both of you were so stubborn arguing now.. she gone to walk off somewhere in the damn late of night... And your having a asthma or panic attack... I don't know what to do at this point..."
Breathing slowly he tried pulling himself together as he texted Lorelei a few more times..
" Calm down Leia.... Try calling her again... I'll be fine... I'm use to panic attacks.. your main priority is finding Lorelei..."
Same time as he said that a notification came in on his phone, it was from Lorelei ..
" I'm fine... I just came back..."
The few words from her that she was fine gave Mikhail a huge sense of relief as his mind was relaxing slowly however it didn't stop his body shaking and his chest tightening...
" Leia... She just texted me that she is back... Try calling her.. I'll be here..."
" She texted you!.. thank god.. ok I am gonna call her..."
Hanging up, Mikhail sat there leaning his head back silently for a few minutes before he slowly let it all go and allowed his emotions and tears to run freely.. letting his tears hold the victory this once as he broke down silently....
Covering his face with a rang he tried calming down as he sat there and started speaking to the night...
" Hi God... Been awhile.. honestly I ain't doing so well.... It seem honestly I wasn't really cut out for this love thing.... Maybe it's because I have too much love in me.. or too little.... It seem I hurt all those I care about... It sad really that I am so toxic... I guess this is it.... Regardless if I could try my best to change or not I have already ruin once again the best gift this world could have given me..."
Holding his heart, he squeezes his palm there tightly...
" God... I think I've learned the lesson.. so please all I'm asking is for a few things... Take care of Lorelei... Give her wisdom and understanding, give her health and longevity... Give her love and prosperity... Because she honestly deserves it... Protect her and give her happiness.. because I was unable to fulfil that desperately as I was trying to do in my own way..".
" As for Flora... she is the best accomplice anyone could ever have... Give her the same... Strength, love, protect and most of all good health and happiness... That's my profound wish anyone could ever ask..."
" As for Aquileia... Give her strength and focus... Most of all that shorty needs that more than anything.. give her comprehensive and logical thinking... Give her enlightenment so she can be the better and happier version of her self on her journeys.. she is a good friend. So I profoundly wish that.."
" As for myself..... God you know me... You know my path and destination... So I really don't have anything much left to say aside from one additional thing.... Help me stay focused this time... As my heart crumbles and freezes below zero... Help me still be a decent person... Even though now I'll have to be a cold hearted demon... That's all I ask..."
As he exhaled he looked at the night sky and breathe as he sat there for a while.. opening his eyes as his soul slowly fades into that cold darkness within his soul he was desperately trying to escape from. He now know what he must do.
" Ok Then... This time I'm Awake... No More Dreaming..."