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Chapter 30 - What Are You Doing To Me?

The doctor stepped out quietly.

"She'll wake up soon," she informed the waiting guests, professional and calm. "Panic-induced syncope. She's stable."

Relief rippled through the corridor.

Ling didn't hear it.

She closed the door herself slow, deliberate.

Click.

The lock sounded final.

Outside, the party resumed on Ling's single command. Music softened. Laughter forced its way back into the mansion, pretending nothing had happened.

Inside, silence breathed.

Ling stood with her back to the door, shoulders rigid, chest rising unevenly. The room smelled faintly of blood, perfume, and fear hers.

Then...

Soft footsteps.

Dadi.

Ling turned and opened door just as her grandmother reached her. For the first time tonight, Ling didn't brace herself. She stepped forward and hugged her.

Hard.

Like a child afraid the world might fall apart if she let go.

Dadi's arms wrapped around her instantly, warm, grounding. One hand slid up Ling's back, steady, slow.

"There," dadi murmured. "Breathe."

Ling's jaw trembled. She swallowed, eyes burning.

Dadi pulled back just enough to look at her face. Her sharp, knowing eyes softened but missed nothing.

"So," she said gently, teasing woven with truth, "have you gone that far in falling in lo..."

"NO."

The word came too fast. Too loud.

Ling straightened immediately, cold mask snapping back into place. "I'm not... this is nothing. She's just..."

Dadi raised an eyebrow.

Ling faltered.

"…a complication," Ling finished weakly.

Dadi smiled. Not amused. Not mocking.

Knowing.

She cupped Ling's cheek, thumb brushing away a tear Ling hadn't realized had escaped.

"You can lie to the world," dadi said softly. "You've mastered that."

Her thumb pressed lightly, grounding. "But don't insult me by lying to me I know you."

Ling looked away, jaw tight, eyes fixed on the far wall where Rhea lay unconscious out of sight but nowhere near out of mind.

"I don't fall," Ling said, voice low, defensive. "I control."

Dadi nodded. "And tonight," she replied quietly, "control slipped."

Ling's hands clenched.

Dadi leaned closer, forehead touching Ling's briefly a rare intimacy. "Listen to me. She will be fine."

Ling exhaled shakily.

"And you?" dadi continued. "You're terrified not because she was trapped."

Ling's breath hitched.

"You're terrified," dadi finished, "because for the first time, you realized you could lose her."

Silence stretched.

Ling didn't answer.

She couldn't.

Dadi smiled sadly, stroking Ling's hair. "Rest. Sit. Pretend you're still made of steel if you must."

"But remember this, my fierce girl..."

"When fear finds you, it means something precious already has."

Dadi took two steps toward the desk, opened a drawer she had no right knowing about, and pulled out the first-aid kit Ling kept untouched like everything else meant for weakness.

"Sit," dadi said.

Ling shook her head instantly. "I'll do it later."

Her voice was firm. Controlled. Almost convincing.

Dadi looked at her knuckles raw, split, still bleeding faintly. Then she looked back at Ling's face.

"No," she said softly. Not a command. A refusal to accept the lie.

Ling crossed her arms. "Dadi, it's nothing."

Dadi smiled a slow, dangerous smile that had once reduced Victor Kwong to silence. "You bleed," she replied. "That already makes it something."

Ling exhaled sharply, turning away. "I don't need..."

Dadi caught her wrist gently but firmly.

The touch stopped her.

"You can fight the world," Dadi said, easing Ling down onto the edge of the bed. "But you don't fight me."

Ling didn't resist further. Her shoulders slumped just a fraction enough to betray exhaustion.

Dadi cleaned the wounds with practiced care. Ling hissed once, jaw tightening, but didn't pull away.

"Hurts?" Dadi asked, not looking up.

Ling scoffed weakly. "I've had worse."

Dadi wrapped the gauze slowly, deliberately. "This didn't hurt because of pain," she said. "It hurt because you were afraid."

Ling went still.

Dadi finished bandaging, fingers warm, steady. She patted Ling's hand once, like grounding a storm.

"Fear doesn't make you small," Dadi continued quietly. "It makes you human."

Ling stared at the white bandage like it was foreign.

"I don't like being human," she muttered.

Dadi chuckled under her breath. "Of course you don't. It means you can lose."

She stood, then paused at the door.

"But tonight," she added gently, "being human saved her."

The door closed softly.

Ling remained seated then her eyes went to Rhea.

Eyes burning.

Heart traitorously loud. 

She stood and moved closer to the bed.

Slowly. As if any sudden motion might wake something fragile not Rhea, but whatever fragile thing had cracked open inside her.

She knelt.

The powerful, untouchable Ling Kwong knelt on the floor beside the bed she never shared.

Rhea slept quietly, chest rising and falling in an even rhythm now. Calm. Unaware of the chaos she had carved into Ling's carefully ordered world.

