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She Chose God First

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Between Heaven and the World Eliana Matthews has built her life on one unshakable truth: God comes first. Her faith is not a label but a daily surrender, shaping her choices, her boundaries, and her understanding of love. She believes that love should never compete with obedience—and she is willing to remain alone rather than compromise her devotion to God. Marcus Cole lives differently. Ambitious, successful, and captivated by the world’s promises, he measures life by achievement, freedom, and control. God exists in his life only as a distant idea—comforting, but never demanding. When their paths unexpectedly cross, a powerful connection forms between them, drawing two opposing worlds into collision. As affection deepens, Eliana faces a painful truth: loving Marcus may cost her the peace she has fought to protect. And Marcus is forced to confront a question he has spent his life avoiding—what happens when the world gives you everything except fulfillment? As choices grow heavier and distance separates them, Eliana must decide whether obedience is worth the heartbreak, while Marcus begins a journey of conviction that strips him of comfort and pride. Their love becomes a battleground where faith, desire, sacrifice, and surrender collide. Between Heaven and the World is a redemptive Christian novel about choosing God when love demands compromise, about the cost of obedience, and about the grace that meets those willing to surrender. It is a story for anyone who has ever stood between what they wanted and what God was calling them to become.
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Chapter 1 - when her heart chose heaven

Part 1

Eliana Grace Matthews had learned early in life that loving God was not something you did loudly. It was something you did deeply. It was in the quiet moments before sunrise, when the world was still holding its breath. It was in the way she whispered prayers while washing dishes, in the way her Bible pages were soft at the edges from years of turning, in the way she paused before making decisions and asked God—not herself—what was right.

She lived in a modest town where faith was common but devotion was rare. Churches stood on corners like monuments of tradition, yet many hearts inside them were distracted by ambition, comfort, and image. Eliana noticed these things, but she never judged. God had taught her compassion before He taught her discernment.

At twenty-seven, she worked at a small community library, a place she loved because it was quiet enough to hear her thoughts and gentle enough to feel safe. Her life was simple. She rented a small apartment, attended church every Sunday, volunteered at a women's shelter twice a month, and spent most evenings reading or journaling prayers.

She had been asked many times why she was still single.

She always smiled and answered, "I'm waiting on God."

What she never said out loud was that she wasn't waiting for perfection—she was waiting for alignment.

Eliana believed love was sacred. She believed a man should not compete with God for her heart. She believed companionship was beautiful, but obedience was eternal. These beliefs shaped her boundaries, and those boundaries had protected her from many things—but they had also kept her alone.

Until the night she met him.

His name was Marcus Cole.

The encounter was unplanned, almost accidental, the kind of meeting people later describe as fate when they don't yet understand divine permission.

It happened at her cousin's birthday celebration in the city. Eliana almost didn't go. Loud music, crowded rooms, and late nights were not her comfort zones. But her cousin had begged, and Eliana had agreed, telling herself she would stay only an hour.

Marcus was standing near the balcony, a drink in his hand, laughter in his eyes. He wore confidence like a second skin, the kind that didn't ask for attention but received it anyway. He spoke easily, moved freely, and carried himself as though the world had already agreed to make room for him.

When their eyes met, something unexpected happened.

Not fireworks. Not instant attraction.

Stillness.

Eliana felt it first—a strange pause in her spirit, as if God Himself had gone quiet. Marcus felt it too, though he would later describe it as curiosity rather than conviction.

Their conversation began politely, safely. He asked what she did. She asked where he was from. They spoke of books, travel, work, and music. He teased her gently for drinking water instead of wine. She smiled but didn't explain herself.

He noticed things about her that unsettled him. The way she listened without interrupting. The way she chose her words carefully. The way she didn't try to impress him.

Eliana noticed things too. His charm. His ambition. The subtle emptiness behind his laughter.

When he asked for her number, she hesitated.

Not because she wasn't interested. But because she was.

That night, Eliana prayed longer than usual.

"Lord," she whispered, knees drawn to her chest on the edge of her bed, "I don't want anything that will pull me away from You. If this man is not from You, close the door. Please."

Marcus, meanwhile, lay awake in his luxury apartment, staring at the ceiling, irritated by the fact that he couldn't forget her. He had dated many women—beautiful, exciting, impressive women—but Eliana unsettled him in a way he couldn't name.

She hadn't needed him.

And that bothered him.

Their first date was coffee. Eliana insisted on daytime, public, simple. Marcus agreed, amused by her firmness. He liked a challenge.

They talked for hours.

