I opened my eyes with a feeling of lightness in my body.
It was as if I had shed my stuffy clothes.
As I opened my eyes, Lisbeth, who had been on my mind just moments before after I realized my desire, was looking at me with a slightly tearful expression.
Seeing that face, I felt a surge of joy for some reason.
A feeling of dissipation washed over me, a fog that had lingered in my mind for days.
Ha Eun-jin. The trauma of my life, but when I looked back on that deeply wounded memory and realized my true desire, even I was surprised that all the anger, sadness, and pain I felt towards her had vanished.
No, now I even feel gratitude.
The fact that she was my ex-girlfriend now feels so unreal.
Recalling her flirting with men while wearing the collar, the only remaining emotion I have for her is a desire to let Lisbeth try that kind of thing.
I probably won't think about her intentionally anymore.
At this moment, I can feel her face gradually blurring.
"Shimo! You're awake!"
"How are you feeling, Shimo?" Ars, staggering from behind Lisbeth, grabbed my right arm.
It seems he couldn't completely block Erebus's hind leg attack... So, where is Erebus?
"I'm fine. How long was I unconscious? Erebus... no, that cat-like creature with two faces?"
"About ten minutes... that monster..." Ars twisted his face, looking towards the location where the magic circle had been.
The magic circle and the dimensional portal that appeared on it had disappeared.
Since Erebus is gone too, it seems it escaped after attacking us. "Oh, I see… Lisbeth? Are you alright?"
"I'm fine… Sorry. I was just spacing out…"
A slightly dejected Lisbeth lowered her head beside me.
Seeing her face, that strange emotion welled up again.
But this time, I wasn't confused.
Because my clear mind knew exactly what this emotion was.
"You should say thank you in times like these. Thank goodness you're not hurt."
"Yeah, yeah… Thank you…"
After confirming my physical condition and current situation, we discussed our next course of action.
The best option was to leave the dungeon immediately, inform the adventurers waiting at the entrance, retreat, regroup, and then search for Erebus.
But Ars didn't seem to be in good health.
His face was covered in sweat, and his arms and legs seemed so badly injured that he could barely move them.
Even choosing the shortest route to leave the dungeon immediately would take half a day.
During that time, even with the best riding experience, it would be difficult for him to move while swaying and clinging to my back. Ars explained that as a hero, unless the injury is fatal, it won't worsen during rest. So we decided to leave the boss's room first, rest briefly in a nearby spacious area, and then return.
We had already determined the cause of the dungeon's anomaly, and the absence of monsters on the way there had been confirmed.
There shouldn't be any danger during our journey or afterward.
Since we were close and he was still able to move, I didn't force him to ride on my back, but instead moved to a nearby room on his own. "..." During the movement, I saw Lisbeth anxiously watching Ars's back from ahead of me.
No, to be precise, ever since I opened my eyes, my gaze had been fixed solely on Lisbeth.
Because during my unconsciousness, I had already understood what I wanted.
Ars's injury was completely irrelevant to me.
After arriving at the spacious room near the boss room, we set up our positions like we would when camping, and then Ars lay down and fell asleep.
Ars's seemingly painful expression seemed to ease slightly after falling asleep.
If I were still unconscious from Elepos's unknown attack, seeing Ars like this would have filled me with worry.
But now it's different.
Ars's current state even fills me with gratitude.
After confirming Ars's sleeping face, I approached Lisbeth, who was gazing at him, and spoke to her.
"Lisbeth. There's something I'd like to talk to you about alone, is that alright?"
"Hmm? Ah, sure... what is it?"
"It's a bit... well, let's go over there..." I said, walking towards the side room opposite. Lisbeth followed with a "what's going on?" expression.
Lisbeth.
The first woman I encountered after arriving in this world.
Ars's childhood friend and lover, who became a hero.
And also the ideal female for my desires.
Although I realize this is a twisted desire, it's not something that can be casually expressed.
This is a distorted desire that no one else can understand.
Even I myself feel worried and fearful about this desire.
For someone who has lived their entire life wearing the mask of an exemplary, model man, suddenly removing that mask is no easy task.
But having recognized my true desires, I don't intend to resist them.
Wouldn't it be enough to properly regulate and release these desires?
Desire, it seems, is what destroys a person when excessively indulged in.
Simply regulate and resolve these desires.
So, how do I control my distorted sexuality and desires?
The method is to not indiscriminately seek out others to vent my desires, but to limit the number of targets.
To make a move on any woman with a boyfriend would simply be the act of a madman consumed by desire.
But what if it's limited to one person, or at most two?
