Chapter 11
I sped out of the storage room in a tearful haze and ran out of the school bumping into Saviel who had a somewhat sympathetic look on his face when he beheld my tears.
Till this moment the guy still gives me chills but I really couldn't care less about it right now, I just needed to get home and confess my sins.
I rushed into the massive building, the last time I was here I had left with my head held high because I thought my parents were wrong and I'm right but now I know I'm the one who's wrong.
The winter air was merciless but since it's always winter all year round, everyone is kind of used to it unless you were just born.
I collapsed on my knees, the ground cold and chilly but I didn't care.
I started wailing while waiting for my parents. Their cars are not in the parking lot which shows that none of them is around.
I knelt there for over an hour, my knees numb, my throat and eyes swollen but still heavy with tears that are still streaming down my face in a continuous wave.
I couldn't stop thinking about what had happened in the storage room. If I hadn't prompted him to give me an answer I might have still be oblivious, I shouldn't have said anything to break the bubble we both created, I should have just indulged him at least I'd still have him close, though not as close as I would've loved to but it's still something, I don't even have him in any way anymore because I decided to be an idiot.
I should have known better. It hurts this much because I let it go on for too long. If I had confronted him earlier and he told me this, it might've been easier to move on.
Who am I kidding, I've been in deep from day one.
A black sleek car rolled in and I recognised it immediately as my dad's car. I sighed in relief because my dad is the easier of the two to talk to,he will definitely forgive me easily.
I crawled to his car ignoring the pains on my numb knees.
My tears that haven't dried yet started pouring out again on its own when I saw my dad coming down from his car,"Dad I was wrong, you and mom were right. Being gay is not normal, liking boys is not right. I will change, I will start liking girls from now on, I will stop being immoral, I will do anything you tell me to do just please accept me back, please".
I held his leg tightly, crying and wailing,snot all over the place, my face is probably a pitiful sight but I didn't care. I needed to let him know that I will change, that I'm serious about liking girls, that I'm sorry for disobeying them, that I will never be gay again, that I will start being normal.
There was no response, so I looked up and was confused by the expression on his face. There was a mixture of disappointment and pity but the confusion didn't last, I mean it's only natural that he was disappointed in me and if I can see myself now I'd probably pity me too.
"Dad, please say something. I'm really sorry for being gay and immoral, just don't reject me please". I begged not sure if I can live through another rejection.
"Let's go in". He finally said but there's an edge to his voice.
When we went in and were about to sit down, another car honked and I knew that it was my mom. She's always trying to show off her car, so she honks for attention.
She came in looking as elegant as ever, her face stretched in a smile until her eyes landed on me of course.
"What are you doing here?". She screamed looking really pissed.
My dad was going to speak which I found weird but I cut him off,"I'm sorry mom, I came to apologise for being immoral, I shouldn't be gay, I was confused mom, I thought I knew better but it seems not. I promise I am back to normal, liking girls and being the son I was before my gay phase, please forgive me and take me back".
I pleaded,on my knees before her.
She looked at me for a while and seeing my obvious sincerity smiled in satisfaction,"It's good that you realised your wrong doing, I was about to legally erase your name from the family tree but I'm glad you came to your senses on time. Remember that being gay or being interested in someone of the same sex is wrong and an immoral act, people like that ought to be sentenced to death to avoid spreading this sickness around. I knew you were just confused because there's no way I could have given birth to a gay kid, never. I will cook your favourite food to celebrate your coming back to the family, you're a Royalle now, not Silver. You are our straight son Ashton Royalle, not some gay Wave Silver. Your sister will be so happy, I will give her a call to relay the good news to her, also you might get to awaken now that you're not in your gay phase anymore".
She sauntered off in triumph, her smile so wide I thought her lips might split.
Dad for some reason didn't look happy and that made me think he probably hates me so much that he doesn't even want to see me at all, gay or not.
I couldn't be bothered about him, I had thought he would forgive me easily but instead I was wrong again, he didn't seem to have forgiven me at all,,mom had been the one to forgive me. Which is a good thing,mom calls the shots anyway, it's better to be on her good side than any other person else life will be really difficult for me.