Marcus spoke of success, money, goals, and experiences. Eliana spoke of purpose, calling, and faith. She didn't preach, but she didn't hide either.

"I love God," she said plainly at one point. "He's the center of my life."

Marcus nodded, though something tightened in his chest.

"That's… good," he said. "I believe in God too."

Eliana smiled, but she understood the difference between belief and surrender.

As weeks passed, their connection deepened. Marcus admired her discipline. Eliana admired his passion. But beneath the admiration, tension grew.

Marcus loved the world.

He loved the thrill of nightlife, the chase of success, the applause of people. His weekends were full. His schedule was packed. God, for him, was an idea—comforting, distant, optional.

Eliana loved stillness.

She loved early mornings with scripture. She loved serving quietly. She loved obedience even when it cost her something.

Their differences were subtle at first, then increasingly obvious.

Marcus would invite her to parties she declined. Eliana would invite him to church he avoided.

"You don't have to change for me," Marcus said once, frustration creeping into his voice.

"I'm not asking you to," Eliana replied gently. "But I won't change for you either."

Those words hung between them like a fragile truth.

Eliana felt torn. She prayed constantly, searching for peace, but instead she felt a growing ache. She cared for Marcus deeply—yet she could sense the danger of loving someone who might never walk beside her spiritually.

Marcus, on the other hand, felt challenged in ways he never had before. Her boundaries confused him. Her refusal to compromise irritated him. But her presence drew him.

He didn't know it yet, but loving Eliana was already confronting him with himself.

One evening, as they walked along a quiet street, Marcus asked a question he hadn't planned.

"Do you think I'm… wrong?" he asked. "For the way I live?"

Eliana stopped walking.

She looked at him—not with judgment, but with sorrow and hope intertwined.

"I think God loves you deeply," she said. "But I think He wants more for you than the world can give."

Marcus laughed softly, though his eyes darkened.

"And if I don't want that?" he asked.

Eliana swallowed.

"Then I can't walk with you forever," she said.

The silence that followed was heavy.

That night, Eliana cried in prayer.

Marcus went out drinking.

Both were standing at the edge of a choice they didn't yet understand.

And heaven was watching.

Part 2

Marcus did not like silence, especially the kind that forced him to think. Yet that was exactly what followed Eliana's words. Then I can't walk with you forever.

Forever was a word he used casually in business pitches and late-night promises he never intended to keep. But coming from her, it sounded permanent. Final. Sacred.

He tried to shake it off. He told himself she was being dramatic, religious, idealistic. Still, the thought followed him through crowded bars and loud conversations. Even surrounded by people, he felt oddly alone.

Eliana, meanwhile, felt as though her heart had been placed on an altar she never asked to build.

She fasted for three days, not because she wanted answers, but because she wanted strength. Each morning, she opened her Bible and read the same verse again and again:

"Do not be unequally yoked together with unbelievers."

The words felt heavy, not condemning, but clarifying.

She loved Marcus. That truth was undeniable now. She loved his laughter, his intensity, the way he listened when he chose to listen. But love, she knew, was not permission to disobey God.

She asked God a dangerous prayer.

"Lord," she whispered, "if he is not meant to walk toward You, give me the courage to let him go. And if he is… prepare us both."

Days passed without contact.

Marcus noticed first.

He reached for his phone more times than he cared to admit. Each time, he stopped himself, pride battling longing. When he finally called, Eliana answered, but her voice was quieter, guarded.

They agreed to meet.

This time, it wasn't coffee.

They sat on a park bench beneath a wide sky, the kind that made small things feel exposed. Marcus spoke first.

"I don't like how this feels," he admitted. "Like I'm failing a test I didn't sign up for."

Eliana nodded. "I know. I don't want to make you feel judged."

"But you do," he said softly. "Not because you're judging me… but because you're different."

She closed her eyes for a moment. "Marcus, I can't pretend my faith is a small thing. God is everything to me."

"And where does that leave me?" he asked.

She met his eyes. "I don't know."

That answer frustrated him more than anything else.

For weeks after, they existed in an uncomfortable middle. They dated, but carefully. They laughed, but cautiously. Every moment carried an unspoken question: Where is this going?

Marcus began noticing changes in himself that unsettled him. He felt restless after nights out. Empty after accomplishments that once satisfied him. He found himself thinking about Eliana's prayers, the way she spoke to God as if He were listening.

One Sunday morning, on impulse, he went to church.

He sat in the back, arms crossed, prepared to be bored. Instead, the sermon pierced him unexpectedly.

