"Did you find your purpose?"
"Not yet!" I called back into that black void.
'While you must find your light before the time runs out! Or your soul will dissipate!' The strange male voice in the void replied.
I was stuck here, a wandering soul. Since my body died in 1956 when the concentration camps were wiping out all of my "kind" my people, who's only sin in life was loving another.
Fate is a tricky thing is a tricky thing isn't it? Even after all this time, my soul has been bound to this empty space. My soul can only wander the endless expanse, my only company is this mysterious voice.
Sometimes I think, that too, is all in my imagination. Maybe it's the loneliness, maybe it's my fatigue...maybe it is my longing for the person I once lost all that time ago.
Sometimes it speaks to me, sometimes it keeps me company. What am I to do though? There is nothing here, there hasn't been since those people hualed him away...into that space. Not long before I too, lost my own light.
I lay there hopeless, wistlessly... wondering when will my hell end? Haven't I suffered enough? I want to go home! I want to see his smile, that sparkle in his eyes when he calls my name. He's all that I think about in this space, well, whenever I'm not in despair!
Suddenly the voice called out. "I'm here. I'm waiting, when will you see?"
"See what, there is only darkness in this void" I echoed back
"Your yang! It's been decades, how can you not! It should be harder for me to see the darkness in the light...but somehow you don't see the light in the darkness!"
This took me aback, whatever is he reffering to? This rhetoric I had never been acquainted so.
I then asked "Such meaning ellludes me, could you mayhaps elaborate? I wish to understand you"
Suddenly I heard what sounded like a luagh. I had never heard such a thing in all my time in this void. However, it sounded soft...pleasing, and almost...familiar.
Then he said "I have been waiting for you to ask all this time. To see, we must first wish to open our eyes Yin"
I puased for a moment, baffled...I had always presumed this being was some sort of god like sentient. That name though, that's my name? Is it? I feel I have forgotten...like a huge part of me has been gone.
My memories I once thought complete, started filling in gaps I didn't even have. My head began to spin, I can't make sense of this!
"You know my name?" I asked instead, desperate to scratch this sensation off of my very soul.
"Yes" he responded. "I have known it in life, and in death. Would you like to know me in life, and your death?"
"Do I have anything else I may do in this space? I shall hope to know all that I may, as that is all that I can" I said.
He chuckled again "wise answer, you're finally opening up your heart"
Then suddenly, a white light appeared! The first I had seen since my death. I scrambled back, or I tried to really. I wasn't sure I even had a form anymore.
This light was fascinating, familiar.
Then appeared a small figure of light, a smaller frame than my own. He looked almost boyish, not like a god at all. I couldn't make out his features to my dismay.
Nonetheless I got the vague sense that this boy would have had a hard time surviving in my timeline.
I was a strapply young man, fairly tall and muscular, so I got much attention from the ladies, and knew quite well how to hold my own.
This boy though, looked like he wouldn't survive a day! That, he has in common with the young man I once cherished so.
"Do you see me now?" The figure asked.
"I do, but you are bright! so blinding!"
The white figure stepped closer. "Well, I did tell you that light should be easy to see in darkness yin!"
I chuckled myself "touchè, I cannot argue there I am afraid"
He slowly stepped closer and closer....then sat down beside me in this darkness.
I thought back on all this and felt overwhelmed, I was beginning to think nothing in my void would ever change.
As my head was spinning, he turned to me and said "it is alright, you do not have to understand it all right now. I always tried to give you guidance and time...This must be very overwhelming"
"Yes very much so" I agreed.
"Rest now little one." He said gently.
I started to feel my consciousness drift, and get heavy, as if falling into a deep sleep.
As my mind began to calm, and my conscious became unaware...
The faint voice said in such a soft tone
"Yes, rest for now. You have met me now. I'll be here until you realize I am your Yang. Until you have reclaimed my heart, just as I have yours"