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Chapter 17 - Past vs Present 2

The cool night air brushed against Mia's face as she fled the garden, her heels clicking against the stone pathway. Her chest felt tight, her mind spinning with fragments of conversations and memories, and the rapid beat of her heart made it hard to think. She had known Liam's return would be complicated—she had expected confusion, maybe anger, maybe nostalgia—but she hadn't expected the tidal wave of emotion that his first words had unleashed.

She paused near the edge of the driveway, staring into the darkness beyond the lights of the Harrington estate. The laughter and chatter of the party were now distant, muted sounds that seemed to exist in another world entirely. For the first time that night, Mia allowed herself to breathe, though each inhale felt like it carried a weight far heavier than the cool air around her.

She could still hear him: Liam, that impossible voice calling her name, insistent yet vulnerable. "Mia… I never stopped thinking about you. Not for a single day."

Memories surged unbidden. Nights when the stars had felt like witnesses to their secrets, whispered confessions and stolen moments of comfort. His hand, warm and steady in hers, the soft brush of his fingers against her cheek when she had been upset, the laughter they had shared over absurd things that should have been insignificant.

And then, the moment that had scarred her, replayed endlessly in her mind: the day he left without explanation, the quiet echo of his absence in every hallway, every empty bench, every unanswered text. The sense of betrayal, of abandonment, that had forced her to learn how to protect her heart before it could be broken again.

Liam hadn't just left. He had vanished, leaving a hole she hadn't fully realized was still there until tonight.

Mia's fingers dug into the strap of her bag as she remembered her friends' voices urging her forward, but the echoes of Ace's presence from earlier pressed against her like a phantom. His quiet observation, the subtle way he had leaned closer, the way his gaze lingered longer than polite conversation demanded—it had unsettled her, yes, but it had also grounded her in ways she hadn't expected.

Her resolve wavered, torn between the past and the present, between the man she had loved and the man who was slowly carving a place in her life now.

"Hey," a familiar voice called softly behind her. Mia flinched and turned to see Lily approaching, her face calm but eyes sharp with understanding. "Mia… talk to me. Don't let him—don't let this overwhelm you without someone here."

Mia's throat tightened. "I… I don't know what to do," she admitted, her voice almost a whisper. "I thought I was past him, Lily. I thought I had moved on, that I could—" She broke off, shaking her head. "I don't know."

Lily stepped closer, placing a reassuring hand on her shoulder. "It's okay to feel this. You're allowed to have complicated feelings. But remember—he left. And you don't owe him anything, not right now, not until you're ready. You set the rules, Mia. You always do."

Mia nodded slowly, letting Lily's presence steady her for a moment. "I… I can forgive him. I want to. But I can't… not fully. Not like before. Not yet."

Lily smiled softly. "Then that's your boundary. You decide what's acceptable. You protect your heart first."

Mia inhaled deeply, trying to summon the courage she would need. She turned back toward the house, the party lights now a faint glow in the distance, and found herself walking, hesitant but determined. She needed to confront him. She needed answers, closure, or at least some understanding.

Liam was waiting near the edge of the garden, his expression a mix of hope and apprehension. When he saw her approach, a small, almost fragile smile appeared on his face. "Mia," he said, voice soft but steady. "I… I know I hurt you. I didn't know how to handle things back then. But I never stopped caring about you. Not once."

Mia's heart thudded painfully in her chest. "Why did you leave?" she asked finally, the words trembling on her lips. "You… you just disappeared. No explanation. Nothing. You didn't even… you didn't even try."

Liam's gaze fell, guilt shadowing his face. "I know. I… I was scared. I didn't know how to face what was happening—my own mistakes, my own fears. And I thought… I thought you'd be better off without me. I was wrong. I see that now, every single day."

The honesty in his tone, the vulnerability he rarely showed, tugged at something deep inside her. She had missed him, yes, but she had also spent years building herself up, learning to rely on herself, learning that love could be complicated, but it could not hurt her if she refused to let it.

Mia shook her head slowly. "I… I don't know if I can ever trust that again. I want to forgive you, Liam. I really do. But I can't… not fully. We… we can be friends. But that's all I can offer right now."

Liam's eyes flickered with pain, but he nodded. "Friends," he repeated, swallowing hard. "I can do that. For now."

The weight of their conversation hung heavily in the air, but before they could continue, voices broke through from the shadows of the party.