The pastor spoke about surrender. About the illusion of control. About loving the world so much that you miss eternity.

Marcus felt exposed.

He didn't tell Eliana he had gone.

Eliana noticed the shift anyway.

"You seem… quieter," she said one evening.

He shrugged. "Just thinking."

She smiled gently. "That's dangerous."

He laughed, then grew serious. "Do you ever get tired of choosing God?"

She considered the question carefully. "Sometimes it's hard. But no… because He never leaves me empty."

Marcus nodded slowly, as if storing the words for later.

The breaking point came unexpectedly.

Marcus was offered a major opportunity—an international contract that promised wealth, recognition, and influence. The catch? It required relocating immediately, leaving everything behind.

Including Eliana.

When he told her, she congratulated him sincerely. But her heart sank.

"That's amazing," she said. "I'm proud of you."

He searched her face. "You don't sound excited."

"I am," she said. "Just… aware."

"Of what?"

"That our paths might be separating."

Marcus felt anger rise. "Why does everything have to be so final with you?"

"Because I don't believe in half-commitments," she replied. "Not to God. Not to love."

He stood up abruptly. "I don't want to choose between my life and your God."

Eliana stood too, tears filling her eyes. "I'm not asking you to choose me. I'm asking you to choose truth."

They said goodbye that night without resolving anything.

Marcus left for work consumed by frustration.

Eliana went home and fell to her knees.

"I release him," she prayed through tears. "Even if it breaks me."

Weeks passed.

Marcus moved. Eliana stayed.

The distance was more than physical now—it was spiritual.

Eliana mourned quietly. She didn't rush into distractions. She let the pain refine her. She learned that obedience often feels like loss before it feels like peace.

Marcus tried to drown his thoughts in success. He worked longer hours, attended more events, smiled for cameras. Yet the higher he climbed, the more hollow it felt.

Late one night, alone in a foreign city, he opened the Bible Eliana had once given him, untouched until now.

It fell open to a verse he had never read:

"What does it profit a man to gain the whole world, yet lose his soul?"

He closed the book, heart pounding.

For the first time in his life, Marcus prayed.

It wasn't eloquent. It wasn't confident.

But it was real.

"If You're real," he whispered, "I don't want to be empty anymore."

Miles away, Eliana woke suddenly, her heart racing.

She didn't know why, but she prayed for Marcus with urgency she couldn't explain.

Heaven, it seemed, was not finished.

Marcus did not wake up changed the next morning.

There was no sudden holiness, no angelic clarity, no instant peace. What he woke up with was discomfort — the kind that refuses to be ignored. His success still surrounded him: the apartment with glass walls, the view of a city that never slept, the emails congratulating him on milestones reached far too quickly.

Yet for the first time, none of it quieted his soul.

He found himself opening the Bible again, cautiously, as if it might accuse him. He read slowly, stopping often, unsettled by how personal the words felt. Scripture was no longer distant philosophy. It was confrontational. Alive.

Conviction settled in — not as shame, but as exposure.

He thought of Eliana constantly. Not only her smile or her voice, but her stillness. Her certainty. The way she chose God even when it cost her something precious.

Marcus realized something that frightened him.

She had not lost him.

He had lost himself.

Back home, Eliana entered a season she did not expect. She assumed obedience would eventually bring relief. Instead, it brought loneliness sharper than before. Sundays were hardest. She sat alone in the pew, hands folded, worship songs catching in her throat.

People praised her strength.

They did not see the nights she cried quietly into her pillow, asking God why loving Him had to hurt this much.

Yet beneath the pain, something holy was forming.

She learned how to be content without distraction. She learned that God was not replacing Marcus — He was revealing Himself more deeply. Her prayers became less about outcomes and more about trust.

"Even if he never returns," she whispered one night, "You are enough."

Those words did not come easily. But when they did, peace followed.

Months passed.

Marcus declined invitations he once chased. He stopped numbing himself with noise. He found a small church in the city, slipping into the back row like a man unsure he belonged. Each sermon stripped him further. Each prayer forced honesty he had avoided his entire life.

One evening, during a message about surrender, something broke.

Marcus wept.

Not quietly. Not politely.

He wept with the weight of a man who had spent years running from truth. He wept for the emptiness he mistook for freedom. He wept for the woman who had loved God more than she loved him — and in doing so, had shown him what real love looked like.

That night, Marcus surrendered.

Not his success. Not his future. But his will.

"Take it," he prayed. "All of it. I don't want to lead myself anymore."

Transformation did not make his life easier. It made it clearer.

