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Chapter 5 - Rage vs Control

The next day.

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I was in the bedroom.

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Trying to mentally prepare myself.

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Today is the exam.

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I'm determined to pass and show them how much I understand mana. I hope they'll see how far I've come as I sit here, feeling the tension and anticipation in my quiet room.

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But still, even though I pass.

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After today's exam, the following day is scheduled for combat training.

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That feels harder than everything else I've done.

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I looked outside.

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"Welp, time to go," I said to myself.

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I walked to the kitchen like always.

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In the kitchen, there were Eren, Erma, Lele, and Crystal.

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My hands shook a little, giving away the anxiety building up inside me.

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I can feel all the pressure inside me right now.

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Crystal steps forward.

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"It's time, Moikeru. How are you feeling right now?"

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My body felt frozen.

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I slowly lift up my head.

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Looking at Crystal.

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"I'll be lying if I said I don't feel nervous at the moment."

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Crystal continues looking at me seriously.

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"That's good, but try shaking off the emotion."

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As the room goes silent.

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Lele cleared her throat.

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"Should you tell him about the exam?"

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Crystal finally realized she forgot to tell me.

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She put her hand on my shoulder.

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"Your exam is basically maintaining your mana."

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"Maintaining mana?" I replied

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Crystal continues explaining

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"You'll be transported to a snowy mountain, where your task is to cover yourself in mana and maintain it throughout the exercise. Somewhere at the end of the mountain, there is a cabin. Your objective is to locate it on your own."

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I don't know why.

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I feel like I understand, but at the same time, I don't.

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Eren stepped up, giving a tender smile.

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"Let's waste no time with this."

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"Wait, no pep talk from you?" I questioned him

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" Hell no, that's a waste of time!" Eren retorted

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I was baffled by his answer.

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Eren walked up to me.

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I looked at him.

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He looked at me.

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Eren put his hand on my shoulder.

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I was slowly going to give him a smile.

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Then Eren lightly shoved me to the side.

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Right before I reacted.

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Eren raises his hand and quickly opens the portal.

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After the portal was open, the building became freezing cold.

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"ALRIGHT, HURRY UP AND GO THROUGH THE PORTAL BEFORE WE ALL FREEZE TO DEATH!" Eren shouted

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My whole body was shivering.

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But everyone else was fine.

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I looked up at the portal.

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Put on a serious face.

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Marching through the portal.

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Through the portal.

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A huge gust of snowy wind hit me instantly.

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I covered my face and looked around.

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I noticed that the portal was already gone.

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My whole body was starting to hurt from the frostbite.

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I close my eyes.

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Focusing on my mana.

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I imagine my mana surrounding my whole body.

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Keeping the cold away from my body.

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As I was focusing, the mana started to surround my body.

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As I open my eyes.

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I don't feel the cold anymore.

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I looked at my arm.

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Seeing a thin layer of mana covering it like a blanket.

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A huge smile was on my face.

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I finally did it.

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I successfully covered my body with mana.

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Now I just have to maintain it.

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As I looked around, it was hard to see.

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But I can't stay here and twiddle my thumbs.

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So I just walk in a random direction.

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Walking in a snowy place like this isn't easy.

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And the clouds were thick, dark grey, covering the sun completely.

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But this is my training.

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If I don't pass this, I can't get stronger.

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10 minutes later.

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My body was already feeling exhausted.

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Staying focused felt suffocating.

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I didn't know that doing this would have a big drawback.

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Suddenly, an unfamiliar surge of mana swept over me, snapping me to attention and putting me on high alert.

My instincts kicked in. I held my breath as a chill ran down my spine, and for a moment, uncertainty took over.

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But this mana doesn't belong to anyone I know.

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This mana feels dark.

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But comparing my dark mana to that one.

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That one is darker.

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I looked up and saw a human figure surrounded by purple mana.

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I don't know if this person has ill intentions.

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But all I know is that I have to pass him to continue my task.

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As I keep walking towards the person.

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Seeing it became clear and clear.

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Then the person and I stop right in front of each other.

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I was panting.

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As I look at the person in front of me.

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I saw a familiar face.

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The guy was giving a cold face.

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He was wearing a black cloak with a giant sword on his back.

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As I was checking him out.

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Trying to figure out who he is.

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Then something clicked in.

