..I had a strange dream, everything collapsing, everyone dying. Although I don't care, everything will be gone forever in this bleak, absurd world. Anything is possible..
..I'm Sho, and we're now in the year 2027. When I was young, my father cheated on my mother with other women and left her alone. But the strange thing is, my mother never grieved; on the contrary, she was happy. In this world where we don't know if God exists or not, purpose disappears if He doesn't exist, and the opposite if He does. My mother is an atheist; she doesn't believe in any god. She loves science and loves everything to be explained in purely materialistic terms. As for me, Sho, I've been very intelligent since childhood..
..One day when I was 8 years old, I was in a church because my father was Christian. The priest was talking about the creation of the heavens and the earth as he believed it, saying his God created everything with a single word. I looked at him and asked: Does a word produce an explosion? Does a word turn into a great explosion? Is that possible? My parents were very upset with me then, and they were about to leave, when the priest continued talking about the creation of the heavens and earth in six days, and then he said God rested. At that moment, I looked at him and said: How can an omnipotent God rest? Isn't rest for humans? So how can a God who is supposed to have created the very concept of rest, rest? I was indeed the reason my parents got angry with me again. At that moment, we left the church and never returned..
.."Sho, my son, I want you to come to the kitchen now." Sho snaps out of the barrage of memories that came to him and goes to his mother standing in the kitchen preparing food..
..Sho looks at his mother Jessica, moving his lips saying: Are you still watching the news, Mom? You'll tire yourself out. I advise you to rest; the light from this small kitchen TV will hurt your eyes..
..Jessica turns, looking at Sho with a slight smile on her face, saying: Don't worry, I'm far from the TV. Also, the situation in the world is getting worse now; it seems the situation between world leaders and their relations has become much worse. Jessica laughs with Sho and says: Let's hope God and this small planet forgive us, haha. Jessica puts the food in Sho's bag and kisses him on the cheek..
..Sho, naturally muscular in build, puts on the bag, goes to the door, puts on his shoes, and heads to school, bidding his mother farewell..
Sho: That's how it was, a normal day, or at least what I thought indeed.
..Several hours later..
.."So Sho, what do you think about the situation happening in the world over the past decades, after science greatly developed and discovered that the universe is absurd and chaotic? Although it has a starting point, everyone denies the existence of God due to the chaos, injustice, and evil present in the world. They say: If God exists and is omnipotent and all-merciful, then why doesn't He save us from this evil? Unless He is not omnipotent or not all-merciful."..
..Sho smiles sarcastically and looks at his friend John, saying: Those questions are childish indeed. Sho looks at the sky, addressing himself inwardly: [Although even my friend John, and everyone I know now, don't believe in the existence of God, I am the only one who sees things from a different perspective. Even if the universe is chaotic and absurd as they claim, I don't care. What matters to me is that despite all this absurdity and chaos, the chaos they perceive as such because they are limited, I think that this chaos they see is actually a hidden system, and due to our shortsightedness, we cannot perceive it]..
..John interrupts Sho's thoughts and smiles slightly: Tell me, Sho, what do you think the attributes of God are? You are the most intelligent and outstanding person I've ever seen in my life. So, what's your opinion? What are those attributes?..
..As John and Sho walk on the road heading home in the heavy rain falling on them, Sho appears indifferent and looks at John, saying: I think He must be non-material, because He created matter, has no beginning and no end, because He is before time, and is absolute infinity in its pure philosophical sense..
..John smiles and looks at Sho, saying: I see you have a somewhat unique perspective compared to others. I wish I were like you, Sho. At that moment, John and Sho stand in front of their homes. John bids Sho farewell and enters his house..
..Sho stands in the rain, appearing contemplative looking at the sky: [People judge a person's life only when they see it, and that's a superficial view. You are not in my place and don't know my suffering. True judgment appears when you are in my place, not just when you see me]..
..Sho opens the house door with the key he took with him, only to be shocked to see his mother dating someone in the living room. But Sho shows no reaction, walking a little faster and entering his room, closing the door firmly..
..At that moment, Sho smiles and says: The moral dilemma, hah..
