Urghhhh. Is she gonna say that was an awesome fight too?
Annie skip forward. Jenna and balrow just behind her. Her in first, excited. Jenna just after, trailing as if pulled along by her, exhausted. And balrow, a step behind the two of them observing the scene and the girls.
Observing...everything really.
Especially me.
Damn what's his deal since last time?
"It was truly, an awesome fight" malfoy answer first to Annie excitement.
But I can't really focus on the discussion. Wondering what's wrong with balrow.
Strangely enough, a small part of me tell me it's a way to avoid the discussion.
"IT WAAAAAAS! THAAAAAAT JUMP! Good job boys, don't even need our help I see!"
Something rise up in me, clawing in my guts and coming up my throat.
"Indeed indeed, we do make an incredible team Ludger and I."
Something that makes me sick of it. That's why I turn my head, look at the both of them. And listen. Every single little words.
"Wellll" Annie shake her head. Moving extremely slowly in my eyes. Lips coming up and move to speak up. I'm focusing too much, so much that it becomes weird.
"Ludger did everything but alright"
Malfoy eye twitch. Stopping and staring down at the mouse, mouth lashing out "Uhuh. Well aren't you a child, directly attacking me as such"
Annie that was looking at me. Probably wondering if I'm gonna come fight verbally with them too, go back to looking at malfoy.
"Attacking? I'm just stating faaaaacts"
And that continue. Like that. My mind pulling all the veneer out of the words.
Completly ignoring jenna that's just sighing behind, hands on her hips. And balrow that's looking at everyon-! At me, just me.
But it doesn't matter. It rise up, and I listen. Again and again.
It's like my head is pulled to the side. Forced to look at the conversation. At being completly aware of it. It's as if invisible hands grabbed my head and shoved it on the side.
For some fucking reason. I really. Really. Really don't want to ignore this. Yes, I admitted it. Yes that's annoying. But. But. But.
My teeth clench.
I don't want to ignore my mistakes again, yeah, I did that. Yeah so what? I'll face it for once.
Even if it's hard, even if my hand comes up to rub my forehead. Trying to distract me as I play with the stray strands that escaped my hairtie. Even as I do my best to focus on what's malfoy is saying.
Slow dumb smirk on his face. "Well. Yes. I'll admit, it is true that ludger did the brunt of the work, quite an incredible performance"
Annie, who thought she had him. Stop. Blink, do a fucking double take and say smartly "Uh?"
Malfoy jump. Not litterally dumbass. He just jump on the opportunity, like a shark smelling blood. "Yes, Ludger was quite barbarish in this fight, almost didn't do anything"
And then he wave at me, small smile on his face "Aren't I'm right Ludger"
URGHHHHH DON'T MAKE ME REMEMBER! My thumb and index press against my forehead. No headache...yet.
But again, I don't want to dodge what I did today. Not again.
So sinking in those uncomfortable feelings I answer.
"Yeah yeah whatever." Those words were horribly hard to say.
Annie look at me, and then at malfoy. "WHAT!? You-you just!"
Yes, he just admitted weakness. Weird or whatever, but he did weirder when they weren't around.
No rivalty fighting to the death kinda shit.
Annie was expecting another fight to the death. But she got outmatched.
Again. In the one area she thought she could beat malfoy, arrogance.
Her eyes widen, looking at me, at malfoy, and then turn around to jenna who's still looking at everything like a tired mother.
"Jenna?"
Jenna nod and hum back as Annie whisper.
"I think ludger tamed Matt-!"
"Now you're exaggerating you filthy mouse, don't you have any measure of politeness? What I did is simply called admitting the truth of what happened. Something you may have trouble apparently. You small dark haired, ugly, liar."
Annie stop.
Jenna stop.
Balrow keep looking at me, what's his fucking problem again!?
I look up to stare at him. He stare at me.
Annie laugh and look back at him for another verbal spar, clearly glad that she have another way to push malfoy.
Jenna shake her head and slowly walk toward me. Ignoring the two. As the sound of their conversation get zoned out in my mind.
It's easy to hear. They aren't talking about the fight anymore, of how impressed they are about the thing that just want to make me puke my guts out.
Jenna hand slowly come to rest against my shoulder. Barely felt the touch.
Almost no one would have noticed this touch, it's too light, too nervous and tentative.
But I did. Worse. I felt hyper aware of it.
But I don't flinch. Not again. My eyes going at her as her voice, closer, overpower the two at my right.
"Are you fine?"
Worried as usual. Her eyes going on the blue blood on me.
My hand, the right one. Cling on my thigh. Rubbing some of the weirdly floaty substance.
Feel like jelly, or flan. But liquid.
"Yeah. Just a little tired" the smile on my face could fool anyone. Really just the head of a tired guy. Not like I lied, I'm tired.
Just didn't said the whole truth.
Jenna smile come up too, just after. satisfied with that answer. She squat down in front of me, resting on the balls of her feet.
"We're gonna rest soon don't worry. Want to go now?" She tilt her head. Like she's asking a fucking question.
WHAT AM I A CHILD!?
I sigh loudly and let out a small chuckle, bit forced.
"Jenna, I'm no..." I don't finish my sentence, waving my hand instead.
Ehhhh, don't wanna go on that territory.
"Don't worry, everything fine. I can deal with that"
She nod for a second, her smile still everpresent on her face as I ignore balrow staring at me.
Her mouth moves, and my blood run slow.
Cold in my veins as I don't hear what she's saying.
It's not a me problem.
I'm not getting crazy again. No, don't worry, not this time.
It's just a physic problem.
It always happen.
When one of those ridiculous big doors start moving. Kicking up sand without any care in the world. Making a ruckus.
It just hurts your ear you know?
It hurts, and it makes sure nobody can hear you.
Jenna head turn to the left, her left, my right. Staring, lips closed now.
The two on my right stopped bickering, and just decided to stare again.
Even balrow freed his eyes from me.
Everyone is focused on it.
Me included.
Because what the fuck system?
Another wave?