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I remember.

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"Hold on, I know you. You're Shamueru Balfram, right?"

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Shamueru ticked his teeth.

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"Yeah, so what about it? Should I know you?"

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"Weren't you supposed to be in the demon realm?" I questioned him

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Shamueru's face became tense.

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My body instinct was flaring up.

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Shamueru started to raise his right arm.

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" Yeah, so what did the kingdom send you to monitor me?" As Shamueru grabs his giant sword handle. He continued, "to make sure I don't come back!"

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Shamueru releases a burst of energy.

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I jumped back, confused about what he was talking about.

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"Hold on, what are you talking about?"

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Shamueru started to unsheath his sword.

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I started to sense danger.

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"Look, I was also kicked out of the kingdom. They sentenced me to the forest of no return. You and I are in the same boat!"

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Shamueru's face went from cold to annoyed.

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"Don't you dare say we're in the same boat."

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Shamueru fully pulled the giant sword out.

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The giant sword was a black-and-purple, double-edged sword with a dragon's head carved on the handle.

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"We are far from the same. So either move out of my way or die by my menacing blade!?"

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I look at his blade.

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Just by looking at it, I could tell the sword was packed with mana.

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"Hey man, let's all just calm down. We don't have to resort to violence," as I do hand jester signaling to calm down.

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Shamueru pointed his sword at me.

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My face became nervous.

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"What is your name?" Shamueru questioned me

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"Maikeru…" I answered

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"Aye, dumbass, what is your full name?" Shamueru angrily questioned again

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"Maikeru Kuro… why do you need to know my full name?" I'd replied and questioned back

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Shamueru became more annoyed.

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"Kuro… huh… so you're related to him!"

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Related?

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"You know my father?" I asked him

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Shamueru sighed.

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"Whatever, let's get back on track. So your name is Maikeru, right?"

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That sucked. He turned away from the topic.

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I wanted to know if he knew my father and could provide some info.

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But I can't be too greedy with information.

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My mana was running low, and it was getting ridiculously hard to keep it up.

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"That's correct…" My utterance staggered.

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Shamueru's eyes narrowed even more.

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"The reason I want to know your name is so I can carve it on their grave."

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My eyes widened in shock and fear.

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"Wait…what do you mean about that…"

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BAM!!

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Shamueru uses the flat side of his sword.

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Hitting the side of my body.

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I flew into the wall.

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Smashing into it.

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I was knocked out.

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But in a few seconds, I regained consciousness.

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I was panting heavily from the hit.

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"Oh, you're a sturdy one." Shamueru already started walking here.

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He continued.

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"Look, I don't care if you were kicked out of the kingdom or anything you said. I won't take any risk of anyone seeing me."

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My left side was hurting.

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And my eyes felt blurred.

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Everything started to feel cold.

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The cold went deeper.

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Not just the snow.

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Not simply the wind.

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But the pressure is coming from Shamueru.

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It felt… suffocating.

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It felt like the darkness around him wasn't just magic. It was pure hatred made real.

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I struggled to push myself up, my arms shaking violently as I attempted to maintain the thin layer of mana around my body.

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My breath came out in uneven bursts.

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"P-please… just listen…" I choked out, my voice hardly holding together.

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Shamueru didn't slow down.

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Didn't hesitate.

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Didn't care.

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Each step he took crushed the snow beneath him like it meant nothing.

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A cold certainty emanated from Shamueru's voice as he addressed me.

In that moment, as I saw him drag his blade behind him, the metal carving a deep line through the frozen ground, I realized there would be no reasoning with him.

My thoughts raced. Was there really nothing I could say to stop him? Was there no argument strong enough to stop the violence I felt coming?

Yet, a sense of inevitability settled over me, as if the outcome had already been decided.

"I already told you," he said coldly, "I don't take chances."

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I tried to stand up straight.

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But my legs gave out.

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I dropped back to one knee.

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My mana flickered.

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The cold rushed in instantly.

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It stabbed inside my bones.

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"…I'm not your enemy…" I spoke softly.

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Shamueru stopped a few feet away from me.

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For a brief moment,

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I thought he might actually listen.

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Then,

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"Wrong answer."

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SWOOSH!

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The blade came down.

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I barely rolled to the side in time, the impact splitting the ground where I had just been.

