(Minato run toward the playground)
I entered the playground—happily.
I stared at swings and see-saw, I remember… I met Shimizu for the first time.
My one and only friend since childhood.
I chuckled, "My trauma is gone with his help… how he is so bright like a sun in front of my eyes he… he..h…"
In my childhood.
When I was in second grade, I understood something… Little sadness in his face.
***
I am introverted. I always want to talk to someone who understands me, but no one understands me, not even my parents.
I realize no one is going to be with me in the future. They always left me behind, like they use me when they don't understand or need help and after helping them or explaining to them they toss me into trash like I am nothing.
Those people who I helped them too many times.
I sign—broken one but soft.
Those people met with some others like they became another person. They bully or beat me.
After that I became cold hm… rude as well as.
I see the world at a young age. I know people show something in front of you and behind them they are cursing you or mocking you in their gossip.
If you hear they tried to convince they weren't it was that person who was telling me to try to stop him but he…
I know every tactic they were playing on me. I am not a fool.
One day, I couldn't control my anger.
That friend where I helped so much that I don't remember how many??
That person was spreading rumors about me.
At night the President, Guwan Woo, My classmate as well as. He came into my house—to discuss something important.
I think the president needs some help on duty or any study materials.
"Okay, come president what you need." I invited him into my room with a smile.
His face is in anger, his face is red in frustration and embarrassment.
He glared at me.
"What have I done wrong bro." The president whispered in anger.
I can't understand what he is saying, "What, president are you talking about."
The president crossed his arms,"Ohh..!! You are playing dumb. Huh…"
"Disguisting bastard." The president mock me.
"Why are you cursing me? I don't even know what you're talking about."
"You don't know what I am shouting at you. You're telling everyone you like me." The president mumbled—rudely.
"WHAT!! When I say I like you. I just admire you, Guwon Woo" I defend myself.
In return.
He punched me—too roughly.
Blood started flowing from my mouth. I was weak from my birth, I know that.
He grabbed my collar in a rage of anger, "Don't say my name from your disgusting mouth."
I can't understand what is happening to me. When I say I like him.
He left me behind and shut the door—roughly.
I flinch~~
I stared at the door, my hands and legs trembling in fear. WHat I do wrong. WHEN?? WHEN??? I say I like him.
Click I remember something.
Two days ago,
I was staring at the President how he do something so quickly in minutes and I take… hehehe
My friend was beside me looking at me with a strange look.
"You like Guwon?? MInato." My friend asked me.
In flow-flow I say, "Yes…"
The bell rang… DING DONG~~
After that I left the bench and went into the class
I felt something was wrong but I didn't understand at that time.
But I understand now.
I don't know who said that to him. I need to find… I wish he wasn't him. I am thinking, now.
My tears burst like flood from my eyes.
My blood is flowing and now tears too… What an amusement I found today. Hahaha…
Next day~~
I entered the class so early with no one there.
I went to the washroom to wash my face but in returning some people entered the class after me.
When I am going to enter.
"Hm… Minato came so early to see his cheap bag." a familiar voice.
I pick at him from the corner of the door to not notice.
I see my friend, who I trust blindly.
"You know Minato likes men, disgusting. Stay away from him I am warning you.
A classmate said, "But why are you with him then??"
My friend, "I am with him because he doesn't do anything with me but I am a little afraid of him too." He says so casually like he knows everything about me.
"I have been ignoring him for two days."
I realized he was really ignoring me for two days, and my face dropped—sadness.
"You know, one more interesting thing." He crossed his hand.
"What??" A classmate glanced at him.
"He likes our president, Guwon Woo." My friend's face became dark.
"What… He really likes you, confirmed by Minato." A classmate asked.
"Yeah I do." I swear to my mom.
Then I understood what rumors were spreading. Why were classmates ignoring him? Why did the president punch me at night?
All things are linked from that two days ago and that strange look on his face.
That day I understood, from the start, I don't have a real friend…
In anger I go toward me.
*BUM…
TO BE CONTINUED.