Jay's POV
While I was getting ready
I received a text from Keifer saying
" I am feeling sick so I am not attending classes "
"I love you❤️"
I felt bad for him but even though he is sick he never forgets to express his love, I was about to call him but that I when I received a call from Keifer's mom.
Jay: "Hello mom, how are you?"
Mom: " I am good dear, actually I called you because I needed a favour"
Jay: " Tell me mom"
Mom: " Jay, I want you to be with Keifer the whole day today"
Jay: " is it because he is sick? I was going to check on him anyways"
Mom: " Is that what he said"
Jay: " Yes"
Mom: " Jay just be with him today and don't leave him"
Jay: " Mom is everything okay?"
Mom: " Yes can you please do this for me?"
Jay: " Yeah, sure"
Mom: " okay, bye sweetheart "
Jay: " Bye, Mom"
I was a little confused by what she said and I thought maybe she was just worried for him but I wasn't convinced fully and I planned to take a day off from college and go pick up some food for Keifer before going to his dorm.
I went to his dorm and David opened the door.
Jay: "Where is he?"
David: "He is in the room and that's his room"
I went inside and saw him lying facing the other side, he did not notice me enter, I went and settled beside him and I slowly caressed his hair and turned quickly and was shocked to see me.
Keifer: "What are you doing here?"
Jay: "I came to check in with you" I said and went to check his forehead for his temperature, it was normal but his face was pale and his eyes was red like he cried.
Keifer: " You didn't have to do that" he said sitting up straight
Jay: "I know I want to, Now tell what exactly happened to you"
Keifer: "Nothing, I was just having a headache" he said like he was avoiding something.
Even though I was not convinced, I did not push him to tell that.
Jay: "Okay wait I brought you breakfast "
Keifer: "Jay, I am sorry but I am not in the mood right now"
Jay: "You have to eat something, you look so pale and if this continues it might get worse."
Keifer: "Please, I don't want to"
I couldn't force him, so I just nodded.
Jay: "Okay, you sleep, I will be here"
Keifer: " Jay you should not miss any classes"
Jay: "I am not missing any classes, I will get notes from my friends" and he went silent after I said that and I sensed the feeling maybe he wanted to be alone.
Jay: "Do you want me to be gone?" I asked him and his head shot up and it was red and filled with tears and I immediately hugged him. And he started crying immediately and I did not know why he was crying but I know I had to be there for him, so I patted his back and head and said, "Keifer, whatever it is it's okay. I am here you" and I repeated it a few times and he finally calmed down.
He pulled away from the hug while with tears still in his eye, he looked at me
Keifer: "it's my brother's death anniversary"
I was shocked when he said that, he must have been feeling terrible and that is why mom must have said me to be with him.
Jay: " Keifer, I am really sorry"
Keifer: "No Jay, it is my fault he is not here" he said with vulnerability in his voice
Jay: "What?" I asked in slow tone visibly confused.
Keifer: "He died in a car crash because of me, we were crossing the road I went ahead of him and he was behind me, and I already crossed the road that I did not notice he bent down to pick something, and by the time I turned back he was on the road with blood all over him" he said tears falling from his eyes and he started slapping himself and saying, "It's my fault, all my fault"
I rushed and held his hands to stop him from hurting himself,
Jay: "Keifer, please stop it is not you fault"
Keifer: "He should have alive today Jay but he is not because of me, I should have taken care of him,You know what the worst part is my parents never blamed me once for his death even though it was mine"
Jay: " Keifer, it's not your fault, it was an accident and I am sure if you could have done something you would have" I said with tears in my eyes seeing him this state
I just hugged him tight not letting him go, because I knew he need this the most. He cried in that position and I realized one thing, even though he may shown that he is always happy with life, I did not know the weight and guilt that he was carrying around all the time, and to think of it, he was the first one care about me in my emotional distress and He haven't been this vulnerable with me untill now and it breaks my heart to think he was going through this all alone while grieving his sibling.
We break the hug and I get up to go get his food but he holds my hand and say in broken and low voice, "Please don't leave me"
Jay: "I am not going anywhere, I will just bring your food"
I brought his food and started to feed him, he did not accept at first but then he slowly started eating and I also wiped his tears and after having his food, I made him lie down on my lap and made him sleep, he help my one hand so tight, as if I would escape him, if he didn't hold me.
I caressed his hair and started thinking about him, the guy who love his family,me, who always wants to make people around him feel at ease, has gone through something, so heartbreaking all alone by himself and tears started to flow from my eyes as I looked at him sleeping. I know he is not totally out of his guilt yet by I would be happy if I atleast made him feel at ease atleast a little bit. I also made promise to myself to always stand by him at times like these.
Author's Note:
Who knew Keifer had gone something like that🥹
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