Hey, Kid.
Hey, Folks.
How goes it?
Good, I hope!
I hope you all had a happy, safe, and healthy Halloween -if you partake in that sort of thing!-
Me?
Well, I don't have any children of my own, so I didn't go out, and even though my significant other has children, they are all teenagers, so they didn't care to have us along, lol.
That was fine by me!
I stayed in and played my Xbox for a bit.
Well worth the time invested, lol.
I hope the day went well for all of you who DO have children, and they all got all the candy they could carry, and then some!
As for you, Kid?
I hope you had a great time.
You deserve it.
All kids do.
And if you were only there in your Aether form?
Well, I hope you and all the other Unborns had a gay ol' time together!
I've been fine, you know?
Not that anyone asked, but while I have you here, I may as well say!
Lol.
Also, do me a HUGE favor?
U.S.P.S. Operation Santa just started, or will start soon.
Please.
PLEASE.
PLEASE GO CHECK IT OUT!
I am sure that this is only a North American thing, but I am sure some other parts of the world have similar programs!
I am not and would never ask you for anything outside of your time and energy; nonetheless, I need your help just this once.
I will let whoever wants to help head over to that website, and I will say no more.
I really, REALLY, REALLY appreciate anything and everything you can and are willing to do in these hard times.
What has life been like for me?
My relationship is really healthy, and that still freaks me out a bit, you know?
She is pretty attentive.
Loving, caring, devoted.
She looks after me in the weirdest and most unexpected ways.
Sat on the floor between her legs last week as she picked and combed my hair for me.
A simple act of love and service.
She commented that my hair and scalp were sort of dry, and I agreed, as I tend to wear hats pretty often, especially with the winter here in Wisconsin starting to shift towards winter.
I didn't think more of it till I came in from work the other day and she presented me with cocoa butter and a sleeping cap that she had gone out and purchased for me.
I know it isn't much, but I have never had that sort of love before, you know?
That sort of... Instantaneous and thoughtful reaction to some form of discomfort or imbalance I had.
This morning we woke me with a kiss.
She gently informed me that she had not only made me a cup of coffee, but had packed lunch for me for my workday.
I love her more than she will ever know.
She is a good woman.
A great woman.
Good people are quite hard to come by these days.
Well, maybe just in general, lbvs.
I hope that you all find that someone who cares for and loves you the way she cares for and loves me.
I wish she had been your Mother, Kid.
She is what I imagine your other half would be like, you know?
The other portion of your DNA, so to speak, lol.
Life is weird for me that way.
I get half of what I want.
I get what I want, yes.
But just half.
I am okay with that at this point in my life.
I just need the RIGHT half, you know?
I have her.
She has kids.
I can be a great stepfather, whereas I may never get to be a biological one.
I will take that half if that is the half I am meant to have.
I will leave you all at that, and I will see you back here soon enough, yeah?
Let's go see what 2022 was like again, shall we?
I think it is summertime in the city back then, lol.
Lucky bastard.
Enjoy!
(Hops into the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000.1, and turns all of the nobs within reach... I think the nobs are for even years and the buttons are for odds... I can't remember!)
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July 7th, 2022.
2:38 PM.
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Dear You.
I stated once before...
Something along the lines of:
"XXXXX may not age well."
And here we are.
I have no idea what happened...
Or what is going on,
But she is a ghost.
Again.
Fool me once?
Shame on you.
Fool me twice?
Can't put the blame on you.
Sometimes we really, REALLY just have/need to burn the whole bridge.
All of it.
Then burn the ashes too...
-Dad.
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(*POPS BACK INTO 2022. That year was wild for me...I had just left her but two months before this post. Sheesh. I wouldn't want to relive that year... Nope.)
Hmm.
You know, just before I officially moved out of where I was staying with my exe, I had somehow reestablished contact with one of my other exes.
It worked while it worked, and for several reasons, at that.
She was an anchor when I needed one most.
She rooted me in my conviction to leave, and I REALLY needed that more than I would have ever imagined.
She was an opportunity for me to find some closure from the past we shared, for she had ghosted me over a decade before, and I had never truly healed from that event.
She was a lesson that I sorely needed to learn, yet wouldn't realize to much later and a bit too late.
She promised me the world and a second chance at what we had once had years and years before, and my broken, vulnerable heart fell right into the trap she had set.
She only wanted me for the summer, essentially.
I was just a toy for her.
A story for another time.
She ghosted me, but two months after I moved into my new place.
It hurt me a lot more than I cared to admit to myself at the time, but I NEEDED that.
I needed to see that I didn't need her or another person to fold myself and my life and newly earned freedom into.
I was shattered.
I needed me and only me.
I needed you all.
My Loyal, Royal Readers.
And who was she to me in my past?
She had ghosted me the first time we had met years and years before, and back then she wasn't just a friend or "fuck buddy"; she was my fiancé!
Can you believe that?
After she ghosted me for that second time, I poured more time into myself and my books, and look where we are today, Folks!
Look at this here book series, Kid.
It's for you.
For me.
For the Readers.
We will finish it together just as we started.
I love and appreciate all of you, and I am forever grateful.
You mean so much more to me than you will ever know.
Please, if you can, check out that website and do what you can.
I love and appreciate you even if you CAN'T help out.
I will see you all back here soon, yeah?
Safe travels out there, Folks.
You as well, Kid.
And as always;
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
- Bluu.