When the purple light shone unto the eyes of Dexter he was immediately put into a trance.
FLASHBACK
Dexter was walking home a beautiful girl in the pouring rain, right now he was fourteen and had just experienced his first love.
At this moment they had both reached the home of the girl Sydney.
"I guess this is where I stop." Sydney said but she didn't move.
"Um..the umbrella!?" Sydney said and it snapped Dexter out of his trance.
He realized that they were both sharing one umbrella and decided to let it go and suffer under the rain.
Sydney took the umbrella and made her way to her home door while Dexter stood there watching her under the rain like a fool.
Dexter at the moment was caught between making a huge decision, he wanted to tell Sydney how he felt but he was also afraid.
Then Dexter built up the courage and just when Sydney was about to reach for the door handle Dexter called out.
"Sydney!!"
Sydney stopped and turned around to face him.
"I just wanted you to know that I love you, I feel that you are the one for me." Dexter confessed with emotion.
Sydney just stood without reacting in any way and then she just laughed.
"I can't believe you thought I would go out with someone like you a nerd, I just used you to do my homework, I can't believe you actually fell for me, ha."
Then Sydney went into her home and shut the door.
Dexter just stood there under the pouring rain dumbfounded.
He felt something warm on his cheek and felt it, he felt it was wet, he didn't know if it was the rain or his tears he just stormed back home.
He immediately went in and shut the door.
He couldn't believe it, the person he had, had a crush on for so long was just using him, he felt deflated right now.
He just layed on his bed as he cried.
END OF FLASHBACK
Dexter after that flashback pulled the blade closer to his neck, but then he stopped, as soon as he stopped another flash back played.
FLASHBACK
Dexter was fifteen now, he had finally gotten over his rejection from Sydney.
Now at the moment he was interested in a new girl Clara.
Now he and Clara went out to have lunch and were going back home together.
He was really afraid to tell her how he felt, this time because of how the Sydney situation ended.
"No I have to be strong." Dexter thought to himself.
When he finally faced Clara to tell her how he felt, Clara suddenly put her arm around his shoulder and looked at him intimately.
Dexter stiffened and he was surprised as he was happy by what was happening, but it didn't last long as a young man walked up to them.
The man seemed to have been between the age of eighteen to nineteen.
"Clara, what are you doing?" The man asked.
"Don't you have eyes? I am with my new boyfriend." Clara said with a smirk.
"Boyfriend!? I am still your boyfriend, it is because of him isn't it?" The man asked seething with rage.
"This has nothing to with him, I just don't like you anymore." Clara said.
Dexter hearing everything what Clara said was very happy in his heart.
"Clara I'm sorry ok, please can you come back to me." The man pleaded.
Dexter at this moment was expecting Clara to shun him away and tell him how much she loved him but that never happened.
"Are you really sorry?" Clara asked, and the man nodded.
When Dexter heard that he couldn't help but get uncomfortable.
Then the worst happened, Clara left him and Infront of him kissed the man.
After their long and passionate kiss Clara looked at the stunned Dexter.
"Surprised, sorry I had to use you to get back my boyfriend." Clara said with a smile, like she had not just hurt Dexter's feelings.
The man on the other had wasn't so considerate and threw a punch at Dexter.
"Fuck you for touching my woman." The man said.
He looked at Clara expecting her to do something but she just looked him over and walked away.
END OF FLASHBACK
No the knife that was moving ever so close to Dexter's neck was getting even closer.
Just when it was about to reach the pivotal moment and cut his neck, he stopped.
The purple light shone again as he entered another flashback.
FLASHBACK
Dexter was sixteen and he had decided to forget about women and focus on himself.
He lived like that for a while but things always don't go to plan.
He got close to a girl, but this time she was older than him.
Emilia was nineteen of age and usually dates younger guys.
Dexter felt that there was a lesser likely hood of her dumping since she was more mature.
One day she invited him to her apartment for a date.
They both had a good time but it seemed to be getting late.
"Um.. Emilia, it's getting late, so I think I'm gonna bounce." Dexter said.
Emilia hugged him from behind.
"No don't go stay a little longer." She whispered into his ear in a seductive tone.
Dexter who hadn't experienced anything like that stiffened.
"O..Ok," Dexter stammered.
Later they were both watching a movie on the couch, when Dexter started to feel a little light headed.
"Dexter are you alright?" Emilia asked after she noticed his pale face.
Dexter didn't answer and just collapse on the floor.