KHANYISILE
It's been two month since I've been shot. I am completely healed. Eddie asked for 3 months off and Andile and they told me that I would be safe since Qhawe is around. They call twice a day to check up on me. It's been two weeks now since they started their leave. I feel there's something that they are hiding from me. For one they've never been off at the same time, they know they have to alternate but they insisted on going off at the same time. Zack and Sandiso are always busy with Lwazi. Something is not adding up and when I talk to Qhawe about it, he says I'm over thinking things. I just decide to leave it, I know they are up to something.
Qhawe and I we are good, more than good. Two months ago, on our way home from the hospital I told him I loved and I didn't even realise I was saying it until he made me repeat it. He was so happy, he made love to me all night that night, he was so gentle as usual but I think he was also being extra careful since my wounds were still fresh. As for Anelisa, I don't even want to think about her and what she's putting her kids through.
I got a call from Zwelibanzi yesterday telling me about his father being sick, I'll deal with that later. Right now I need to deal with this daughter of mine that's having nightmares because of the shooting. I'm in Lisakhanya's room with Qhawe
Me: Khanya baby, why didn't you tell us about your nightmares?
Khanya: I didn't want to worry you and i was scared that you blamed us for what happened since it was my mother who shot you.
Qhawe: Khanya, what happened to Khanyi was not your fault; it never was and never will be. What your mommy did, she did it on her own, it was her doing, you don't need to blame yourself for her actions, no one is blaming you.
Me: I want you to listen to me ok (she nods) I love you, I love you very much, I love you more than I love your dad (Qhawe looks at me with a raised eyebrow) Hayibo,I do (looking at Qhawe) Lisakhanya you mean the world to me, I made you my daughter and you made me your mother, that means no matter what I'll always be there for you, I'll love you even if you feel like I shouldn't, that means next time you have a problem you come tell me about. At times there will be things that you might not be able to talk to dad about, when that happens feel free to come to me, don't be afraid to ask me for help. (she has tears all over her face and she just nods at everything I say and she throws herself at me for a hug. Qhawe is all smiles, looking proud.)
Qhawe: I'm proud of you my Queen and thank you for loving them.
Me: do you want to attend therapy baby.
Khanya: Yes mom, I do.
Qhawe: would you like to go with me or with mom?
Khanya: Actually I would like to go Wabo (Qhawe and I look at each other amazed, that was unexpected.)
Qhawe: do you want to tell us why you want to go with Wabo?
Khanya: He already understands what I'm going through more than you guys.
Me: You'll have to speak to him and find out if he is ok with that.
Khanya: I will (she says with a smile.) Can I go speak to him now?
Me: Sure baby.
Qhawe: that was unexpected, but then again I understand why. Wabo told me that when she wakes up from her nightmares she goes to his room and sleep in his bed.
Me: She does the same thing Lwanele does when she can't sleep, she goes to his room. I'll have speak to the therapist and tell her that we have one more child to add to the sessions. Que (he looks at me) I would like to have a family session with the therapist about this shooting thing and I would like Anelisa to be part of it, what do you think?
Qhawe: you really shouldn't call me "Que" when we are having a serious conversation, you really throw me off when you do, the way you say it, it's such a turn on.
Me: argh Que man focus.
Qhawe: you are doing it again, I won't be responsible for what I do to you. Anyway I think it's a good idea but let's speak to the doctor and find out if it's a good idea.
Me: Ok then. There's something else, (he looks at me nodding for me to continue) Remember what Sizwe told about me Zwelibanzi's father being sick.
Qhawe: Yes, what about it?
Me: Zwelibanzi called yesterday telling me about his father and how he wants to see me and the kids. I would like to take the kids, I would like to do it as soon as possible, if you are ok with that.
Qhawe: Are you sure you want to go there?
Me: yes I'm sure. I don't have a problem with his parents. I didn't go there for the past four years because I didn't want to deal with Zwelibanzi.
Qhawe: What if Zwelibanzi is there?
Me: well I have you to protect me, my big strong, chocolate, handsome giant (I say getting on top straddling him, putting my arms around his neck and kiss him slowly, his hands grabbing my ass)
"Oh come on you guys, do you have get busy in my room when you have your own?" (oh my goodness that was Lwanele sounding disgusted, we were just kissing, and these kids keep catching us in heated moments.) it was just a kiss and besides we bought this house so we.... She doesn't let me finish)
Lwanele: no mom, you guys might have bought the house but this is my room and my bed. Please get out, go to your room. Go! GO! Go! (we just laugh at her and Qhawe stands up with me in his arms and my legs around his waist and walks to the door)
Qhawe: Sorry Princess. (he smiles at her and she smiles back)
Lwanele: You guys are just crazy, don't let me catch you in my room like that again, please leave. (we leave and she closes the door shaking her head.)
Qhawe: When is the next school holdiday so that we can be alone again? (he asks as we walk downstairs to the kitchen and he puts me down when reach the bottom of the stairs.
Me: September and it's 10 days and we are only in middle of August now.
Qhawe: when are you thinking of going to the Eastern Cape?
Me: this coming weekend but I need to call them first, I was thinking we could all go and you can take the other kids to your parents while we go to Zwelibanzi's parents.
Qhawe: Actually I've been thinking of introducing you to my parents, so I would like to do it when we are there if you are ok with that.
Me: are you sure about that, what if they don't like me?
Qhawe: I'm sure about it and if they don't like you, it won't change how I feel, besides they are going to love the woman who loves my kids more than she loves. (he says that with a smile reminding me of what I said to Lisakhanya.)
Me: let me call Zwelibanzi's parents, I love you.
