I met many people,also enjoyed a lot with them..though all of them carries a differentpersonality.During the age year of 5 to 15 i guess i'd experienced a lot around.
In short you can say I was beeing in my fantasy imagination and ya things was not all gud as we all think but was quite adorable
Now let's talk about my personality (the author).I was carrying a very calm and quite personality around any outsider or I was a type of shy person though it was not that easy but you know that's what the childhood is...though you do whatever and you don't much give your head into any situation..
As soon as I grew I became a type of girl who gave her head up all the time into her books,giving all focus on remarks oor simply just only wanted praise by so called people ( obvious it was a childhood)..but also to make my parents proud.
And this was the personality till 10th boards.... But afterward the real gamechanger oor you can say life changer twist had to come!
11th grade:-
I joined a well know institution named Aakash gandhinagar.
There were many students preparing for JEE/NEET And.. uhhh.. I was one of them preparing NEET though.
As you know the journey won't be easy , at first I was hoping oor you can say was sure to get my rank in top 3 and was aiming to easily get AIIMS DELHI ...but but but it was though not that easy!
As soon as time passes the boards, exams ,school exams, coaching tests and unfortunately not getting any of it. And due to the pear pressure of that one entrance exam I was not able to score much in my board exam (11th with 85.8% And 12th with 84%)I know these are not bad ones but as though we compare this with mine previous grade there is a huge difference (8th with. 97.5% and 10th with 94.4%)
"While narrating all this, it feels like I am forced to relieve all those moments again. it was one of my hardest phase of my life-- one that left me shattered -- but I had no choice except to endure it with youu.."
So yaahh we were at my grades rightt??
So let's catch thatt..
Remaing 6 months ,repeating "the remaing six months to that entrance was not near to death for me it took my whole body , it took my whole energy and I gave that all to it. Consistent study of 20/24 hours with nearly 1 hour break at all some days not even that break hadd nearlyy get me into depression. The all I know to study--to study and to study.
What was with me??
The shivering hands and that's all!
And also I can't see myself in any profession other than this.."A doctor"
Those no. Of times I chanted my name with that Prefix was uncountable and you know that profession was just digged in my soul.
It was like I want thatt "by hook oor by crook"
Totally , totaallyy abandoned in thatt totally . Never ever thought that TODAY , I am no more with that dream ( for me it was a reality).
Also you know what, I was nearlyy taken to the psychiatrist but shown to a physician and finaly ending up to a" Sleeping Pills".