Ling stared.

Not like an enemy.

Not like a rival.

Like a woman undone.

Her gaze traced Rhea's face with unsettling devotion. The nose ring caught the dim light small, defiant, impossibly her. Ling's fingers hovered near it but didn't touch, as if crossing that line would make everything real.

Her eyes moved lower.

Rhea's lips soft, fuller even in rest, parted just slightly as she breathed. Not sharp. Not cruel. No smirk there now. Just vulnerability Ling had never been allowed to see before.

Her jawline wasn't sharp like Ling's no angles, no edges to cut with. It was softer, fuller, human.

Ling swallowed.

She loved that.

The curve of it. The way it made Rhea look real instead of carved from ice. A small mole rested just below her jaw, almost missed if you didn't look closely.

Ling had noticed it the first day.

She hated that she remembered.

Her eyes flicked up to Rhea's lashes thick, dark, resting against flushed skin. Brows naturally arched even in sleep, as if Rhea was always ready to challenge the world.

Ling exhaled shakily.

"Idiot," she whispered not to Rhea, but to herself.

Her hand moved before her mind allowed it. She took Rhea's hand gently, as if asking permission even now. Warm. Alive. Steady.

Ling's breath hitched.

Tears slipped free silent, traitorous.

"I don't understand this," she murmured, voice barely sound. "You're not supposed to matter."

Her thumb brushed lightly over Rhea's knuckles.

"I don't feel like this," she continued, jaw tightening. "I don't lose control. I don't panic. I don't..."

Her voice broke.

"I don't kneel."

Another tear fell, landing on Rhea's hand.

"Why do I feel like the world goes quiet when you close your eyes?" Ling whispered, eyes burning. "Why does the thought of losing you feel worse than losing everything else?"

She laughed softly, bitter and disbelieving.

"This isn't me," she said. "I don't fall. I don't want. I don't need."

Her grip tightened just a fraction protective, instinctive.

"But when you stopped breathing," she confessed, voice shaking now, "I forgot who I was."

Silence answered her.

Rhea slept on, unaware that she had become Ling's greatest fear.

Ling bowed her head, forehead resting lightly against the edge of the mattress, still holding Rhea's hand.

"I won't say it," she whispered fiercely, as if daring the truth to fight her. "Not even to myself."

She squeezed Rhea's hand once gentle, possessive, terrified.

"But whatever this is," Ling breathed, tears still falling, "it's already winning."

Then

Rhea's phone buzzed.

The sound was soft but in the stillness of the room, it felt loud.

Ling flinched.

She looked at the screen lighting up on the bedside table.

Shyra.

The name meant nothing to Ling.

But the timing did.

Ling hesitated only a second before picking it up. Her thumb hovered, jaw tight. She glanced once at Rhea still asleep, lashes unmoving, breath steady.

Then she answered.

"Hello?" Ling said quietly.

There was a pause on the other end. Then a woman's voice warm, cautious, threaded with concern.

"Who is this?" Shyra asked. "Where is Rhea? She said she'd be back within an hour."

Ling's spine straightened.

She understood tension when she heard it.

"She's safe," Ling replied immediately. Too fast. Too sharp.

Silence stretched.

Shyra's voice returned, calmer now but sharper beneath it. "Safe where?"

Ling looked down at Rhea again.

Her fingers tightened around the phone.

"She's staying here tonight," Ling said evenly. "She is in party so she can't talk now."

Another pause.

"And you are…?" Shyra asked.

Ling inhaled once.

"Ling Kwong."

The name landed heavy.

On the other end, Shyra didn't respond right away. When she did, her tone had shifted measured, alert.

"…I see."

Ling didn't miss it.

"She'll return in the morning," Ling continued, voice firm but controlled. "You don't need to worry."

A beat.

Then Shyra said, "I always worry about my sister."

Something twisted in Ling's chest at that word.

Sister.

"I'll make sure she's fine," Ling said, quieter now. Not defensive resolute.

Another silence.

Then Shyra spoke gently, but not without steel. "Please do."

The call ended.

Ling lowered the phone slowly.

Her heartbeat hadn't slowed.

She placed the phone back where it was, then sat there for a moment longer processing what she'd just done.

She had lied.

Effortlessly.

Without thinking.

Ling exhaled sharply, almost a laugh but it came out strained.

"What are you doing to me?" she whispered, eyes drifting back to Rhea's sleeping face.

She reached out again, brushing a loose strand of hair away from Rhea's forehead careful, reverent.

"I don't even know who your family is," Ling murmured. "And yet I just claimed you like you're already mine."

She pulled her hand back immediately, as if burned.

"psycho," she muttered to herself.

But she didn't leave.

She stayed sitting guard beside the bed, eyes fixed on the steady rise and fall of Rhea's chest...

Unaware that by answering that call, Ling Kwong had just stepped into a war she didn't yet know existed.

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