To crave only one female and steal her from other males—though I feel somewhat apologetic to the males whose females are taken, it's not a big deal.
To outsiders, it's just ordinary competition between males for a female.
Therefore, Ars.
Lisbeth will be my woman.
She was the first woman I met in this other world, and also your lover.
If you have any resentment, blame your eunuch-like indifference to this kind of female's sexual desire.
Because this female will belong to me from now on. "...Lisbeth."
"Uh, um? What's wrong?" Perhaps noticing the strangeness in my expression, Lisbeth asked nervously.
"Actually, there's something I want to ask you..."
"A request?" Yes. It was a request. A request from me, now that I've recognized my own desires, to you, who is about to become my female.
"Ah...Lisbeth. Didn't you thank me earlier?"
"Huh? Uh, um. I did." Lisbeth looked slightly confused, wondering what had happened. Just then, something that shocked her suddenly came out of my mouth.
"Then help me satisfy my sexual desires from now on." "...Huh?" Lisbeth's face looked completely unable to comprehend what she had just heard. After a moment, her face turned bright red, and she shouted at me.
"You, you, you, you insane, perverted monster bastard!!! What nonsense are you spouting!?"
"Shh. Ars might hear you. Keep your voice down."
Lisbeth jumped in fright and growled at me in a low voice.
"Eek, eeek!!! Hey, hey! Do you know what you're saying!? Relieving your sexual urges!? Did something go wrong when you fainted!?"
"Hmm...maybe? But this request isn't so bad, is it?"
"What's not bad about this crazy request!" Lisbeth said to me, her face flushed and trembling. Even her face now seemed cute.
"No, these past two days while I was on night watch, weren't you constantly touching my member? Weren't you interested?" "..." Instantly, Lisbeth's face showed a look of astonishment and confusion. I, who seemed to be asleep, actually knew about her embarrassing actions; it must have made her both ashamed and embarrassed. "Actually, I didn't want to bring this up because I was afraid it would embarrass you. During my coma, I gained some awareness of my body. My libido is probably unusual. This member gets erect against my will every day, which is really bothersome. If I don't release it in time, I always feel uncomfortable." "…" Lisbeth blushed and lowered her head, listening silently. "After waking up and realizing this, I felt I couldn't bear it anymore. But I can't go to any brothels with this body. The only person I can ask is you. Since you secretly touched my member in the middle of the night, I suppose you're interested too…" "N-no… I didn't… I didn't…" Lisbeth shook her head repeatedly, her face flushed. Don't lie, you pervert. The status bar has already given it away. "If I had known you were so interested, I wouldn't have bought it when you asked me for the money. But... it doesn't matter now. I was wrong too, and the clothes themselves suited Lizbeth very well, and they were very pretty. But after I fainted while protecting you, I realized my physical condition and I couldn't bear it any longer. Since you're grateful that I saved you, why don't you help me…"
"…" Lizbeth's face flushed red, her eyes even brimming with tears as she glared at me.
She couldn't deny it all.
Whether it was her interest in my member, her protection of her, or her gratitude, it was all true.
"Ugh…! You perverted monster…! Why me of all!? I clearly have Ars…!"
"I had no one else to ask but you. I don't know many people, do I? And…"
I said, looking at Lizbeth's blushing face.
"It's not just anyone, I just want Lisbeth to help me." "…" Lisbeth was speechless, continuing to stare at me. "I won't keep bothering you. Only until I gain humanization abilities. I won't tell Ars, I'll keep it a secret, and I won't use this to threaten you or anything. My body isn't in a state where I need to have sex, so use your hands, mouth, feet, whatever you can do to help me… is that alright?" "…" Lisbeth blushed and lowered her head, remaining silent for a moment. After a while, she looked up at me and said… "...Until you acquire humanization skills... During this period or afterward, if anyone else or Ars finds out, they will really kill you. They will only use their hands; if you dare ask for more, they will roast you on the spot."
"I understand, I understand. Thank you, Lisbeth."
"Absolutely, absolutely do not tell anyone."
"I won't say anything. I won't give anything away, so don't worry. I know very well what kind of request I'm making to a girl." Lisbeth's flushed face hadn't faded, and she spoke with an exhausted expression.
"Haa... How could I encounter such a perverted monster..."
"It's fate, oh fate. Since you've accepted it..."
I, with the agility of a horse, turned my head and lifted the cloth draped over my body with my mouth, revealing my member.
"Ah...! What, what are you going to do...!"
"Just get rid of me right now." Lisbeth, I will slowly turn you into my female.