Mm… wah…—crying.
My eyes are fluffy and covered in tears. My eyes became red because of crying.
I was curled around my knees, suffocating in breath… my tears were not stopping.
It was falling and failing—time was wasting little by little.
I closed my eyes tightly, "I am fine." I stand.
I make a fist;
I beat my chest from my fist to encourage myself, "That's nothing I need to face it."
I take a deep breath to calm, but my tears are still falling.
I roughly—rubbed my face to fade the tears. I feel the darkness, fear I guess behind me, staring… at me—quietly.
*Shh…~!
In silence, I remember the blood cough of mine last night.
I feel the pain in my stomach, my mind is in daze, my eyes are blurry and my heart is beating fast.
I calmed myself. I just take one more deep breath—exhale for many times I repeat.
Finally after fifteen minutes.
I calmed down… I lay on the bed and staring at the ceiling—not emotions in my eyes left.
*ONLY DARK… DARKNESS.
I closed my eyes for a few minutes. I remember a person who said something…
"I am waiting, Minato." A person whispers.
My eyes quickly open, I sit—in shock; I was covered in sweating.
That person was blurry, I don't know who he is?? But it calms my mind and my heart too.
His voice and sweetness was familiar to me—I smiled from the little bit of happiness in my heart, living in my body for a long time—but… it was fading.
How long would it take to destroy me—I am laughing at my foolishness to think Lion would worry, "Ha ha ha…" My tears start falling again into my laughs.
I rubbed my cheeks where the tears were… and my face became normal.
I changed my clothes, I went again to the curse washroom where I found that shit and washed my face in the cold tap water.
To wake me up, I stared at myself in the mirror.
My hair was messed up, my eyes are red like blood. I realise what I became. I smiled seeing that, I can't hide the pain through my smile anymore.
I sign~~
I slapped my cheeks through my hands. And laughs—fake.
My face dropped, I turned and left that washroom, "That was scary."I mumbled to myself.
I left the room; I led to the dining area. I am hungry, "he he…—how can I ignore it."
I see my husband and his mistress sitting already and eating their breakfast—so annoying.
I go directly to the kitchen. I started to prepare my own breakfast to eat.
I take out two eggs and the bread.
I put bread on a toaster and boil two eggs. I need coffee too, "he he…"
(All Minato's fear, darkness and frustration faded; he liked food too much. He knows he is a little happy now.
Not fully…)
I make a normal coffee but add three teaspoons of sugar.
I like sugar of course.
Waiting for two minutes to get my breakfast prepared.
I take the utensils from the rack and wait. Food is ready.
*TICK DING~~
I take it in utensils and just sit a little far from them; I take out my mobile from my pocket.
Hmm… to ignore their faces—to not make my mood bad again.
I just scrolling and scrolling;
My stomach is done now, now time for me to go.
I smiled at myself.
Hm.. today I need to meet the doctor about the night condition.
Pictures are flashing in my mind—continuetly, like it don't want to go away that time easily.
My head started aching again, not that worse.
BLOOD COUGHING~~
Of course it is important, first I need to go to my work place
If I don't go, shimizu will kill me first, then my disease me hehe.
A soft smirk in his mouth.
Then when my work is done I go to meet the doctor… I need to ask his name. That doctor named it so boring to say doctor that doctor this.
(In that way he was again lost in his mind. Toka and Lion were staring at him with soft eyes.)
After five minutes~~
I stand up suddenly and take my utensils in the kitchen; Put them on the sink without any chatting.
I left to take my bag from my home.
Then I opened the main gate and left to my word.
My mood was fresh because I also took out all the negative energy by crying.
When I was standing near the light pole, I saw a playground about one or two metres away.
My mind said: Go to your work but My heart said: Only Two minutes if we go to the playground it is more refreshing like we are playing at that playground.
(But Minato saw that playground for the first time. HIs childhood playground in his own hometown.)
I hear my heart demand and go toward the playground like a kid…
(Who forgot his job, his age, his disease. Now he only wants to live his life at least happily for the last three months of his life.)