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The shockwave alone sent me tumbling.

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My mana shattered.

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The cold slammed into my body again.

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I screamed as frost bit into my skin.

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"AHHH—!"

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Shamueru advanced forward again, faster this time.

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Snow lifted at each step, swirling unnaturally around him just as darkness flowed into the ground beneath his feet.

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The battlefield itself was changing.

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Cracking.

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Freezing.

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Dying.

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I forced myself up again, teeth chattering violently.

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Think… think… move…

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Yin wavered softly around my hand.

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I threw it forward—

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A desperate slash of condensed darkness shredded through the air.

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Shamueru didn't dodge.

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He cut through it.

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Clean.

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Like it wasn't even there.

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My eyes widened.

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That… was everything I had…

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He disappeared.

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My instincts shouted.

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I turned—

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Too slow.

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SLAM—

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His knee drove into my ribs.

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Something broke.

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Air exploded out of my lungs.

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I flew across the snow, bouncing once, then twice, before skidding to a stop.

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"GHH—!"

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I coughed violently, blood staining the snow beneath me.

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My eyes blurred.

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My body wouldn't respond.

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Get up… GET UP…

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But it wouldn't move.

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Shamueru walked toward me again.

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Slow.

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Patient.

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Like a predator feasting on a kill.

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"Is this really all?" he asked.

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I forced my head up.

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"I… I can still fight…"

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Even I didn't believe it.

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He tilted his head slightly.

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"…Pathetic."

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I pushed my body.

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Yin gathered again—faint, unstable—but there.

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It quivered like it didn't want to obey me.

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I lunged forward.

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A reckless charge.

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A scream burst from my throat while I swung wildly—

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Shamueru entered into my range.

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Effortlessly.

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His blade struck.

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CRACK—

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The impact sent a sharp, horrifying snap through my arm.

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"AAAAAAHHHHHH!!!"

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Pain erupted.

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White.

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Blinding.

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My right arm bent at an unnatural angle.

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Broken.

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Completely broken.

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I collapsed to the ground, holding it, my body shaking uncontrollably.

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Tears ran down my face.

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The pain wouldn't stop.

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It kept spreading.

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Burning.

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Consuming.

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My fingers dug at the snow, trying to escape something I couldn't escape.

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"P-please… STOP…!!" I begged, my voice shattering apart.

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"I'll leave… I won't say anything… I swear… just… please…"

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My forehead pressed into the snow.

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I couldn't even look at him anymore.

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"I don't want to die…"

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For a moment,

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There remained only silence.

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The wind wailed.

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Snow drifted over my body.

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Then,

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"No."

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That one word crushed everything.

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"I told you already," Shamueru said, lifting his sword again. "I don't care about your excuses."

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I tried to crawl away.

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My fingers pierced into the snow.

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Each movement sent shocks of agony through my body.

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My broken arm dragged uselessly beside me.

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"Someone… help…" I uttered.

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No one came.

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SLAM—

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The flat of the blade crashed into my back.

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My body went limp instantly.

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Everything went dark.

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…

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…

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Silence.

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Merely the wind.

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Only the snow.

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My body lay motionless.

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Unconscious.

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Shamueru stood there for a moment longer, staring at me.

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Then he exhaled sharply.

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"Tch."

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He rested the sword on his shoulder.

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"Pathetic."

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He turned away.

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Taking a slow step forward.

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Then another.

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"…They really send trash after me now…"

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"…Kingdom's gotten desperate."

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At that moment, the sharp sound of snow being compacted underfoot signaled the arrival of another presence.

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He stopped.

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The air moved.

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Behind him—

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The snow trembled.

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A dim pulse of dark energy spread outward.

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Low.

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Heavy.

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Wrong.

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The temperature dropped even further.

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Shamueru looked back.

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"…What?"

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My body moved.

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Slow.

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Unnatural.

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I stood up.

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Head lowered.

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Arm still broken.

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But something else had taken over.

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There was no fear.

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No hesitation.

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Just movement.

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Just intent.

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Yin wasn't flickering anymore.

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It was… flowing.

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It had decided to act on its own.

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Shamueru stared for a second.

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Then smiled.

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"…So annoying."

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BOOM!

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We both moved at the same time.

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This time—

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The impact shook the entire area.

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My Yin wrapped around my body—not flickering anymore.