"You don't deserve her," Ace said sharply, stepping forward with that unmistakable intensity that always seemed to pull at Mia in ways she couldn't explain. His gaze was fixed on Liam, unwavering.

Lily and James appeared beside him, their expressions mirroring Ace's protective stance. "Ace is right," Lily said firmly. "You can't just show up and expect everything to be okay. She's… she's more than someone who walked away and disappeared."

James's voice added another layer of admonishment. "Do you honestly think she should just forgive and forget? Do you think she owes you anything?"

Mia's chest tightened. She felt the tension of the three of them pressing against Liam, their words heavy with judgment, but also with care for her well-being. She wanted to step in, to mediate, to tell them to leave him alone, but the emotions swirling inside her made her voice catch.

Liam looked between the three, guilt and regret flashing across his features. "I… I know I made mistakes," he said quietly. "I… I was scared. I didn't know how to face what I had done. But I still care about her. I still love her."

Mia felt the old tug of her heart, that quiet pull of memories she had never truly let go of. But she also felt the solid, unwavering presence of Ace, the concern in Lily's eyes, the protective energy from James. She realized then that her heart was no longer a simple thing—it was tangled, complicated, stretched between the past and the present, between what she had once loved and what she was beginning to understand about now.

She took a step back, the cool night air suddenly feeling sharp against her skin. "I… I need space," she said, voice breaking slightly. She didn't wait for a response, turning and walking quickly away from the confrontation, past Ace, Lily, and James, past Liam, whose expression fell into a mix of hurt and longing.

Her footsteps echoed along the stone pathway, a rhythm of escape and defiance. She had faced enough confusion, enough heartbreak, enough unspoken words tonight. She needed time to process, time to understand what she truly wanted and needed.

As she paused at the edge of the driveway, looking back at the glow of the party, she felt a mixture of relief, frustration, and anticipation. Liam had returned. Ace had shown his concern. And somewhere in the tension and unspoken feelings, Mia realized something: her life—and her heart—were more complicated than she had ever expected.

But for now, she needed to breathe. She needed distance. She needed to remember that she was in control of her own heart, even if it was being tugged in multiple directions.

And as she stood there, the lights of the estate casting long shadows across the driveway, Mia knew that the slow burn—the tension between past and present, between Liam and Ace—was only just beginning.

The cool night air brushed against Mia's face as she fled the garden, her heels clicking against the stone pathway. Her chest felt tight, her mind spinning with fragments of conversations and memories, and the rapid beat of her heart made it hard to think. She had known Liam's return would be complicated—she had expected confusion, maybe anger, maybe nostalgia—but she hadn't expected the tidal wave of emotion that his first words had unleashed.

She paused near the edge of the driveway, staring into the darkness beyond the lights of the Harrington estate. The laughter and chatter of the party were now distant, muted sounds that seemed to exist in another world entirely. For the first time that night, Mia allowed herself to breathe, though each inhale felt like it carried a weight far heavier than the cool air around her.

She could still hear him: Liam, that impossible voice calling her name, insistent yet vulnerable. "Mia… I never stopped thinking about you. Not for a single day."

Memories surged unbidden. Nights when the stars had felt like witnesses to their secrets, whispered confessions and stolen moments of comfort. His hand, warm and steady in hers, the soft brush of his fingers against her cheek when she had been upset, the laughter they had shared over absurd things that should have been insignificant.

And then, the moment that had scarred her, replayed endlessly in her mind: the day he left without explanation, the quiet echo of his absence in every hallway, every empty bench, every unanswered text. The sense of betrayal, of abandonment, that had forced her to learn how to protect her heart before it could be broken again.

Liam hadn't just left. He had vanished, leaving a hole she hadn't fully realized was still there until tonight.

Mia's fingers dug into the strap of her bag as she remembered her friends' voices urging her forward, but the echoes of Ace's presence from earlier pressed against her like a phantom. His quiet observation, the subtle way he had leaned closer, the way his gaze lingered longer than polite conversation demanded—it had unsettled her, yes, but it had also grounded her in ways she hadn't expected.

Her resolve wavered, torn between the past and the present, between the man she had loved and the man who was slowly carving a place in her life now.

"Hey," a familiar voice called softly behind her. Mia flinched and turned to see Lily approaching, her face calm but eyes sharp with understanding. "Mia… talk to me. Don't let him—don't let this overwhelm you without someone here."