He began making changes that confused people. He stepped away from certain deals. He restructured his work. He lost relationships built on convenience rather than character.

And slowly, painfully, he understood why Eliana had drawn her boundaries.

They were not walls.

They were altars.

One evening, months later, Eliana received a message she did not expect.

Marcus:

"I don't know if I have the right to reach out. If this disrupts your peace, forgive me. I just wanted to say… God is changing me."

Her hands trembled.

She stared at the screen, heart pounding, afraid hope might rise too quickly. She prayed before responding — something she had learned to do instinctively.

Eliana:

"I'm glad God is working in you. That's all I ever wanted."

They spoke cautiously at first. No promises. No rushing. Marcus did not try to impress her. He told her the truth — the failures, the doubts, the cost of obedience.

Eliana listened.

Not as a rescuer. Not as a reward. But as a sister in faith.

When Marcus finally returned home months later, they met again in the same park where they had once nearly ended everything.

He looked different. Quieter. Softer. Grounded.

"So," he said, nervous, "I won't ask you to walk with me. I know better now."

Eliana studied him. "Then what will you ask?"

"I'll ask if I can walk toward God," he said. "And if our paths align… I'll be grateful. If not… I'll still obey."

Tears filled her eyes.

For the first time, she felt no fear.

Their love was no longer a battlefield.

It was a testimony.

They did not rush into romance. They prayed together. They learned together. They built slowly, intentionally, with God at the center — not as a compromise, but as the foundation.

Eliana understood something profound then.

God had never asked her to choose between love and obedience.

He had asked her to trust Him with both.

And Marcus understood something equally sacred.

The world had offered him everything — and left him empty.

God asked for everything — and gave him life.

Their story was not perfect.

But it was redeemed.

And heaven rejoiced.

Part 4

Love, once redeemed, does not arrive quietly. It arrives with responsibility.

Eliana and Marcus learned that quickly.

Their renewed relationship unfolded slowly, deliberately, like a house being rebuilt on ground that had once cracked. They prayed before dates. They fasted before decisions. They invited counsel instead of relying on emotion.

It was unfamiliar terrain for Marcus — to love without control, to desire without possession, to lead without pride. Some days he failed. On those days, Eliana did not rescue him. She reminded him of truth and let God do the correcting.

That was new too.

When Marcus asked her to marry him, it was not grand. No crowd. No spectacle.

Just a quiet evening, Scripture open between them.

"I won't promise perfection," he said, voice steady but humble. "But I promise pursuit — of God first, and you second."

Eliana wept, not from surprise, but from recognition.

"Yes," she said. "With God at the center."

Marriage revealed what dating never could.

Marcus discovered that spiritual leadership required daily dying to self. Prayer was no longer optional; it was survival. Eliana learned that loving a transformed man still required patience — sanctification was ongoing, not instant.

There were disagreements. Old habits surfaced. The world did not stop pulling at Marcus simply because he had surrendered.

One night, after a demanding season at work, Marcus came home frustrated, silent, distant.

Eliana recognized the signs.

"You're drifting," she said gently.

He exhaled sharply. "I'm tired of fighting everything all the time."

She reached for his hand. "Then rest in God. Don't return to what almost destroyed you."

He pulled away.

For the first time since their marriage, Eliana felt fear — not of losing Marcus to sin, but of losing peace to fear itself.

That night, she chose something radical.

She slept.

She did not argue. She did not control. She trusted God with her husband.

Marcus lay awake, convicted not by her words, but by her peace.

The next morning, he apologized before she spoke.

"I forgot who saved me," he said.

They knelt together.

Trials did not stop.

They struggled financially after Marcus declined an unethical opportunity. Friends questioned their choices. Family members doubted their convictions. Ministry invitations came — and with them, scrutiny.

Yet every test refined them.

Eliana began leading women quietly, teaching about obedience without bitterness. Marcus shared his testimony publicly — not as a hero, but as a warning.

"This world will promise you everything," he said once. "But it cannot heal you."

Their marriage became a living sermon.

Years later, as they sat watching the sunset from their porch, Marcus squeezed Eliana's hand.

"You saved my life," he said.

She shook her head. "No. God did. I just loved Him enough not to get in His way."

Eliana understood now that loving God first had not cost her love.

It had protected it.

And Marcus understood that loving the world had nearly cost him his soul.

Their story was not about a woman who loved God or a man who loved the world.

It was about a God who loved them both enough to intervene.

And that love — unshakeable, redemptive, eternal — was the truest story of all.