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Flowing.

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Dense.

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Alive.

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His blade struck—

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But stopped.

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Caught in the darkness cloaking my arm.

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The ground beneath us shattered.

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Snow blasted outward in a violent ring.

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"…Oh?" Shamueru's grin widened.

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I didn't respond.

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I attacked.

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Faster.

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Cleaner.

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My broken arm didn't slow me down.

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Didn't matter.

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My body twisted unnaturally, launching a kick into his side—

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THUD—

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He blocked—but slid back.

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The ground cracked under his feet.

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"…You're not even conscious," he muttered.

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"…and you're still coming at me?"

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I moved again.

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No pause.

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No hesitation.

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A flurry of strikes poured out—each one more forceful than the last.

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Each hit carried heavy pressure.

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Yin lashed out like fangs.

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Shamueru met them all.

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Blade flashing.

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Darkness colliding with darkness.

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The battlefield couldn't handle it anymore.

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Cracks spread across the ground.

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Chunks of frosted soil lifted into the air from the pressure.

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The sky itself appeared to dim.

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The wind shrieked violently, drawn into the clash.

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Every impact bent the air.

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BOOM! BOOM! BOOM!

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I struck again—

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He parried—

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I followed—

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He countered—

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A slash tore across my chest—

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But I didn't react.

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Didn't slow.

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My fist slammed into his jaw—

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He slid back—

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Snow exploded behind him.

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"…This is insane," he muttered under his breath.

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But he was smiling.

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Wider now.

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Enjoying it.

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He rushed forward again.

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Our attacks collided again—

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Faster now.

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Too fast for the eye to follow.

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A shockwave blasted outward, clearing the snow completely for a moment—revealing shattered ground beneath.

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My leg swept low,

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He jumped—

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His blade came down—

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I caught it—

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The impact drove me into the ground—

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CRACK—

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The earth ripped under me—

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But I forced myself back up instantly.

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Relentless.

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Endless.

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Like something was pushing my body forward, no matter what.

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Neither of us gave ground.

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For the first time,

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We were equal.

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But it didn't feel right.

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Something inside me—deep, buried—was screaming.

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Not afraid.

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Not in pain.

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But in confusion.

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Why am I moving?

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My body advanced forward again on its own.

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No hesitation.

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No thought.

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Just instinct.

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Yin pulsed violently around me, extending across the ground like a living form.

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The snow underneath my feet blackened.

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Cracked.

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Shattered.

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Shamueru noticed.

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His eyes sharpened.

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"…So it's not just power," he muttered. "…it's control."

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I disappeared.

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Not fast,

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Gone.

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My body reappeared behind him, my broken arm swinging like it wasn't even damaged.

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SLAM!

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The hit connected.

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Shamueru slid forward, boots carving deep trenches into the frozen ground.

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"…Tch—!"

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He spun instantly, blade cutting through the air—

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I ducked.

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Too smooth.

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Too perfect.

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My movements weren't mine anymore.

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Each step flowed into the next, as if I'd done this a thousand times.

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Like something else was fighting for me.

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My body surged forward with a newfound assertiveness, as if reclaiming control, and I drove my knee into his stomach—

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He blocked—

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But the impact still forced him back.

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The ground exploded beneath him.

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Snow shot into the sky.

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"…You're adapting," Shamueru said, breathing slightly more heavily now.

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"…No… not you."

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His grip held tighter on his weapon.

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"…That thing inside you."

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I didn't respond.

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Couldn't.

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Yet something inside me… reacted.

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Yin surged harder.

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The air got heavier.

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Harder to breathe.

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Shamueru grinned.

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"Good."

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He dashed forward again—

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Faster than before.

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This time—

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He was serious.

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His blade glowed with dense darkness as he swung downward—

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I raised my arm—

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BOOM—

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The collision sent a shockwave ripping through the battlefield.

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The soil cracked open between us.

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A sharp crack ran outward for meters.

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We pushed against each other—

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Power against power.

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Darkness versus darkness.

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Then—

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He twisted his blade.

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My defense broke for a split second—

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SLASH—

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A deep cut tore across my shoulder.

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Blood sprayed across the snow.

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But my body didn't flinch.

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Didn't stop.

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Didn't even acknowledge it.

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I grabbed his arm.

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Tight.

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Too tight.

