WARNING: SOME SENSITIVE: SUICIDE...
We were on our way to Emily's party and I didn't see any shadow of my so-called brother.
It seems like Declan really hates being around with his own sister that he refused to accompany me, his sister to Emily's party.
I looked outside the carriage as I to see the view from Emily's father territory. It has a beautiful scenery of woods, I remember reading that Emily's family was frugal even though they were also marquisate house hold, but unliek Navia who likes lavish things, Emily was the exact opposite of her and people even wonder why they became friends?
It's because both of them were raised alone, the difference is Emily was loved by her family, it's just that her fahther needed to be with the duke in the border in the south to protect the border from any invasion from the other empire that might cause the safety of many people.
I was back to reality when the carriage suddenly stopped in a huge house and the gate has the name of Berjolli name out of it.
The carriage stopped and the coachmen along with some knights who were with me to protect me talk to the person in gate and showed them the invitation that I have, After they inspect it they look at the carriage and their eyes widened when they saw the symbol from the flag in my carriage.
The party still hasn't started when we got inside, but there are already many people who were there, and most of them were the same age as me, but there are also some adults.
These adult noble people in hope to find alliance in this party attended along with their children.
"Lady Navia.."
I was greeted by Emily's butler who bowed his head as he greeted me.
Everyone looked at me when they heard the butler said my name.
Their eyes were full of displeasure, like they didn't want me to be here.
"What is she doing here?"
I even heard one of the man who was standing next to another noble man asked the question.
"Have you forgotten? The Devineris and the Berjolli's are close to each other, having the Marquise worked along with Duke Devineris, and besides Lady Navia is Lady Emily's friend."
The other noble man explained as he even grimace when he looked at me while the latter scowl at what he just heard.
I looked at them and they both looked away.
"Oh, it's lady Navia."
I looked back at someone who calls my name and saw it was Camilla along with other children in our age with her, she looks like a lost puppy.
It seems like she was having a hard time fitting herself with them. These people only like her because of the prince, if not why would they even bother themselves with her.
I looked at her and saw that she was wearing some familiar clothes.
I saw her looking at me too, and she paled when she saw me looking at her.
"Lady Gran..."
I said as I looked at the girl who was smirking at me while the other's were smiling smuggly at me.
"Why is no one with you?"
She asks as she looked at me while rolling her eyes.
This girl of I remember it correctly, she was after Declan and even scheme to get married with him, too bad Declan chooses Emily instead of her, but she didn't end up well too.
For Declan not having the one he love made his heart cold and only vowed to protect Camilla with all he have.
That fool...
He even betrayed his own family for her...
Navia's crime of trying to using dark magic was never proven, but for Camilla's reputation and to protect her, Declan admitted doing it along with his sister, and ended up trapping in a dungeon and tortured everyday.
While Navia was trapped in the tower where she was tortured as well, uses her as their experiment, and even humihiliated her.
Those people uses different kinds of sorcery to test her vitality and even got her blood drained in some times.
The day when she learned that her father was going to be executed by those people he used to protect with his life.
Navia to her embrassment as his shameless daughter tried to escape to release her father, but was caught by Camilla's knight in shinning armor, Navia's second cousin who was working as the head of the tower mage captured her and put her back to the tower where she was torture everyday.
And when she can't handled being tortured everyday emotionally and physically.
One time when one of the magician in the tower wanted to assault her...
With all the power she had, she killed him.
And she finally lost it...
No, family who would be still there with her are even worst than being neglected at least that way she still has some home that she can call hers even if she felt suffocated.
But then something happened, she almost loose her innocent because of this pervert people who tried to do something to her.
Navia stabbed him, and after that she took her own life.
"What are you still standing here?"
I was taken back when I heard a voice said and when I turn back I met a cold gaze from a man who has the same hair as the duke.
"Lord Declan.."
I looked at Lady Gran who greeted my brother who was smiling from ear to ear.
No...
If he will turn to her he will surely see Camilla and fell in love with her, this fool...
"Brother... You're here!"
I said as interrupt him when he was about to turn around to greet Lady Gran as he was facing me.
He looked at me with those cold eyes again.
"What's with your clothes?"
He asks as he looked at the clothes that I am wearing.
"Don't you have enough money to buy some lavish clothes?"
He continue as he raise his right eyebrow while examining my reaction.
"Why? What's wrong with my clothes?"
I asked as I also raises him a brow, who does he think he is?
I remembered from Navia's memory that I am regaining everyday that she uses to long for her brother's affection and was envious to the other noble kids who were close to their siblings.
