Feng and i used to be pretty close, you can actually say a lot m ore that just siblings bond. My mother will always remind us of this every single day but since Feng started this her behavior i don't even know how to hold a conversation with her anymore like every attempt lead to fight and on days i don't want a fight i just shut up but on days i am ready for one i gave it a shot and it seemed like today was one of those days "so who was the man daddy was talking about? when do you intend to stop this thing you keep doing? i know things are hard for mummy and daddy but that does call for us to misbehave" i really didn't expect the silence i got from her; the feng i know wouldn't even allow me make the 2nd sentence so i paused to think was she not in the mood or she just needed me to burbled? "why are you quiet continue now or are you tired of talking rubbish? do you think everyone is cut up for this life hhaahahahha(laughs) no some of us are not, listen there is a a saying "if you cant take the heat get out of the kitchen" and please look around ehhhh Simi or should i say daddy's perfect daughter?" i was already getting furious but i started it so i tried to keep my cool and i said "i am still your elder sister so you will talk to me with respect! i demanded but the look on her face i knew something was wrong and seriously i didn't care to ask because i knew it was going to be something foolish.
I still couldn't help but notice her long face 'are you okay? i asked casually! noo i am not but i don't want to talk about it! she snapped back " its fine if you don't want to but just know that no matter what you are family and we loved you so much, i actually reached out to hug her but i didn't expect her to give but surprisingly she did! i was so happy because i cant remember the last time she opened up to any of us, she starmmered "i don't like the posiiiiition our faaaamily is innnnn! i haaateee beeeing here watching mummy and daddy surfer to fend for us andddd Niiiirriii is soooo siiiicckkkkk! "shhhhshhshh (i tried to stop her from talking) Feng this is not your fault, neither is it mummy and daddy fault, life happened to them and what you are doing is definitely not the way out of this".
Our conversation this evening made me realized that myself and our parents have actually been concentrating on the pains and hurt Feng has being causing us forgetting that she is also human and humans have a way of interpreting pain differently so maybe this is hers and also besides she is just seventeen years old, seriously we should have done better considering her age but in our defense too she didn't even make it easy for us too so we all share in the blame too, but i tried to caution her and to talk to her to change her way of life, life will not excuse you for being wayward! what you sow you will reap.
The H3 foundation is a non-governmental organization which renders help to displaced people, crisis victims, sick and old people with little or no help; a friend of my mother who heard of our condition and visited enlighten us her more about it, "Mrs zakka you have to keep fighting for the sake of your children" "annnd my husband" my mom cuts in! the shock on the woman's face "you mean to tell me that you two are still madly in love despite the problems you two have gone through" My mom smiled and said "this is a phase and it will pass too" hmmmmmmm the woman took a deep breath and said "okay we'll be here waiting" my mom laughed and said "waiting for what exactly? my marriage to fall or for me to leave my husband? noooo don't even do that because none of it will happen" the woman was left speechless but what else could she have done or said to a woman that was committed to love like that.
Considering the advice of her friend, my mom decided to share the news with my dad little did she know that he was aware of it already "my friend at the site told me but i didn't just want to raised our hopes high again, the children have been down this lane; you and i both know how helpless it leaves them, i don't want that for them but since you are somehow convinced you want to try then go ahead but me i am not going there!" my mom nodded with joy on her face "even if they say you should come and collect 100million naira? they both laughed at said their goodnight.
One can ask what of Niri? he is doing fine at least no more crises for now or lets just say its God that is taking care of him, even if anything happens to him now there is absolutely noting anyone can do about it because my mom hasn't been going out since the last incident so that makes everything on my dad whose rock blasting and selling business is barely surviving because of the hate in that environment on him but he keeps going regardless
Niri has been sick the for the longest that i know of and my parents have just been trying to see how the will just manage him, he was born a sickler i.e someone whose genotype is SS, my grandmother hated my dad for that but the truth is at least what i was told is they where but not aware of the situation because myself and Feng narrowly escaped but unfortunately Niri was the victim it was at that point that they knew that they were both Genotype (AS).