It's been several days to that incident. I can't move on from that. "Kaneki, died because of me. If I haven't be with him. He would be alive." I saw depressed. I didn't went to school for past two weeks. Ayase visited me and she was sad that I was sitting my room doing nothing at all.
"It wasn't your fault Arata! Wake up. Come out of this room!" she forced me but I didn't move and inch. I lay back down on my bed thinking of Kaneki. He died because of me. If I haven't talked with him. These types of things were playing in my mind a million of times. I was at my lowest.
Days passed and I started to recover a bit. I went school and meet with my friends their. They encouraged me to overcome that. After school, I was still a bit depressed and going home but Ayase pull me in a corner and slapped my face.
"Arata! Wake up. Live like you were always. The cheerful Arata!" I saw her face, she was crying, begging me for my own happiness. I am making everyone suffer just because of something that's wasn't even my fault. "Ayase, I am sorry. I'll try to overcome it now." I kissed her palm and hug her.
Then she playfully scold me, we spend time and then I went home. Thinking everything is right. I went to sleep, but I saw something in my dreams. It was more like a nightmare. "Big bro, Arata. I died because of you. If you didn't acknowledge me. I would be alive-"
I woke up sweating because of this, the next morning. I went to his home. His mom was also said about this but she didn't blame me instead she hugged me and said... something that made me tear up. "Arata. He called his big brother. I heard you were depressed and sad, that you can't save him but don't be upset.
You know what Kaneki said in his last moment. He said "Mom. Big brother Arata, is like me. If you saw him again tell him. I love you big brother! If he comes here. Tell him, don't be worried. I'll be in heaven waiting for him forever." I was happy and sad at the same time. After that, I finally moved on, but still I wished. If I had one chance I could save him.
I walked in to my room and looked at the picture of Kaneki. I prayed for rest in peace for him. That's how I finally moved on and be happy again for the rest of my life.
I still won't forget you my younger brother. Ken Kaneki.
[ARATA FINALL MOVED ON. THIS HAPPEN BUT DON'T BE SAD. MOVE ON A
ND LIFE YOUR LIFE]