I kept myself busy by therapy and took a two-month leave from work since needed to rest from the accident. Yet, a lot happened since then, from taking medications to frequent visits to the hospital for check-ups and all that formalities, it took a toll on me that I felt tired, depressed and sad. Though, I have my money, my job and my women, I still felt empty and tried to resort to dating apps since I couldn't get out much because of my medical condition.
There I met Bea. Kamusta?, Bea said. Okay, lang, eto, nagpapahinga and still recovering from my accident! Nasabi ko ba 'yon sa 'yo?, Vera replied. Ah! No, talaga, what happened ba", Bea asked and from then on naging madalas na an gaming pag-uusap. She works in a logistics firm and just became a supervisor kaya very bury siya sa umaga at after work lang siya may time to talk to me. Madalas tumatawag siya sa akin kapag medyo nakainum na ito at sweet na sweet na inaalok ako na puntahan siya at samahan sa paginom sa bar. However, I still can't do that because I am on my recovery stage at bawal pa lumabas sa house kaya, lagi ko sinasabi na I will do that kapag maayos na ako.
I call or text Bea sa office or at home, then she also did the same, pero, one time, ang tagal niya sumagot and nagalit ito dahil busy daw siya and couldn't get my call or text. Her job is very crucial na hindi pwede magkamali and as a supervisor she needs to make sure everything is organized and perfect para walang mangyari na mali sa mga deliveries sa local areas na hawak niya.
I nagged her and sabi ko, ang tagal niya sumagot sa text but she explained na huwag na huwag daw ako tatawag or magtetext habang nasa trabaho siya dahil nga busy at strikto ang boss niya. But there are times na siya ang tatawag at nagmamanman kung may kasama ako sa house o may kausap na iba sa app na pinagkilanlan naming. Ah….nagseselosa ka ba?, tanung ko. Hindi, bakit ako magseselos?, ani Bea. So, doon ko nalaman na gusto niya rin ako. Though I am practically older than her, like her mom na, I didn't want to impose dahil nga halos twenty years ang tanda ko sa kanya and I have never been with a girl before na younger than me talaga. So, hindi ko alam ang gagawin and I couldn't figure out how to handle her and the situation.