..Sho throws himself onto the bed and appears slightly annoyed and sad, while the man who was with his mother leaves the house. Jessica knocks on the door and enters..
..Jessica tries to improve the situation and looks at Sho, seeming unable to say anything. Sho looks at her and says: Mom, it's okay, I understand your natural desire as a female. At least you're not dating females, you're not like those homosexuals. At least you're a natural materialist. Don't try to explain anything..
..[Then, even though I was indeed annoyed, I tried to explain everything on a purely materialistic basis, as that's the only explanation my mother accepts. I never wanted to sadden her; she was the only one who was the most precious thing to me, even though everything is meaningless, or that's what I tended to believe, despite a part inside me telling me there's light at the end of the darkness. This reminded me of a phrase in Christianity that the Lord said at the moment of creating everything from nothing: "Let there be light"]..
..Jessica looks at Sho, appearing slightly sad. Suddenly, Sho hugs her and says: Mom, I love you. Don't mind what happened just now, okay? As if it never happened, agreed? Jessica smiles and leaves the room heading to the kitchen. She gets her phone and permanently blocks the person she was just dating. At that moment, Jessica calls loudly for Sho. He leaves the room and looks at his mother, who raises the phone for him to see what she did. Sho smiles and says: I truly respect your decision, Mom..
..[From here, my relationship with my mother became stronger. It was as if, despite this absurdity, a small order was born in my heart. Love was born in me. Yes, she was the only thing I loved in this world, but unfortunately, probabilities saw otherwise]..
..Suddenly, the whole house shakes. Sho and Jessica hear the sounds of rockets falling over the city. Suddenly, a strong white light emerges from the window. Sho looks at Jessica, fear apparent on him due to survival instinct..
..[Yes indeed, that was a nuclear bomb. The whole world began to collapse in wars that ended human existence. No, not just that; all living creatures, animals, plants, and others disappeared]..
..[But then, at the moment of the nuclear bomb impact, the ground split, and I fell into a crack in the earth caused by the bomb's impact, which led to its fracturing. I fell into the crack. There was ice, its temperature exceeding 100 below zero, which froze me. I lived in the Antarctic continent after humans colonized it]..
..[And then my story begins, where I woke up with only water around me stretching to the horizon. All continents had disappeared, and the water only reached my knees, reminding me of the water planet in the movie Interstellar. And yes indeed, my dream came true in a way. It was very strange]..
..Sho is extremely surprised and holds his head tightly..
Sho: [My head hurts so much indeed.] Then Sho looks at the water on the ground, picks some up in his hand, and appears shocked. [Water, even though I remember the world was indeed destroyed by nuclear missiles, it's water! Very pure, normal-smelling, as if it wasn't affected by any nuclear waste. The sky is completely clear, but the sun appears closer to red!]..
.."Is anyone here?" Sho screams, "What am I doing now?"..
..[Mom! Everything is gone, why? Why? Why?]..
..Sho screams intensely: "What did I do for all this to happen?"..
..Sho sits on the ground, appearing deeply saddened. So, will I wait here until my chemical reactions end? He lies on the ground, feeling extremely hungry, and drinks plenty of water, which seems fresh, not salty. Sho looks at the sky as the sun begins to set..
..[So I'll never see her again. There's no heaven or hell. Is this truly how it should be?]..
..Sho laughs and says: If my existence is the greatest achievement in this absurd world with no God, then… Suddenly, Sho lowers his voice and continues: Then anything else will be a bit disappointing. So, I don't care, I don't care..
..Sho sits without a word, breathing slowly. No sound around him except his heartbeat and his breath slowly exiting. He waits for his death, or at least for hope, a faint hope waiting to happen..
..After several hours, when the stars appeared and the sun disappeared, a single tear falls from Sho's eye, and he appears sad..
..[I truly don't want to die. It's a bleak feeling when you're the last of the human race, perishing as if you're turning off the last electric lamp among millions, letting pitch darkness take over]..
Sho: Is there nothing else I can do?..
..At that moment, Sho sees something moving very fast and landing in a distant place on the ground. Sho is extremely surprised then, and a small spark of hope ignites in his shining eyes. Despite his weakness, he runs towards that thing that fell to the earth..