I felt myself feeling dizzy and sick to my stomach, as I feel what ever drug they put into my body leaving my system. My mind was trying to process my surroundings and as my eyes were opening slowly, I tried to move to get up but my body wouldn't budge. While my mind has fully processed my surroundings, I look around to only noticed that I've been tied to a chair.
Panic took over as I noticed what was happening. Valentino was probably cooking up something unsettling for taste. As my awareness took over by this idea, I tired to wiggling out of my restraints but they wouldn't ease up.
"I'd stop struggling if I were you. They only hurt more when you do." I look up to see Luca staring at me and anger consume me "What the fuck, Luca! Do you really think kidnapping me would be the best way to go about this?!"
"Valentino wants this kid, Bella! You think I wanted this to happen?! He's desperate, Bella.. You have to understand.. Your all he has in this world right now.." this settled in me like a deep cut. I wanted to love him but there was to much damage done for it to be repaired. I didn't want this. He's forgetting this wasn't my fault.
I turn away from Luca "So where is he now?" he sighs hopefully, clearly feeling stressed "He is getting the family together for a meeting to discuss this matter. He told me to watch you." I look at him quickly "They'll kill me!"
He counters back "We're not monsters, Bella. You don't know that."
"Tell that Sophie's dead parents."
We both remain silent. Both taking in the heat of what was said. I knew I hurt him but my life is important. Sophie only had this family now because they took everything already, but my dad only had me. I was all he had. I wasn't going to become Sophie. I wasn't going to live her life. I was better than that. And though Luca was stubborn to admit it, he knew it too.
"You know.. despite what you may think about me and this family now, we always protect the innocent. We never hurt them because we want too. So, go ahead and judge us now. You'll clearly regret it later." He came close to me, to where I could see every line on his face, both dark and grey "Don't forget, your father was one of us. Just ask him, how many people he killed. I'm sure he'll love to answer you." I pushed off the chair. The urge of wanting to rip his face off came over me but once again, I couldn't move because of these stupid ties.
I glared at him, relaxing back into my chair "A hurt for a hurt. I pushed you, so you pushed back." I smiled a bit "Luca, you may think you have my father all figured out in your head. But my father will never be like your dysfunctional, crime den of a family. I think you sometimes forget whose father is still alive here." He slammed the side of my chair, making me jump but I still kept my still presence of calmness "Same to you. In your head you think you have each and everyone of us figured out. But you have no idea who we really are."
I countered back "Your right. I only know that I was lied to and that the guy I loved is a murderer. Forgive me, if I'm keeping things simple and clean to the facts. Does that bother you?" He laughed at how brave and fast my response came "You think he lied to you. Ha! Bella if you think that's true then your more oblivious to the truth then I thought."
I stare at him confused "Your nuts. I know the truth. Don't try to make me feel otherwise." He smiles "But you do, don't you? I mean, just think about it. When have Valentino ever admit to lying to you. Lying and keeping you in the dark are two different things." He saddens, looking at me with both pity but yet anger "He never lied to you, Bella. He just kept you away from this but when you found out, he did what was necessary. But you just had to go looking about, didn't you? Thanks to you, he's more desperate then he's ever been." He slams his hand on a table next to me "And now that a baby is part of this equation in his mind. There is no telling what lengths he'll go to now." I pressed him, desperately "Than let me go! I'm just as desperate to run away from this. I don't want this baby to be born in such a bitter and cruel reality. My future child deserves better." He turns away from me but I kept on "Luca! Please! Look at me- would you really want this life for your niece or nephew?!" He turns around, fearful "Of course, I don't want that for them!"
"Then let me go. Please, Luca.. I've never asked you of anything.. You could save me from all of this.. You could do for me, what you couldn't do for Sophie.." he shakes his head "I can't, Bell-" I cut him off "Luca, just look at your family. Can you honestly tell me, that I could be safe here-THAT my baby can be safe here?" he sighs in anticipation "You think I want you here, right now? We are in the middle of a war. Valentino, is probably not in his right head space and he can't afford to have any weaknesses. And right now, your the fucking weaknesses. I'd like nothing more then to let you run free-" I cut in "Than do it! Let me go! You'll be doing your brother a favor!"
"It's not that simple, Bella! Your pregnant now. Knowing that-of course we wouldn't just let you leave. We need to make sure your safe and protected at all times."
I glared at him. Of course, I was pregnant now. If I wasn't, I bet they would careless. I shake my head in disbelief "Is that because the baby I'm carrying has Falcone blood or is it because your genuinely want to make sure I'm protected?" he stays silent.
And there was my answer. It's because of the baby. At least I know Valentino wants me and the baby. For some reason, that was enough for me even though I wanted to escape this life he lived.
"It's fine. You don't have to try so hard to answer. Now you know why I'd never come to this family willing. Your monsters. If no one is your family, we're better off dead in your eyes." he shakes his head walking towards the door but before he walks out, he says one thing "If being a monster is going to keep you alive. Than I'm fine with that."
And there I sit with the silence and what he said. Why would he care so much if I'm alive or not now?