Mia's throat tightened. "I… I don't know what to do," she admitted, her voice almost a whisper. "I thought I was past him, Lily. I thought I had moved on, that I could—" She broke off, shaking her head. "I don't know."

Lily stepped closer, placing a reassuring hand on her shoulder. "It's okay to feel this. You're allowed to have complicated feelings. But remember—he left. And you don't owe him anything, not right now, not until you're ready. You set the rules, Mia. You always do."

Mia nodded slowly, letting Lily's presence steady her for a moment. "I… I can forgive him. I want to. But I can't… not fully. Not like before. Not yet."

Lily smiled softly. "Then that's your boundary. You decide what's acceptable. You protect your heart first."

Mia inhaled deeply, trying to summon the courage she would need. She turned back toward the house, the party lights now a faint glow in the distance, and found herself walking, hesitant but determined. She needed to confront him. She needed answers, closure, or at least some understanding.

Liam was waiting near the edge of the garden, his expression a mix of hope and apprehension. When he saw her approach, a small, almost fragile smile appeared on his face. "Mia," he said, voice soft but steady. "I… I know I hurt you. I didn't know how to handle things back then. But I never stopped caring about you. Not once."

Mia's heart thudded painfully in her chest. "Why did you leave?" she asked finally, the words trembling on her lips. "You… you just disappeared. No explanation. Nothing. You didn't even… you didn't even try."

Liam's gaze fell, guilt shadowing his face. "I know. I… I was scared. I didn't know how to face what was happening—my own mistakes, my own fears. And I thought… I thought you'd be better off without me. I was wrong. I see that now, every single day."

The honesty in his tone, the vulnerability he rarely showed, tugged at something deep inside her. She had missed him, yes, but she had also spent years building herself up, learning to rely on herself, learning that love could be complicated, but it could not hurt her if she refused to let it.

Mia shook her head slowly. "I… I don't know if I can ever trust that again. I want to forgive you, Liam. I really do. But I can't… not fully. We… we can be friends. But that's all I can offer right now."

Liam's eyes flickered with pain, but he nodded. "Friends," he repeated, swallowing hard. "I can do that. For now."

The weight of their conversation hung heavily in the air, but before they could continue, voices broke through from the shadows of the party.

"You don't deserve her," Ace said sharply, stepping forward with that unmistakable intensity that always seemed to pull at Mia in ways she couldn't explain. His gaze was fixed on Liam, unwavering.

Lily and James appeared beside him, their expressions mirroring Ace's protective stance. "Ace is right," Lily said firmly. "You can't just show up and expect everything to be okay. She's… she's more than someone who walked away and disappeared."

James's voice added another layer of admonishment. "Do you honestly think she should just forgive and forget? Do you think she owes you anything?"

Mia's chest tightened. She felt the tension of the three of them pressing against Liam, their words heavy with judgment, but also with care for her well-being. She wanted to step in, to mediate, to tell them to leave him alone, but the emotions swirling inside her made her voice catch.

Liam looked between the three, guilt and regret flashing across his features. "I… I know I made mistakes," he said quietly. "I… I was scared. I didn't know how to face what I had done. But I still care about her. I still love her."

Mia felt the old tug of her heart, that quiet pull of memories she had never truly let go of. But she also felt the solid, unwavering presence of Ace, the concern in Lily's eyes, the protective energy from James. She realized then that her heart was no longer a simple thing—it was tangled, complicated, stretched between the past and the present, between what she had once loved and what she was beginning to understand about now.

She took a step back, the cool night air suddenly feeling sharp against her skin. "I… I need space," she said, voice breaking slightly. She didn't wait for a response, turning and walking quickly away from the confrontation, past Ace, Lily, and James, past Liam, whose expression fell into a mix of hurt and longing.

Her footsteps echoed along the stone pathway, a rhythm of escape and defiance. She had faced enough confusion, enough heartbreak, enough unspoken words tonight. She needed time to process, time to understand what she truly wanted and needed.

As she paused at the edge of the driveway, looking back at the glow of the party, she felt a mixture of relief, frustration, and anticipation. Liam had returned. Ace had shown his concern. And somewhere in the tension and unspoken feelings, Mia realized something: her life—and her heart—were more complicated than she had ever expected.

But for now, she needed to breathe. She needed distance. She needed to remember that she was in control of her own heart, even if it was being tugged in multiple directions.

And as she stood there, the lights of the estate casting long shadows across the driveway, Mia knew that the slow burn—the tension between past and present, between Liam and Ace—was only just beginning.

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