I woke up, to the sounds of my own breathing and the pure sickness I felt. My stomach was doing turns and flips to the point I felt completely and utterly sick. I quickly made my way to the bathroom and threw up, as my body went limp over the toilet seat.
Did I eat something bad?
I got up from the bathroom floor and made my way to the calendar. And now that I thought about it.. I was late.
A month late..
Walking out in the hall, to see if I could go wake up my dad. I felt it would be a bad idea.. So, I didn't. Instead I made my way to his car keys and drove to the Falcone's. If me being late meant something, it only meant one thing.
... I was pregnant.
I knocked on the front door twice. And to my surprise, everything was the same. The gates, the yard, and even the garden.
The sound of the door opens "Bella?"
If only, he didn't say anything. I would have thought it was Valentino, himself. But it wasn't. It was Luca. Valentino's twin brother. The under boss.
"Is Valentino here?" trying to make my way passed him, he blocks my way.
"You know I can't let you in like that. Why are you here?" I glared at him.
"That's for your brother to know, sadly. It's important. That's all you would need to know."
As if having a death glare showdown, the voice behind him is what grabbed my attention "Bella?.." and there he stood. Strong and tall. I pushed Luca aside. He could have stopped me considering our built difference but he didn't.
I walked up to him mad but blurted out "I'm late." he stares at me confused.
"Bella, calm down. Just explain to m-" I cut him off "Don't you know that's the worst thing to say to a pregnant teen." I say furiously. And just like that, Luca quickly moves to cover my mouth and Valentino nods his head over to a door I didn't see before the last time I was here.
Valentino and Luca moved with panic and precision, as they dragged me into the room that was behind the door, as I struggled.
When we was safely behind it and enclosed in it. I pushed Luca off me and glared at both of them "What the hell?!" Luca stares at his brother to indicated 'what the hell did he do."
This look his own brother gave him, I agreed with. But I was the one that was angry.
Valentino steps to me "We're free to talk here. It's soundproof. Now tell me, is what you say true?" I can see that he was already thinking logically.
"I haven't taken a test yet to confirm it. But considering the morning sickness and the fact my period is late. I'm sure, I'm pregnant Val." Luca interrupted "There is a simple- reasonable explanation for this." I snorted a angry laugh "This is not a seven day late period, Luca. I'm a whole month late."
This fact alone shuts him up. He looks to his brother "This is not good, Valentino." and I could tell him the same thing.
However, this didn't phase him. I wasn't sure if he was in shock or he was still processing the information. That he was going to be a father at such a young age. I mean, it was just a couple a months ago he turned into the boss. Who said he wanted to be a father on top of that?
He sighs "We can't let the family find out about this. We should keep it hushed, until we figure out what to do."
Was that seriously an order just now?
I glared at him and stepped closer to him "Have you any idea what this could mean?! There is no such thing as keeping it hush, hush! I'm only going to get bigger and bigger as the months go by! I haven't even told my father, Val! Do you have any idea how this looks?!-How this will make me look?!-"
"Of course I know how this look! You think I meant for this to happen?!" we glared at each other. Which I bet was with love and hate in our eyes.
"Yesterday, I only came to talk to you. Try to make you see what I did was to keep you safe."
"Am I safe now?" I questioned him. I wanted him to see no matter what he did. A world like his, is a world I'd never be safe in. I wanted him to answer. I wanted him to see that everything till now, almost cost me everything. I even had my mother's death to show for it and my father's mourning's to prove it. I wanted him to say that he was wrong. That everything till now, was nothing but his stupid family's fault.
I wanted him to look me, dead in the eye and make it clear to me; that it was because of his family that our love cost us much- if not more. He needed to see through my eyes that his family cost me my soul- that falling in love with him was the biggest mistake of my life.
And now.. we're going to have a baby to show for it. I knew very well what his family was capable of. If they found out, they would probably make me and Valentino get married and try to rise my baby to be the next crimson heir, to the crime den of the Falcone household.
I would die first, before I let that happen.
"Let's face it, Valentino. Your family is poison. The only reason you want this to be secret is because you know what your family will do if they found out. There is only one of two things they would do and we all know it." Luca steps in "Sophie and I made it-" I cut him off before he can finish.
"But Sophie was a Marino! She already was tied into this since birth. And surprisingly she isn't dead. It specks much to her character. However, I'm nothing. I'm just a girl that grew up with you guys. Fell in love with a twin. Got pregnant to the guy who is now the boss. Honestly, what should I tell my dad to put on my gravestone, huh? Does 'Disloyal daughter got knocked up and died by the hands of the mafia but she was loved' sounds good to you?" I asked sarcastically.
