I appeared in a place where it seems to be some sort of a desert. The sand felt warm on my paws and is a mixture of different colors. It looked lovely.
I looked at the moons and howled.
I howled of sadness,
anger,
loneliness
And of pain. Intense pain.
If people back on earth may read my story, they would surely accuse me of being stupid.
But what they don't understand is the pain I felt.
My heart is broken.
My mind is broken.
My spirit is broken.
I need time to heal myself.
I glanced down and saw the scar on one of my paws. A constant reminder of what I've been through.
Subus didn't fully healed my body. She left me a reminder on what I've been through.
I can feel myself healed from the result of copulation. But mind kept reminding me that though my physical self is healed, my mind still knows what I've been through.
I sighed. What should I do next?
The desert felt empty. So I decided to run.
The wind felt good against my fur.
I howled again, feeling excited after a long time.
I felt alive. I felt free.
....
I spent my time exploring around the desert.
I'm all alone here.
That's good.
I want to be alone.
Many mornings and evenings passed by and soon I'm beginning to lose count.
I didn't think at all. I just survived.
There is a little oasis in the desert where I always slept. The cyan colored water was cool, the water itself is sweet to my tongue, providing me some sort strange nourishment as I haven't felt any hunger at all.
The desert seems endless but I managed to find myself back to the little oasis.
I found out that I could not turn myself into a human, silently cursing Subus who tricked me.
I sometimes looked at my reflection in the water. I found myself adorable, making me laugh in a strange werewolf kind of way.
Somehow Subus managed to get the image right, as I looked exactly like a werewolf.
A werewolf that cannot transform back into a human.
Cuss word.
I looked lovely though. My fur seems soft and I have a lovely shade of black colored fur of which it matched with my red eyes.
My teeth looks clean, since I didn't eat any meat. My claws which I spent sharpening on a rock looks well maintained.
I looked stronger, feel stronger and soon began to act like a wolf.
I began practicing some sort of attacks on the boulders I found. I watched with glee as I managed to destroy some.
I'm slowly began to heal. I started to accept what happened to me, as it was out of my hand, that none of it is my fault.
I tried forgetting some of the traumas I experienced but not before I forgave myself first while howling to the moon with joy.
I felt alive.
Finally.
....
Time passed by and slowly, I'm starting to forget on being human.
I focused on my satisfying my physical needs.
Sometimes I go for a long walk in the desert, trying to find an end in this endless desert.
I ended up returning to my little oasis.
I looked at the stars at night, wondering how my old companions are doing right now. They won't missed me, after all, Subus is with them. I was about to compare myself to Subus then I stopped. No point comparing. All of us are unique.
....
I was napping at my little oasis when I smelled something unfamiliar. I instinctly got up and began to growl, as I glanced around, trying to find that threat.
Then I saw a handsome creature, with a wolf like ears and a wolf tail but has a human body and face, emerged from nothingness.
I backed away from him, growling fiercely, threatening to attack him.
He just stood there and then proceeded to play with a flute like instrument, a sort of calming melody.
I stopped growling, enjoying the sound, as it sounds familiar to me but I can't seem to recall where I heard the tune.
I somehow feel joy in my heart, wagging my tail at him, inviting him to go near me.
He did not stop playing the flute until he somehow noticed me walking towards him.
He smiled at me then sat down on the sand while I sat down in front of him and observed his appearance.
He had a very handsome appearance. He had a long black hair that looks silky and a pair of red eyes with a gaze that seems to pierce my soul.
He did not have a shirt but his skin is full of tattoos and he wore a necklace that is made out of black runes.
He had a slightly muscular body and long legs that made me think that he might be tall. His skin is tanned, as if he was a wanderer without a home.
He grinned at me and patting me on the head and told me that I'm a creature who doesn't know how to turn itself back to its other form.
I enjoyed the pats and I nudged him on the chest, asking for more.
He laughed and continued patting me then stroking me while he whistled some kind of tune.
After a while, he laid down on the sand while I remained seated. He kept pointing at the stars, saying all sorts of things that I couldn't understand but I listened.
I followed my eyes to wherever he is pointing too and soon I enjoyed listening to him talk random stuff.
I realized that I was craving companionship.
I have been alone in the desert for quite a long time and I sometimes forget that I was a human. I still retained my memories though I was getting less attached to it.
I still missed Lion though.
I admit I was foolish with my choice but like I said before, I needed myself to heal first.
I sometimes want to go back but I don't even know where I am.
I also can't talk (stupid Subus!) and I'm beginning to think sometimes that maybe I am a werewolf after all. A werewolf that can't transform.
Lion.
I missed him.
I wanted to go back to him but he already got Subus.
I remembered the memories I had with him, his touch, his words of comfort, his kisses, his embrace, his look of desire for me and the first time I saw him.
I think it was the time I fell in loved with him, though I wasn't aware at that time.
I howled mournfully at the moons while a tear fell down from my eye.
Alpha (I named him in my mind), embraced me while I continued to howl my sadness and my yearning for Lion.
I kept howling for a long time.
....
When the suns came out, Alpha asked me if I wanted to go with him. I nodded, since there is nothing else to do here.
He smiled at me then made some sort of a magic circle and I went towards it, standing beside him as he muttered some magical words.
Then we disappeared.