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His eyes widened slightly.

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"…What the—"

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I banged my head into his.

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CRACK—

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The tone echoed.

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Both of us wobbled back—

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Then rushed forward again.

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No space.

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No breathing room.

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Just violence.

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Pure, relentless violence.

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Punches.

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Kicks.

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Blades.

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Impacts resounded like thunder across the frozen field.

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Every blow stronger than the last.

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Each clash is more destructive.

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The environment couldn't keep up anymore.

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Chunks of ice lifted into the air.

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The ground collapsed in sections.

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The wind spiraled wildly around us.

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Even the sky seemed darker.

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Like it was reacting.

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Like it was watching.

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Shamueru laughed.

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Actually laughed.

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"This is what I wanted!"

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He charged forward—

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I met him halfway—

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BOOM—

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Another massive shockwave blasted outward.

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Both of us were sent sliding back.

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For a brief moment—

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We stopped.

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Standing across from each other.

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Breathing.

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Watching.

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Waiting.

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Shamueru wiped blood from his mouth.

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"…If you were like this from the start…"

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He smirked.

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"…you might've actually survived."

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My body leaned forward again.

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Ready to move.

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Ready to fight.

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Ready to destroy itself if it had to.

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And that's when

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Everything continued as before.

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Perfectly matched.

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Shamueru's smile grew wider.

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"Yes… This is it."

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He rushed in again.

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This time—

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Harder.

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A full-powered strike.

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I met it directly.

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BOOM—

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The collision sent both of us skidding back.

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Then—

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Both of us leaped back.

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Landing several feet apart.

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The atmosphere between us warped slightly from the lingering pressure.

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Snow refused to settle.

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It hovered.

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Caught in the energy.

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Shamueru rolled his shoulder.

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"…You're still trash."

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A pause.

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He smirked.

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"…but at least now you're not boring."

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Silence.

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The breeze ceased.

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For a split second,

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Everything froze.

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Then—

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We moved again.

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Even faster than before.

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Everything blurred.

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Right before impact,

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A figure came into view.

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Between us.

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Black clothes.

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Red hair.

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A black blindfold covering his eyes.

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"Yo."

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He raised one hand casually.

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And caught both attacks.

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Effortlessly.

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Time… stopped.

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The force—

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Gone.

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Like it never existed.

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"…What?" Shamueru muttered.

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Before either of us could react,

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The man moved.

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A sharp strike slammed into Shamueru's stomach.

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BOOM—

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The ground cratered beneath him.

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Air burst from his lungs.

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Then—

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An elbow crashed into my face.

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My body slammed down beside him.

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Hard.

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The man moved forward—

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Placing a foot on each of us.

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Pinning us.

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Completely.

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Like we were nothing.

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Like everything we just did didn't matter.

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He sighed.

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"Y'all did all of this…"

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He paused.

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"…and still get beaten up by me."

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Shamueru growled.

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"Get… off me…"

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The man tilted his head.

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"…You sure?"

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"…Get off me."

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"…Alright."

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He stepped off.

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Just like that.

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Shamueru slowly stood.

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His look—

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Surprised.

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Genuinely.

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He glanced at the man again.

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Trying to understand.

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Then clicked his tongue.

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"…Tch."

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And turned.

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Walking away.

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But this time—

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No arrogance.

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No extra words.

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Just… leaving.

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The man watched him go.

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Then glanced down at me.

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I was still moving.

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Still trying to get up.

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Even now.

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Even after everything.

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"…Damn," he muttered.

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"…you're feisty."

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I staggered to my feet again.

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Barely conscious.

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Barely standing.

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Yin continued flickering weakly around me.

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Like it didn't want to let go.

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The man sighed.

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Then—

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CHOP—

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His hand struck the back of my neck.

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Everything went black instantly.

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My body collapsed.

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Finally.

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Completely unconscious.

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The Yin faded.

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Silence returned.

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The man stretched.

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Rolling his shoulders.

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"…Welp."

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He looked down at me.

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"You were right to ask me to watch him, Eren."

The random guy lifted me up.

putting me on his shoulder.

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He turned around.

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Walking away into the falling snow.

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After everything, only silence remained. It made me think about all the violence and struggle that just happened, and the consequences that would follow.

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And a battlefield that looked like monsters had ripped it apart.

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