"I bet it will sell off the shelves quickly enough, that the whole town could talk about it till old age-"
"ENOUGH!" Valentino yells out. If the room wasn't soundproof, his whole family would've came. Never thought I would be thankful to the walls.
"Why? Does the truth hurt when someone takes off their mask? Does it hurt you, seeing me like this? The former girl who once use to laugh and smile, talk about her death like it's a normal thing? Or, does it hurt even more knowing that I'm pregnant with your child and that you cause me all this pain in the first place, knowing once your family finds out they'd kill me- IF they don't force me to marry you first- but THAT'S only if we get lucky if they do." Luca circle to his brother's side "He didn't mean for this to happen. You know he is a logical thinker."
"Exactly!!" I cut in "He's a logical thinker. Meaning, that he'll do what's best for the family. Isn't that right?- But I won't even expect you to answer because you won't deny it. I'd be stupid to think you would. Just like last time, right? If I remember correctly 'It's not personal.'Was your exact words when I found out. I guess me being pregnant isn't personal either. So, how I'm going to die, huh? Do I get to say goodbye to everyone I love first before you pull the trigger?"
Valentino looked at me with heartbreak. I would never have thought, in a million years I would ask the man that I love, how'd he kill me. And here I was, asking exactly that. It's amazing how far we've gotten only being able to get here. It was almost sweet that a baby came out of our love.. this would have been a beautiful moment; if it wasn't so filled with heartbreak..
"Bella, I'm not going to pull any trigger and neither is anyone else." Luca slightly coughed under his breathe "We might not but we can't speck for the rest of the family. I say, call a family meeting." Val nods to the logical sense of doing that but frowned at me.
"I would call a meeting if it was under normal-" I cut him off "Let's get an abortion." Both Luca and Val looked stunned. Both faces matching exactly how they felt about that idea, I would have laughed if I wasn't serious..
"What?" Val said in a hush, questioned tone.
"What did you expect me to say!? Let's have this baby! If we get an abortion, all problems solved and everything goes back to normal."
"You mean, where you go back to thinking and acting like I'm dead to you."
"That doesn't matter."
"I think it does." He counters back.
The room was filled with question, love and hate. I guess this was one of the moments me and Valentino actually felt we were normal teenagers; just trying to figure things out.
"I don't want to have this baby, Val. Not if it means being born with half Falcone blood.. I'm not saying this because I don't love you- I'm saying this as a reality check. For both of us."
Valentino sighs "You know, my father would have jumped out of his seat if he heard I got a girl pregnant and that we agreed on abortion.. I can't agree to that Bella.. out of respect for my father."
I couldn't believe he was playing the father card. He wasn't the only one that lost somebody. My dad and I lost my mother- HIS wife to this blood war. He doesn't get to play to father card, if my mom was in the grave with him.
"Well, my mom is dead, Val. I don't know how to rise a kid. Not like her. So, I'd be wasting my time if I tried." Valentino urged on "We don't have to be our parent, Bella."
I could almost laugh at how ironic that sound "You should talk. Your practically walking in your father's shoes. My Dad walked away before the going got tough but your Dad just couldn't help himself. It even got him kille-" Luca stepped to me with anger and damn near what I could call hate.
"Watch it! I don't care if your pregnant or not but I'll be damned, just standing here watching you talk ill about our father. Remember whose house your in." I rolled my eyes and stabbed my finger into his chest "Your right. I am in your house. I guess it's time for my visits to get revoked." as I'm walking for the door, Val blocked my path "Move Val." he stares at me seriously "We haven't finished our discussion."
"I think we're way past discussion now, Val. I already decided on what I'm going to do. And you can be there for when it happens or not. I don't care. But I'm not going to ruin my future for the seek of your family. Sophie may have chosen this for herself but I for one, is not going to try it on for size." I shoved him out of my way. I wasn't going to discuss this any further. I've already made up my mind.
As I'm reaching for the door handle, for some reason, I felt this really sharp pain behind my neck and everything around me felt like it was crumpling down. As I slowly turned around to look at both Falcone brothers, my body grew weak. Valentino was holding a syringe in his right hand, as my mind began to slip into darkness "You son of a bitch.."
And as my body hit the cold, marble floor.. I could hear the last words Val said before complete darkness settled in "I'm sorry but I can't have you do that..."