... I was seriously struggling to receive the love from the one who I loved the most. As a result, I sounded manipulative. I felt desperate, desperate for her to be empathetic of how I felt. It's not like anything would of made a difference anymore.
Perhaps the public should see me as I will become the star who looks like an ugly king with an iron crown.
Out of pure selfishness of my own desires, I didn't realize until now that it is important for me to share this with you. But I wanted this discussion to make sure that assuming the conclusion after our discussion of mutual understanding of each other, that I wanted to fully expressed everything I have ever wanted.
I thought it was the best choice for me to have chosen to repress whatever intense emotions of love towards you considering in the past, it didn't end up well. I just don't want to end the friendship with me having regrets on me not fighting harder enough or fought myself to express what I really wanted to say to you specifically out of my sole desires.
Sorry [. ], I was extremely desperate to not experience that pain of depression again. Every single [Borderline Powerful Disorganization] attack hurted like hell. I wonder how powerful I would be if I was a Star.