Chapter 10
I was backed up against the storage room door.
Lust had dragged me into one on my way from the restroom and now he's standing in front of me staring at me with those beautiful black orbs that are filled to the brim with desire and lust.
"Sami". I whispered, my vocal tone tainted with unfiltered longing.
"Ash". He whispered back, his hand gliding down and stopping at my waist line.
He grabbed my already throbbing erection through the outline of my shorts and I threw my head back with a groan before holding his wrist firmly to stop his wandering hand.
"Sami, no". I protested but as always, he ignored it, his eyes already glowing before I could even stop him. An urgency in his body language.
I surrendered pathetically, betrayed by my body which did not understand my protest, the only thing it understood is that it's been touched by the same man that it wants more than anything.
When I felt the warm cavern of his mouth, I gave in. Thrusting into his mouth furiously fueled by lust, anger and frustration.
He moaned, thoroughly enjoying the face fucking which encouraged me to go harder and faster.
My climax crashed through me like a tidal wave of release. I pulled out ignoring his moans of protest, splashing my precious seeds across his face, the thick stream flowing from his face down and into his white shirt.
What an erotic sight to behold.
Once his spell wore off, the pent up frustrations spilled over, I couldn't help it. I was already holding it in for too long. He said I should give him time but it's already been three weeks, still no definite response. Is he playing me? Is he toying with my emotions?
"Why do you always do this? I clearly said no but you didn't listen, you never listen. You keep using the spell against me even though you know it's wrong. Don't you feel guilty? Are you really happy with the fact that you're pleasuring me against my will and without my consent for that matter? don't you know this is the same thing as forcing yourself on me? I have been nothing but sincere with you. I have told you countless times that I want you, I've never hidden my affection for you, you know without a doubt that I have feelings for you, so why are you doing this to me, Sami why?". My emotions spilled out of me in waves.
"Ashton…". He looked shocked, like he wasn't expecting my outburst at all.
"I like you, Sami, so much that it hurts not being with you and I've always thought you probably liked me, obviously not as much as I do but even if it's just a little,a tiny bit, I will be so happy but I don't know anymore. Don't you want to be with me?". I stared deeply into his eyes, searching for a hint that he feels something for me, anything at all.
He lowered his gaze, staring at the floor, the rough floor seemed more interesting than me and my chaotic emotions.
"You don't want to be with me? answer me Samiel, you said I should give you time. I think I have given you enough time already, so I just need your reply now. I'm tired of guessing". My expression turned serious. I don't want to keep going in circles. His answer is very obvious with the way his eyes keep flickering to my lips, as if he just wants to kiss my worry away but I wasn't happy, my heart couldn't smile because for some reason, I already know his response will shatter me.
"I'm sorry,Ash…". He paused to take a deep breath but the only thing I could hear was the sound of my heart breaking.
"Continue". I urged him, not even trying to hide the quiver in my voice. My eyes are already moist and heavy filled with unshed tears.
He hesitated, not wanting to hurt me further but the damage was already done, nothing more, nothing less will make the stabbing pain go away.
Upon seeing the insistence in my steady gaze, he lowered his head,"I cannot go out with you".
My vision blurred as my world was tilted upside down, my heart shattered and I could feel the broken shards piercing my organs.
The dam broke and the water flowed out like something was chasing it out.
"Why? Is it because I'm not good enough?Is my character bad? Am I ugly?". I cried out, consumed by heartache.
"No, Ash". He replied reaching out for me but I recoiled as if burnt, which in a way is true, he had burnt me alive, all my emotions incinerated.
"Then why? I know I'm not perfect but I will change, I-I-I can change, please Sami, don't reject me, please. I won't be able to survive without you". I wailed, sliding to the floor while clutching my chest tightly, as if trying to soothe my numbing heart. It feels like my world is crashing down on me.
"Ashton".
"I know I'm not enough for you but I will do anything you ask of me, anything at all".
"Ashton".
"Just don't leave me, please accept me, Sami, my Sami".
"Ashton!¡!". His voice broke through my consciousness snapping me out of the depressive loop, I was stuck in.
I glanced up to see slight worry in his eyes but it quickly vanished, I must have imagined it. There's no way he's worried about me.
"Don't you understand? I am called Lust for a reason, Lust not Love or Like which means I don't do love, I'm incapable of liking anyone. I only sleep around, Wrath had told you that but why didn't you listen? I'm referred to as slut from the place I came from, so why would you think I might like you? There's nothing like that, I'm only lusting after you, I'm only interested in having sex with you, nothing else, so please Ashton stop blaming yourself, I'm sure you will see someone who will like you". Was that care in his voice?
"No Sami, I don't believe you. I don't believe that what we have is just lust". I shook my head rapidly in denial.
"Maybe to you it isn't but to me it is". He shrugged nonchalantly, as if he hadn't just burned my world and destroyed the ashes.
I stared at him in shock, waiting for him to tell me that it's a prank, that he's just pulling my legs but he looked serious like he meant everything he had said to me. Like he would gladly say it again if necessary.
"I was wrong, I know I was wrong. I'm sorry Lust I was wrong. My parents were right, I should've been normal, why couldn't I be normal? Why do I have to like a boy? I should've only liked girls. From now on, I will change, I will start being normal. We can still be friends right?, I won't pester you, I won't make things awkward for you,in fact I can even get myself a girlfriend so that you will feel at ease". I stood there, my heart hollow and empty, no heartache or pain, just emptiness.
"Ashton". His hands reached out to me but I dodged it, not wanting to touch him.
"Please don't, have a good day Samiel".
I turned around and the tears started falling again, imagine my surprise because I honestly thought I already ran out.
Anyway, whatever.