Cherreads

Chapter 44 - Chapter 44: When Control Slips

The rain had started without warning, streaking down the tall glass windows of the Wilson private residence like restless fingers searching for a way in. Inside, the house was unusually quiet, the kind of silence that pressed against the skin and made every thought louder. Alex stood by the window, his sleeves rolled up, tie discarded somewhere behind him, staring at the city he usually ruled without effort. Tonight, it felt different. Tonight, the city felt like a witness.

Amber Gareth had left less than an hour ago, yet her presence still clung to the room. Her perfume lingered faintly in the air, subtle but unmistakable. It annoyed him how deeply she had carved herself into his space, into his thoughts. He had built his life around discipline and control, around never letting emotions dictate decisions. And yet, every encounter with Amber chipped away at that structure, threatening to collapse it entirely.

The meeting earlier had been explosive in ways neither of them had anticipated. What was supposed to be a controlled discussion about damage control after the scandal had turned into a confrontation charged with unspoken truths. Amber had arrived calm, sharp, and impeccably composed, as always. But Alex had seen it—the tension beneath her calm, the way her fingers tightened when his name was mentioned, the way her gaze lingered a second too long whenever their eyes met.

She was fighting something. And so was he.

Alex turned away from the window just as his phone buzzed on the table. A message. From her.

We need to set clearer boundaries. This… whatever this is, it's starting to affect decisions.

His lips curved into a slow, humorless smile. Boundaries. The word felt almost laughable now. He typed a response before he could overthink it.

You're right. But pretending this doesn't exist won't make it disappear.

The reply came faster than he expected.

I'm not pretending. I'm protecting myself.

Alex exhaled sharply, running a hand through his hair. That was the problem. Amber Gareth didn't enter battles she couldn't win, and she certainly didn't give her heart without calculating the cost. But desire was not something that respected calculations.

Across the city, Amber stood in her bedroom at the Gareth mansion, barefoot on the cool marble floor, her heels abandoned near the door. She stared at her phone long after sending the message, her chest tight with emotions she refused to name. The reflection in the mirror showed a woman in control, confident, untouchable. But the truth was more complicated.

She had felt it tonight—the shift. The way Alex's voice had dropped when they were alone, the way his gaze had stripped away her defenses without him even touching her. It terrified her how easily he got under her skin. She had rebuilt herself after the past, after the heartbreak she swore would never define her again. Falling now felt like betrayal—to herself most of all.

Camila knocked softly before entering. "You left abruptly," she said, studying her sister carefully. "Alex?"

Amber didn't answer immediately. She placed her phone face down on the table and crossed her arms. "He's becoming a problem."

Camila raised an eyebrow. "A personal problem or a business one?"

Amber shot her a look. "Don't do that."

Camila sighed, sitting on the edge of the bed. "Amber, I've known you my entire life. You don't look at people the way you look at him unless something real is happening. And real things are messy."

Amber closed her eyes briefly. "Messy things destroy empires."

"Or humanize the people who build them," Camila countered gently.

Amber opened her eyes, resolve hardening. "I can't afford to lose control. Not now. Not ever again."

Yet later that night, sleep refused to come. Every time Amber closed her eyes, she saw Alex—his calm dominance, his quiet intensity, the way he never backed down from her challenges. It infuriated her. It thrilled her. And it scared her more than she cared to admit.

The following morning brought no relief. Headlines continued to speculate about the Gareth–Wilson connection, twisting facts into half-truths and fantasies. Shareholders called. Advisors demanded reassurance. Amber handled it all with precision, her voice steady, her decisions sharp. But beneath the surface, something was unraveling.

When Alex requested a private meeting that afternoon, Amber almost declined. Almost.

They met at a neutral location—a private lounge reserved for high-profile negotiations. The space was quiet, discreet, designed for confidentiality. The moment Alex walked in, dressed impeccably as always, Amber felt the air shift.

"This meeting is strictly professional," she said immediately, before either of them could sit.

Alex studied her for a moment, then nodded. "Of course."

They sat across from each other, documents spread between them, but neither reached for them. The tension was thick, heavy, pressing in from all sides.

"You're pulling away," Alex said calmly.

Amber's eyes snapped to his. "I'm refocusing."

"On what?"

"On what matters."

Alex leaned back slightly. "And I don't?"

Amber hesitated. Just for a second. "You complicate things."

A slow smile tugged at his lips. "You've never been afraid of complications."

"That was before," she said sharply.

"Before what?"

Before I loved someone and it broke me. The words stayed locked behind her teeth. Instead, she said, "Before I realized how much there is to lose."

Silence stretched between them, dense with meaning. Alex's gaze softened, just a fraction. "Amber, I'm not asking you to lose anything. I'm asking you to stop pretending this is just strategy."

She stood abruptly, pacing away. "And I'm asking you to stop pushing."

Alex rose as well, closing the distance between them. "I don't push things that don't push back."

The proximity made her breath hitch. She turned to face him, chin lifted defiantly. "This is exactly what I mean. You don't respect limits."

"I respect honesty," he replied quietly. "And you're lying—to yourself most of all."

Her pulse thundered in her ears. "You don't know me well enough to say that."

"I know enough," he said, voice low. "Enough to see the way you tense when I get close. Enough to hear the hesitation behind your confidence. Enough to know that this connection terrifies you."

She swallowed. "And if it does?"

Alex stepped closer, his presence overwhelming. "Then maybe it's because it matters."

For a moment, neither of them moved. The space between them felt charged, fragile, like one wrong breath could shatter everything. Amber's resolve wavered, the walls she'd built threatening to crumble.

She took a step back. "This has to stop."

Alex nodded slowly, though disappointment flickered in his eyes. "If that's what you truly want."

"It is," she said, even as her heart betrayed her.

He studied her for a long moment, then turned away. "Then we keep things professional. No more late-night meetings. No more blurred lines."

Amber nodded. "Agreed."

But as Alex walked out, she knew the truth. Control hadn't been restored. It had slipped through her fingers the moment she realized how much she didn't want him to leave.

Later that evening, alone once more, Amber stood by her window, watching the city lights flicker to life. Her phone buzzed. A single message.

This isn't over. Not for me.

Her chest tightened. She didn't reply. She didn't need to. Because deep down, she knew—it wasn't over for her either.

What she didn't know was how much it would cost her when control finally gave way to desire.

More Chapters