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Chapter 3 - Walk Toward the Fire

Mia POV

My legs are moving before my brain catches up.

That happens sometimes when I am scared or furious or both at once, my body just decides. My brain is still back at that table, still feeling Becca's laugh under my skin, still hearing prove you're fun like a dare inside the dare. But my legs have already made a choice.

I walk across the room.

The crowd is thick near the middle, but it opens up toward the edges. Toward the corner. Toward him.

He has not moved.

He is still sitting exactly the way he was, one arm resting on the table, the other loose at his side. His drink is in front of him, untouched, the ice probably melted by now. He is not on his phone. He is not scanning the room looking for someone better to talk to. He is just still. In a place full of noise and movement and people performing for each other, he is completely, almost strangely, still.

His eyes find mine when I am about six steps away.

He does not look surprised. He does not look nervous. He just watches me come. Like he has been waiting for whatever happens next, and he has patience enough to let it arrive at its own speed.

I stop in front of his table.

Up close, he is more than I expected from across the room. Not softer, sharper. The kind of face that has been through things and came out knowing something. His eyes are dark and very direct, and right now, they are looking at me like I am the only moving thing in the room worth watching.

He does not smile.

He does not stand up.

He says nothing.

So I do the only thing left to do.

I hold out my hand.

The noise from across the room hits me like a wave sudden and loud, the way sound rushes in when something unexpected happens. I hear it without looking. The table erupting. A chair scraping. Someone saying wait, is that and someone else cutting them off.

Kyle's voice carries over all of it.

"Mia. What are you doing?"

I keep my eyes on the man in front of me.

He looks at my hand. Then he looks at my face. The look lasts about three seconds, and somehow those three seconds feel longer than the whole rest of the night. He is reading me, not in a creepy way, not like he is deciding if I am worth something. More like he is checking if I am sure.

I hold his gaze.

He stands up.

He is taller than I expected. He straightens his jacket with one small, unhurried motion, and then he takes my hand. His grip is firm and warm and completely calm.

The room loses its mind.

I hear it all, but I am only half paying attention because walking back through this crowd next to him is the strangest thing I have felt all year. Not bad, strange. The other kind, the kind that makes your whole body alert, as the air changed.

People are stepping back to let us through. Some of them are laughing. Some have their phones up already. I see Marcus's mouth drop open. I see the girl with the tissue paper staring at me with an expression I cannot fully name.

I do not look at Kyle.

I am not ready to look at Kyle.

We reach the narrow hallway at the back of the club. Someone has draped a piece of fabric over the handle of the small room at the end, the universal signal in a game like this. The man pushes the fabric aside and opens the door, and I walk in first.

He follows.

The door closes.

Silence.

Not real silence, the music is still going, muffled through the walls, and I can hear voices outside buzzing with whatever just happened. But inside this tiny room with its single dim light and its two chairs and its overwhelming smallness, it is quiet enough that I can hear myself breathe.

I turn around.

He is leaning against the closed door with his arms loosely crossed, looking at me with that same even expression. Not amused. Not intense in the way Kyle gets intense, which always feels like pressure. Just present. Paying attention.

"You okay?" he says.

His voice is low. Unhurried. It matches the rest of him.

"I'm fine," I say, which is the most obvious lie I have told all year.

He does not call me on it. He just tilts his head slightly, like okay, if that's what we're doing.

I say: "I don't know your name."

"Nathan," he says.

Just that. No last name. No, and you? He waits.

"Mia," I say.

He nods once, like he is storing it somewhere carefully.

The room is very small. There are maybe four feet between us, and I am suddenly aware of all four of them. I cross my arms and then uncross them because I do not want to look like I am protecting myself, even though I am absolutely protecting myself.

I say, "You were watching the game."

"I was," he says.

"But you weren't playing."

"No."

"Why not?"

He considers this like it is a real question worth a real answer. "Because I knew how it was going to go," he says. "Games like that always go the same way."

"How?"

"Someone gets hurt," he says simply. "And everyone else calls it fun."

I stare at him.

He says it so plainly. No drama, no judgment in his voice, just a fact he has observed enough times to be sure of. Someone gets hurt, and everyone else calls it fun. I have been trying to find words for what this night felt like, and he just handed them to me in one sentence.

My throat does something uncomfortable.

I look at the wall.

"How old are you?" I ask because I need to say something, and that is what comes out.

"Thirty-two," he says.

Fourteen years. I do math I did not mean to do.

"You're Kyle's." I stop.

Something moves across his face. Small, quick, then gone. "Uncle," he says. "Yes."

The word lands in the room like a stone in still water. I watch the ripples go.

Kyle's uncle.

I walked across a crowded room and chose Kyle's uncle for a dare while Kyle watched.

The full weight of what I just did settles onto my shoulders, and I wait for panic or regret or something that feels like a mistake. I look inward and take a careful inventory.

Nothing that feels like a mistake.

Something that feels like: finally.

Finally being looked at like a person. Finally, being in a room with someone who answered my question as it mattered. Finally doing one thing tonight that was mine, not performed for Kyle, not calibrated for Becca's approval, not shrunk down to fit what someone else needed me to be.

I chose. For the first time in longer than I can remember, I just chose.

Nathan is watching me work through this. He does not rush it.

I say, "He is going to be furious."

"Yes," Nathan says.

"That doesn't bother you?"

He is quiet for a moment. Then: "Kyle makes a lot of choices without thinking about how they land on other people." He looks at me very directly. "Tonight was not an exception."

Something about hearing it said out loud by someone who knows Kyle, who is family, who had no reason to take my side, makes my eyes sting. I blink hard. I am not crying here. I refuse.

Nathan notices. He looks away, giving me a second, like he understands that being seen sometimes makes things harder before it makes them easier.

"How long?" he asks quietly.

"Seven minutes," I say, thinking he means the dare.

"With him," he says. "How long have you been with Kyle?"

"Two years."

He nods. He does not say I'm sorry or that's a long time or any of the things people say. He just receives the information with the same quiet steadiness he has given everything else tonight.

I say, "Do you always do this?"

He looks at me. "Do what?"

"Make people feel like what they said mattered."

He is still for a second. Then something shifts in his expression, not quite a smile, but close. Warmer. The first crack in all that evenness. "Only when it does," he says.

Four feet of space between us.

Three seconds of quiet.

I become aware all at once that I have been standing in a small, dim room with a man I met four minutes ago and telling him true things, and none of it has felt wrong, and that fact alone is the most alarming thing that has happened all night.

A knock at the door. Sharp. Impatient.

Then Kyle's voice, tight and controlled, right on the other side of the wood:

"Nathan. Open the door. We need to talk. Right now."

Nathan does not move.

He keeps his eyes on mine and says, quietly, just for me:

"You know you just started a war."

I look at the door. I look back at him.

"Good," I say.

The door handle turns.

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