(Lunavia pov)
Life at the forest wasn't bad neither was it good that the way my life as always been from the beginning hanging on a thread of uncertainty not knowing what tomorrow's would hold, staying at the forest drove to me into deep reflection of my life.I reminisced about the past wondering how I got back to this situation ,I tried every possible means to make people like me or at least accept the fact that I was normal,that my hair and eyes were just a defect.Nothing worked not even Fame and wealth couldn't wipe the stigma from my existence,I finally understood that I wasn't ordinary what happened to me at the festival won't have happened to a normal person but I still couldn't understand.If I was the reincarnation of a evil person or perhaps I was possessed by an evil spirit I should have been harbouring evil intent in my mind at least for the humiliation and sadness the people of valkan but I just couldn't all I wanted was peace,joy and freedom from this hell of a life.
Although people hardly visit the forest I was always cautious I didn't go out of the house during the day only at night,I would go to a nearby lake in the forest and look at my reflection often most times I would praise and curse my reflectionat the same time praying to the stars that one day I will wake up and find my abnormal features gone replaced with normal ones.I didn't want to be remembered as the cursed girl for the rest of my life I wanted to be like everyone normal person I want to attend balls without people whisperings unpleasant things,I want to walk arm in arm with my beloved across the street with people admiring us instead of throwing insulting glares at is .I just wanted the good things in life or at least the the simple easy things that everyone has, this felt so distant like it will never come true although it felt distant I was hopelessly clinging to the possibility that one day my life will change for the better good with everything I desired.
I alway payed the lake a visit every night I would bath,sing and sleep in it ,it relaxed my troubled mind and sooth my nerves,ever since the incident at the festival I suddenly developed a certain fondness for water.I often swimmed in the lake under the moonlight living in the moment nothing else matters,I couldn't stay a night without it it became an obsession for my restless soul,the forest made me feel like I'm living in a dream.Everything was almost perfect I I rare had any encountered with people which was good for my mind,I had different trees to pick fruits of my choice, various flowers was scattered every where,I even had a pet bunny named kyla she is a orphan like me she was my only companion in this forest I also made friends with other animals but kyla was my favourite maybe it was cause her fur was white.
Even though life at the forest was peaceful I still missed lady Dian,I missed her stroking my hair still I fell asleep she always does this when I had a bad day , I miss her voice,her attitude I missed every thing about her,she was the only family I ever really had she didn't make me feel like I'm unwanted she made me feel appreciated,loved, special and above all she made me feel like a blessing instead of a curse.I remember when I prayed to the gods for a mother some one who could acknowledge my feelings who will treat me like a prices artifact ,the gods answered my prayers and gave me the best mother any one could think of she made me see the world through my eyes in my own eyes but unfortunately fate always had bad intentions towards me.I have come to accept whatever ever life throws at me cause Thier is nothing I could do to salvage the situation
Most times I woke up to find food stuffs and letters at my doorstep but never saw the person who delivered the items,the letter was lady Dian handwriting advising me urging me not to lose faith and pleading for forgiveness.Reading the letters alway made my eyes glisyen with tears,I tried staying at wake at night hoping to see her delivering the letters I wanted to hug her and thank her for her devotion but sadly I never laid my eyes on her again . That didn't stop me I wrote my own letters and dropped it at my my doorstep at night this was the only way I could think of to communicating with her,at first she didn't collect the letters neither did she send more I was terrified blaming myself for coming up with such an idea.It seemed like lady Dian planned to cut ties with me completely but it didn't work,I kept writing letters and kept it at my doorstep hoping for a miracle fortunately my persistence payed off we started exchanging letter this way although we didn't see each other it was something.we told each other about how our daily lives are spent and other things,one day she stopped exchanging letters with me out of the blue it went on like this for a month until it dawned on me she wasn't going to send anyone letters.
It left me pained but i didn't crawl into a corner and cried my eyes sore instead I took control of my life after all I couldn't live in the forest forever no matter how accommodating it is,I tried dying my hair but it was futile so I wore a scarf whenever I went out .I resumed writing this time I wrote under a different name not wanting to attract attention to myself I used leira as my pen name,the kingdom close to the forest was nice the people there was hospitable I soon because a famous writer.on a usual day I went to sell my books when something bizarre happened,my whole body was beaded with sweat my chest tighten my breathing became heavy People attention turned to me they wanted to help me but didn't expect me to float into the air while their shadow bowed to me .