Camp settled into something like rhythm over the following week, the kind of rhythm Isakk hadn't known he was capable of trusting until he found himself inside it without meaning to.
Mornings belonged to Doran and the practice yard, blunted steel and bruised knuckles and the slow, grinding work of unlearning a lifetime of fighting like something cornered. Afternoons belonged to whatever the camp needed, mending tack, hauling water, once an entire day spent helping a quiet, broad shouldered soldier named Perrin rebuild a collapsed section of the eastern palisade, the two of them working side by side in a silence that gradually, awkwardly, became conversation.
"You don't talk much," Perrin said, around the third hour of hammering posts into place.
"Didn't used to have much worth saying."
"And now?"
Isakk considered that, hammer paused mid swing. "Still working on it."
Perrin huffed something that might have been a laugh, and didn't push further, and Isakk found, to his own quiet surprise, that he didn't mind the man's company. It was a small thing. It felt, some nights, like the largest thing he owned.
Evenings belonged to Sable, mostly, her pebble games and her crooked charms, each one a little less crooked than the last, until by the end of the week she'd produced something that genuinely resembled a small woven star, which she presented to him with the solemn pride of someone delivering a verdict.
"Better?" she asked.
"Better."
"Doran says I should learn to read. He said the camp scribe would teach me, if I wanted." She said it carefully, watching his face for a reaction the way she watched everything now, bracing before she'd even finished asking. "I wanted to know if that was alright. With you."
Something in Isakk's chest went tight and warm at once, strange and unfamiliar, the particular ache of being asked permission for something good by someone who'd once had nothing asked of her at all except obedience.
"It's more than alright," he said. "You should."
She beamed at that, actually beamed, and ran off toward the scribe's tent before he could say anything else, and Isakk stood there a long moment in the fading light, holding a small woven star, feeling something in him that had been clenched since the Gutter Quarter finally, slightly, begin to loosen.
*Careful,* Xerile murmured, faint and distant, a voice from the far end of a long hallway rather than the roaring presence she'd been in the cellar at Hallowmere. *You're letting yourself want things again.*
"Is that a warning or an observation."
*I'm not sure anymore.* A pause, longer than usual, strange in its length. *I'm tired, Isakk. I don't say that to worry you. I say it because it's true, and I find I don't have the strength left to dress it up as anything prettier.*
He frowned, alone by the fire, turning the sensation over. "Tired how."
*I gave you the whole of what I had left. Did you think that cost nothing on my end either?* Her voice thinned further as she spoke, like a candle guttering in a draft. *I am not what I was in that village. I'm not sure I'll ever be again. Some nights I can barely find the edges of myself in here. I wanted you to know that, before it becomes a problem you discover in the middle of something trying to kill you.*
Isakk sat very still, the warmth of the evening suddenly colder around him.
"What happens if you run out."
*I don't know.* For the first time since he'd known her, there was no mockery in that admission, no sharp edge hiding the truth of it. *Perhaps I simply go quiet forever. Perhaps something worse. I've never done this before, Isakk. Giving myself away like this. There isn't a demon alive who's tried it and come back to describe what's on the other side.*
He didn't know what to say to that. He sat with the little woven star in his palm and said nothing at all, and after a while her presence faded back into its usual quiet hum, and the fire crackled on, indifferent, and somewhere past the palisade Sable's laughter rang out from the scribe's tent, bright and unburdened, exactly the sound he'd told himself all of this was worth protecting.
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The second messenger came four days later, and this one didn't carry the same easy deference the first had shown.
She arrived with an escort of six, imperial crest stitched sharp and clean across her breastplate, and she did not wait at the gate the way the first man had. She rode straight into the yard, dismounted before her horse had fully stopped, and found Doran mid conversation with Perrin, cutting across it without apology.
"Captain Ashfeld. I'm Inquisitor Vale, Office of Garrison Oversight. I believe you spoke with one of my junior officers last week."
"I did." Doran's voice carried the same even calm it always did, though something in his shoulders had set a fraction harder than before. "I gave him a full account."
"You gave him an account." Vale's eyes swept the yard, slow and deliberate, cataloguing faces, and Isakk felt the weight of that gaze pass over him and linger a half second longer than it should have before moving on. "I've read it. It's thorough. It's also, I'm told, entirely uncorroborated by anyone outside your own command."
"My men don't lie for me, Inquisitor. They don't need to."
"Perhaps not." Vale's attention drifted, unhurried, toward the practice yard, toward the scorched patch of grass where a training dummy had been split clean in half two weeks prior and never fully repaired. "Tell me, Captain. Does your unit typically train with this much... enthusiasm?"
Doran didn't so much as blink. "We train hard. I'd rather bury a split dummy than a soldier."
"Of course." Vale's gaze finally settled, deliberate and unhurried, on Isakk standing near the fire, and something in her expression sharpened, cataloguing, patient, the look of a woman building a case one small observation at a time. "And this one. New recruit?"
"Under my protection," Doran said, before Isakk could answer for himself, flat and final in a way that left no room for negotiation. "Nothing more needs saying on the matter."
Vale held his gaze a long moment, and something passed between them, unspoken, a captain's quiet warning and an inquisitor's quiet acknowledgment that this particular thread, whatever it was, was not going to unravel today.
"I'll be staying in the area," she said finally, turning back toward her horse. "A few more inquiries to make along the border before I report back. I imagine our paths will cross again, Captain."
"I imagine they will."
She rode out with her escort trailing behind her, and the yard didn't fully exhale until the last of the hoofbeats had faded into the treeline, and Doran stood a long while after, watching the empty road, something grim and calculating settling behind his eyes.
"She's not like the first one," he said finally, quiet enough that only Isakk, standing close, could hear it.
"No," Isakk agreed. "She isn't."
Overhead, the sky had gone the deep, bruised color of evening, and somewhere behind his ribs, faint and thin as a thread pulled too far, Xerile stirred once, wary, and said nothing at all.