I have come back from school....
So I thought to write in the diary
The first day of high school...
I was really excited...
Excited not in the real sense...
I mean I had a gloomy face... So no one could see how excited was I...
My dad was at the outside space....
He obviously couldn't come to leave me...
Mom was busy with some case of the enforcers department...
I had to go alone....
My driver dropped me at school..
About the school it was one of the best facilities... With all the latest technology..
The infrastructure was amazing as well....
Our classes were already predetermined....
We were randomly allotted.... There were no specialized classes...
Our school believed in everyone receiving equal treatment...
Frankly speaking.... I had rarely attended middle school...
It was psychological...
So I had gone to to give exams only....
It's been such a long time that I had interacted with people of my age group...
So I thought I would take some time to settle down.......
And...I really took it slow...
I guess...that taking everything slowly really was a mistake on my side....
As...I missed the golden opportunity to make any friends...
So today on the first day..I couldn't make any friends....
Tomorrow I definitely will...
Days passes like this...and I coudn't fit into any group...
I had become a total loner...
There was a group of seniors...
Seniors for all of us but they were actually in our class...
They were the ones who were basically called the bullies...
Whatever they did...they never got caught....
That is why ....complaints were lodged and none of them were looked into...as there was no conclusive proof....
They only targeted the ones who were alone..
And the only person in the class was me...which fitted that category...
There was no one who stood for me...
Days passed by..and they kept bullying me...
I wanted to stand up for myself...
Those scars on my foot were the proof...
But I couldn't....I could't build up the confidence to speak for myself...
So I took all of the bullying...
The main reason being...I did not want my parents to worry about me...
The daughter of an enforcer couldn't even look after herself...
The days kept passing on....
But one day sunlight shone on me...
The black days of my life started to vanish...
A kind transfer student came to my class.....
Her name was Chaewon...
We pretended not to be friends...
It was my idea...
To protect chaewon
Otherwise the target would have been her as well
It was really tiring...hiding all these scars on my foot...
It was painful
I do not know why I couldn't speak
Why did not I speak against violence
Who is to blame...
I am crying while writing all this...
I do not feel good...
I will stop writing...
This diary is empty
As I have only written twice..
And today is the last day I have written....
Today is the last day...Sarang