KHAYA
I'm at home with my family. Nkosikhona has been calling me nonstop nagging me about going to the Eastern Cape so that he can introduce me and Lina to his family. This man has been quiet for months and now that he wants something he decides to call, he expects us to jump at his request. I really don't get it. For someone who wants a relationship with his kids, he's doing a bad job sometimes I feel like he is being forced to do this. Maybe his wife is pushing him to do so, if she is pushing I wish she would stop. We don't need this ma We n, we did fine without him in our lives. have forgiven and right now that's all we can do. My phone rings and it's my sister.
Me: My beautiful sister
Lina: My handsome brother, how are you?
Me: I'm good and you?
Lina: I'm good. How's everyone else?
Me: they are good, Lisakhanya is going to attend therapy sessions, apparently she's been having nightmares of mom being shot ever since you guys found out.)
Lina: arg man poor little thing. I can only imagine how she feels and Sibahle is also not taking this whole thing well. She says even though her and her mom were not that close she still loved her and now after what she did, she doesn't how to feel, she says she doesn't even know how to act around Khanyi anymore. I told her to speak to mom about her feelings or speak to dad. I really don't understand why they don't want to speak to the parents.
Me: I can understand. It's hard for them. At least they speak to us, that is a plus.
Lina: I guess you are right.
Me: Lwanele caught mom and dad making out in her room and she kicked them out.
Lina: I swear the parents are like love sick teenagers. They make out everywhere in the house and we always catch them in compromising positions (she laughs hard)
Me: At least we get to see what love between two people should be like. It's always beautiful to watch, mom's childishness around him, chasing each other around the house, sometimes he would spank her when she walks away, the way she giggles, it's truly amazing. I mean the random hugs, the random kisses, the I love you. Mom is happy Lina, I haven't seen her like this in a long time. They are both very happy. I never thought mom would tell Qhawe how she feels.
Lina: I'm glad she is happy, I'm happy for the both of them. Ntando said something that got me thinking.
Me: What did he say?
Lina: he said that the way mom treats Qhawe teaches us girls about how we should treat a man and the way Qhawe treats mom teaches you guys about how you should treat a woman.
Me: You know I never thought of it like that.
Lina: Me too.
Me: I met someone and I want to introduce her to the family, we've been dating for a month and a half now
Lina: Finally, I hope it's not another Barbie
Me: no it's not and this time I think I'm in love, I've never wanted to introduce a girl to my family before. She is the kind of girl I want to bring home and introduce to the parents. I think she is the one.
Lina: I'm happy for you big brother.
Me: When are you introducing us to your boyfriend? I hope you are still a virgin Lina. Otherwise I'm breaking his legs.
Lina: what!! give the parents a heart attack, they are not ready for me to have a boyfriend, besides you know how dad doesn't want boys around us and yes I'm still a virgin. (I smile to myself)
Me: Nkosikhona called
Lina: I know he called me too. I don't understand this man. He asks for forgiveness and we forgive him and then he goes quiet for months and now he rocks up in our lives demanding to introduce us to his family, doesn't he know we don't care.
Me: he went as far as saying, "I am your father and you will do as I say", hayibo siphi na (where are we)
Lina: the liver he has (we just laugh and continue talking until we say our goodbyes)
My sister is crazy. I love her though.
ZWELIBANZI
Sima: Zweli come on what's taking so long?
Zweli: I'm coming
Sima wanted us to go out today as a family with the twins. I'm taking them out for lunch and a little bit of shopping. She is not happy with me because I told her she can't go out on her own anymore; she needs to have someone with her all the time, I told her she is not safe. She'll just have to suck it up. I'm not taking any chances and I need to speak to Khanyi to tighten her security as well, what am I talking about, she has tight security, it's even difficult for me to get in there with an appointment. That phone call really spooked me and I haven't been able to trace the call, this is so frustrating, I really hate it when I don't have control of the situation. When we get to the mall we start with the shopping, buying some groceries, some clothes for the twins and a few items for ourselves after that
We go have lunch at the Spur at least they have a play area for the kids. We get our food and eat over a light conversation, when we are done, Sima wanted to have her nails done, I said she can go and we'll wait here for her, at least the place is right opposite the restaurant and I can see her from where I'm sitting. My phone rings and I pick it up
Him: you still have money to spend, I should take more from you.
Me: What do you want?
Him: Nothing much, just wanted to let you know that I have your shipment from Nigeria. It's funny how these documents have your name all over them.
Me: That's impossible; nothing ever has my name on it. What are you going to do with my shipment?
Him: You need to do something for me, in return I won't steal your money for a week and I won't even stalk your pretty little girlfriend for week, she looks pretty in that pink dress of hers. As for what I'll do with the shipment, it doesn't concern you. (oh my god. He is watching us, who is this guy. As I get up from where I'm sitting he speaks again) I'd sit down if I were you and pretend you are having a normal conversation on the phone. We don't want to scare your little family now do we? The less they know the better for them.
Me: who are you, what do you want?
Him: I am your worst nightmare, I'm the boogie man, you already know what I want and that is to watch you suffer. Now back to what I need you to do for me. I need you to stop harassing Miss Sondlo for that import and export company she owns, I have plans for it.
Me: What kind of plans? I need that company, I can't do what you are asking me to do and you can't kill her, I need her alive.
Him: 1. my plans are none of your business besides my plans will benefit her. 2. You don't have a choice in the matter; otherwise pretty little Sima loses her head. 3. I have no intentions of killing her, if that was the case, why would I make plans that would benefit her. This is not a negotiation Mr Tom. You have one week to back off from that company. (he hangs up. DAMMIT ! who is this guy? FUCK!!)