Her demeanor, her will was real, it was there, though it wasn't for the people, but for herself to live because, well, the game fucked up her understanding of life… having more life just makes you fear death more… fear the moment when it all runs out and, at the end, you die… that in the end you could do nothing.
Maybe that was where she said too much, maybe that was where Orsen and, well, everybody in the room kinda… felt not just shocked but disappointed and disgusted to a level.
Changing her own goal as she changed it in the game was not the best idea, was not the right approach to all of the things, as these people in front of him, as well as the millions outside, are no longer mindless NPCs with scripts behind them, NPCs who don't care if half of them get wiped out, but they are real people with real emotions, real will, real courage, and morality; they are all humans.
