"Look, we need to talk."
"I heard you're leaving, that I'll probably never see you again, so I must be completely honest with you. I hope you do let me finish before saying anything. It's a lot I know and I don't expect an answer, really. But nevertheless, let me get it all out of my chest, it's something I've been carrying for a long time."
"You do know I care about you, right? Maybe not in the sense I actually do, but some aspect of it. Back when I first met you, I didn't think much, only that you're hair was funny, how parts of it were straight and others curly, it was bizarre for I've never seen anything like it. You did explained that you were letting it go curly again, how you've done it straight, but hated it later."
"You were just another person I was supposed to work with, though not for much time, and teach, also not for much time. The first time I didn't really get a good look at you, so I couldn't see how you were, back then you were involved in a complicated relationship with that douche."
"I kept my distance, as I've always done. It's more out of respect to my girl back at home, you know. And you've also respected that, even imposed it, back then we didn't see each other much."
"We, who work on different shifts, even being the night shift, we don't see each other, we don't talk to each other, more my fault than anything, I'm also quite introverted."
"But then it came a time when I needed money, so I did a lot of extra shifts, so much so that people started thinking I changed to yours and I could only do the night shift, ever the night shift guy, me."
"So we started seeing each other a lot, talking a lot. What started as a way to keep ourselves awake, chatting all night sometimes, made something inside me change.
"That was when you became single, when you dumped that idiotic guy out of your life. we started to talk more. We didn't become best friends or anything, as I said I've always kept my distance."
"We used to talk for hours long, not boring talk, you remember. You remember also that half of the time your sister was involved in the chat, she's such a dirty talker in a way that would leave anyone laughing out loud, such that it did to me several times."
"But what she has you didn't, a husband and a son, a family. And what you are she isn't, striking, beautiful, even she admits it. I've only noticed that when by chance I looked into your eyes, and lo! They were light green like the color of a field of grass, or the stem of a young budding flower."
"When you became single, you remember I started to try to make you laugh, to comfort you, to make you forget of him, I know from experience that it can be painful at times."
"The more I joked and kid with you, the more it brought us closer. That something inside me started to change then. I started, and still kind do, to dote on you. First as a dear friend, then as someone else. I know you know where I'm getting at."
"Please, l-let me finish it. If I don't say it now, I know I'll die with this, it'll always be a part of me, until my last breath escapes my lips. I'm sorry if I'm being selfish, which I probably am, by telling you this."
"I… I… Fuck! I will say it, I will!"
"I-I've fallen in love with you."
"I've fallen in love with your hair, curly and at shoulder length."
"I've fallen in love with your smile, so bright and warm as a ray of sunshine."
"I've fallen in love with your eyes, so pretty and inviting."
"I've fallen in love with your walk, so enticing and entrancing."
"I've fallen in love with your mind, always so open to different things."
"I've fallen in love with your everything."
"I've fallen in love, so much so that at times I caught myself thinking about you."
"I'm sorry I'm being so selfish. Now you have another guy in your life so we never can be together, we can never be and that destroys me from the inside."
"Once your sister asked me if there were any attraction to you from my part, my answer was yes, she then asked if I thought that you'd reciprocate the feeling, back then I didn't want to know, I wanted things to be the same as it was, we would joke, talk and that was it, I didn't want to know if it was platonic or not."
"Because the answer would break our current relationship, it would be so goddamn awkward even if the answer were a positive or a negative one."
"I wouldn't have been able to bear it. I wanted to keep talking, keep joking, keep being with you, even if we could never be."
"I say this knowing full well that the tears are gathering in my eyes ready to overflow the valleys of my face running down the precipice that is my chin."
"Know that I will always remember you, that I will always cherish you and that I will always think and wonder of what could be."
"I don't expect an answer to all that I've laid out onto you, this burden that I'm forcing you to carry unwillingly, but I hope you do, even if I'm scared of what it will be."