"Octaviađ"
The sound of Amanda's voiceâcracked, woundedâhit me harder than any slap ever could.
"How could you be so heartless?" she said, her words trembling. Her eyes were glassy, brimming with tears she was fighting desperately not to let fall.
I walked towards her immediately, panic rushing through me. "Amanda, I'm sorry. I didn't mean toâ" I began, but before I could finish, she turned and ran inside the bathroom, her sobs echoing through the house like accusations I couldn't outrun.
The silence she left behind was suffocating.
Kemi walked into the room, confusion written all over her face. "Octavia⊠what's going on?" she asked carefully. "You said she was your grandma's helper."
My mouth opened, but no words came out.
"ActuallyâŠ" I exhaled shakily, running a hand through my hair. And then I told her everythingâhow Amanda and I had grown close, how lines blurred, how feelings crept in when I wasn't paying attention, how I had tried to pretend nothing serious was happening while enjoying the comfort Amanda offered me.
By the time I finished, my chest felt tight and heavy.
Kemi was quiet for a moment, processing it all. Then she sighed. "Octavia, what you did wasn't nice," she said honestly.
I looked away, shame burning my face.
"It might not mean much to you," she continued gently, "but you were leading her on. I know I'm a no-strings-attached kind of person, and you know that too. But not everyone is wired that way. Some people catch feelings fast⊠and deeply."
Her words sank in painfully.
I swallowed hard. "I didn't mean to hurt her. I swear. I actually like her."
Kemi studied my face for a moment, then stood up. "I'll go talk to her," she said. "is she in the bathroom?"
"Yes" I replied quietly.
As Kemi disappeared behind the bathroom door, I went back down stairs, my heart pounding. I hopedâdesperatelyâthat somehow, she'd be able to explain things better than I ever could. That Amanda would listen. That she'd understand I wasn't a monster.
Minutes passed.
Then more minutes.
The house felt too quiet.
Thirty minutes later, Kemi still hadn't come back.
A pit formed in my stomach. Should I check? I wondered. I tried to tell myself to waitâmaybe they were talking, crying, working things out.
Ten more minutes passed.
Still nothing.
My nerves couldn't take it anymore.
I stood up and headed upstairs.
As soon as I reached the hallway, I heard itâsoft sounds drifting through the air. At first, I couldn't place them. Then my heart skipped painfully.
The sounds were unmistakable.
My steps slowed as I approached Amanda's door. Every inch closer made my chest feel tighter. I knew those sounds. I had heard them beforeâmany times.
My hand shook as I pushed the door open.
The room went still.
Kemi and Amanda looked up at me, frozen. They were closeâtoo close. Kemi and Amanda were on the bed, naked, in each other's arms
The atmosphere in the room was charged with something raw and complicated, something that made my head spin.
For a moment, none of us spoke.
I didn't know whether to walk forward or back away. My instincts were at war with my guilt. Amanda had been crying not long agoâbecause of me.
I looked at Amanda.
She looked at Kemi.
Kemi gave a small nod.
Amanda hesitated, then gestured softly for me to come closer.
Relief and disbelief crashed into me at the same time.
I smiled
Seems like my day was about to get better đ©
I stepped forward slowly, unsure, my heart racing. No words were exchangedânone were needed. The tension between the three of us was thick, heavy with emotions that had nowhere else to go.
I got on the bed, Kemi took my shirt off, she looked at Amanda and they both pulled my trousers off together
I was in the middle, and they were on both sides
They came closer and kissed each other, with me still in the middle
Then kemi turned and kissed me
And i kissed Amanda
And they both kissed again
Kemi lay down and asked Amanda to sit on her face
I didn't think Amanda would do it
She seemed a little bit startled and shy at first
But she did
I didn't think Amanda was the freaky type honestly
But oh welll....
As Amanda sat on Kemi's face Kemi spread her legs and i immediately knew what to do
I got down on her and started do what i knew how to do best...
This might as well be my best day on earth
What followed wasn't planned. It wasn't spoken about. It was messy, confusing, and charged with unresolved feelingsâcomfort tangled with hurt, desire mixed with guilt.
At some point, the door closed.
The world outside that room faded away.
Later, I lay awake, staring at the ceiling, my heart still racing.
What had just happened didn't feel like a victory.
It felt like a warning.
I had crossed lines. Broken trust. Played with emotions I didn't fully understand until it was too late. Amanda's tears replayed in my mind over and over again, refusing to let me forget.
Whatever we had just done didn't erase the painâit complicated it.
And deep down, I knew this wasn't the end.
It was the beginning of something far messier.
Something that would force me to choose.