Jitna socha tha utni assan nahi hai ye zindagi kitabo m jo nahi tha wo zindagi ne sikha diya ek bachpan hua karta tha jab hum jaldi bade hone ki sochte the aaj jab bade huye to bachpan he acha tha sochte hai
Kyuki yaha survive karna Har kisi middle class ke liye aasan to nahi hota hai
Jee to sab lete hai lekin jesa jeena chate hai waha tak pahuchne m bahut se dukh sukh dekhne ko milta hai
Koi haar jata hai to koi Jeet jata hai Har koi alag tarike se preshan hota hai m apni baat karu to Ghar ka wo chota ladka hu jo sab ko khush karte karte khud thak gaya pass reh ke bhi Ghar se dur ho gaya bachpan m jo pyar mila jese jeeta tha lagta tha bahut aasan hai zindagi success mil jayegi
Lekin jab mujhe ye ehsaas hone laga ki wo ristedar wo pyar sab bachpan tak tha to Kash m kisi se koi umeed nahi karta umeedo ne mera vishwas toda hai isliye ab akele chal raha hu apni kami apni khusi sukh dukh
Sab akele he handle karta hu wo bacha jo kabhi khilone na milne pe rota tha aaj bimar hone pe bhi nahi rota hai or kisi ke samne bhi nahi ro sakta hai anshu sirf dil m hai Ankho m nami chere pe jhuti Hansi andar bhara dukh
mera ek part hai m sochta jada hu esme pariwar samjho Sapna samjho lekin mera dimag bhi overthink sa hai mene apni kami bhi mehsoos ki hai or kosis karta rehta hu apne aap se le ke apne dimag ko bhi badalne ki m kabhi bhi school m fail nahi hua hu lekin zindagi m bahut bar fail hua hu lekin na m ruka na m rukunga ye he hamesha se soch rahi hai
Pani ki pyas lagi thi
Par pani m jehar tha
Mujhe bachpan m dance ka shok tha bollywood type zindagi jeena chata tha
Ghar wale foj m jana chahte the fir mne unki khusi ke liye teyari ki m army m bharti ho gaya tha fresh lekin last stage written m chuk gaya uske baad teyari he nhi ki
Fir private job karne nikal gaya or jb private jobs ki kar raha hu to Pata chal raha hai tuff life ho jati hai
Mne apne tarike se pariwar ko samjhana chah jitna mne mehsoos kiya kuki father nahi hai bada bhai hai jo lagta nahi ki ek jimedar or pariwar ko sambhalne wala hua hoga
Mera pariwar manage nahi ho paya m kisi ki soch bhi nahi badal paya kuki shyad jisko jesa jeena hai vese he jeena chate hai
M thoda aage ki soch rakhta tha lekin m Ghar walo ki soch ke aage khud saant ho gaya aaj m akele hu job pe Ghar ristedar jo log mujhe Har din call karte the aaj khud meri mummy hafte m ek bar call karti hai
Ab lagta hai ki ab apna soch sabke liye soch ke shyad galt he hua hoga jo koi call nahi karta hai
Acha to m ho nahi sakta sabki najar m agar acha hota to baate hoti bura he hunga isliye duriya hai
Pr Sach Batau to swarth hai yaha ek sacha insaan nahi sabke sath adjust ho sakta kuki yaha jhut se he kafi kuch badal jata hai sacha insaan bura ban jata hai
M aram se jee sakta hu lekin ek jo dukh hai
Wo hai ma uske liye kuch karna hai abhi chahe kuch bhi ho koi kaisa bhi ho
Mne apna farz nibhana hai
M wo badnaseeb bhi hu jo apni ma ke liye jeete jeete ma ne he hara diya mne jo umeed ma se Rakhi uska bhi mujhe ulta sabak mila
Or m samjha bhi nahi sakta kuki un logo ke samaj m nahi aati jo m bolta hu unki Umar ke sath wo thik hai apne m
Par Har bar bache galt nahi hote