The brother who will betrayed and sell off their entire family for his so called righteousness and love for the female lead who just uses her pitiful act.
Like what's with these men in this story?
They are willing to die for the female lead even though she was using them, are they that stupid? Or love sick fool? They can't even see the people who truly love them, not for their status or wealth.
In my case? I got it worst, my brother, and cousin who were utterly fool and blind when it comes to Camilla.
Camilla who were looked down by everyone and when she reached at top despises her origin and mocked her own.
She wasn't some naive and frail lady that the male lead and the side male characters painted her.
Behind their back she was this scheming little woman who wanted to do everything to have what she deseires.
I looked at her who was bowing her head behind Lady Gran who was still smiling while looking at my brother like he was the most beautiful thing in this world.
"It's just you're not being yourself, or are you planning to do any chaos here?"
He said which made me looked at him, but my eyes saw that Camilla slowly lift her head.
"Brother, I am not going to do anything in here... Let's go, I needed to introduce you to my friend.."
I said as I pulled him when I saw Camilla was about to open her mouth to greet my brother, but I was more faster than her.
Declan was confused, but he still just go with me as we walk, I looked back as I could feel their gaze darted at my back that if it was some blade I would have been lying on the floor bathing with my own blood.
I made a decision, I won't be like the real Navia who was so push over and become a villain because of those people who were whispering on her ears.
and I won't be the same as the woman I am when I was still in my world, a woman who could everyone trampled like some trash.
This time I won't be a villain nor a good person, if I want to survive in here I should play my card well and change the destiny of the people around me who cause Navia to be villain in her past life.
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"What was that?"
Declan said as he looked at me while we were waiting in a room where Emily's butler guided us when he saw us roaming around the hall.
"What?"
I asked as I eat the snacks that was served on the table.
"Drop the act..."
He said in a serious voice as he looked at me with those cold eyes again.
"Why? Is it wrong for a sister to spend time with her brother and introduce him to her friend?"
I answered as I looked at him as I happily eat the strawberry cake.
I will surely enjoy my life this time as Navia.
In my past life I was always starved because of my brother who always took my money and in the company my workmates always throw my food and made swampped with so many paperworks.
He was about to say something when the door opened and Emily went inside.
"Navia!"
She said as she was running towards me smiling.
I smiled back at her, this girl was the only person who was on my side through and through, but she also ended miserable because of me.
This time I will definitely make it up to her.
If my brother didn't want her, then I could find her a man who will truly love her.
"How have you been?"
She asked and seems she didn't saw my brother who was sitting opposite where I am sitting.
"I am fine.. What about you? I heard from Bisnna that you got sick?"
I said as I looked at her with worry on my face.
Bisnna told me that Emily was fell ill before her brithday party.
"I am fine, it was just not so fatal."
She said as she looked at me with assurance in her eyes.
"Ahhmmm"
I looked at Declan who cleared his throat to get our attention.
"Young Duke..."
Emily said as she looked surprised to see Declan in the room.
"Lady Emily."
He greeted as he looked at her with coldness in his eyes.
Does this man ever feel anything?
Oh, right..
He only feel something when it was Camilla.
But this time he and Camilla still hasn't meet yet.
I looked at Declan as he took something out from his cloack and saw it was a gift.
"This is my and my sister's gift for your, Lady Emily... Father said he can't come as he was with your father in the border."
He said as he give Emily the gift.
Emily smiled at him, and I saw him stiffened.
"Thank you, Young Duke..."
She said as she look at him all flusttered.
This is bad.
Emily can't fall for Declan as he couldn't love her, and worst she will end with the same fate again.
"Emily..."
I called for her attention as I didn't want her to fall for him.
She was startled before she turn her back on Declan who looked away while his cheeks were red.
Wait-
He blushed?
Wow... Is the world in here healing?
Declan who never showed emotions blushed?
And it's Emily!
Not Camilla...
I looked at him as he was still not looking at where Emily is.
We all looked when we heard a knocked from the door,
"Lady Emily, the people were already looking for you outside..."
Someone said and Emily look at me as she was hesitating whether to go with the woman who called her or stay with me.
"You can go, it's your party... Brother and I will go down there too."
I said as I smiled at her and we all came out from the room, but Emily went to another direction, while Declan and I went down stair first.
When we got downstairs, Declan and I both chooses a place where we were seems to be hidden from everyone.
Everyone looked upstairs when Emily's grandfather announces her...
Right it was not just an ordinary birthday this is also her debut to the society.
I looked at her happily as she mingle with people.
Emily was really a social butterfly, and yet because of love she ended up isolating herself with me in that sad, empty place.
I turn around, but I almost get fall when I -