Jays pov ;
His funeral was the hardest time I ever had in my life , back then I saw him a last time doctors taking him in a stretcher,
I broke down , completely,
His body was covered in a white cloth,
His fingers were streched out ,
I held it ,
I am not ready for this , not his body dead in front of me ,
" Keifer please come back , I can't leave without you, you were my whole life , now the whole life is getting harder to survive, keif.. please I can't lose you , come back keifer, I want you, I can't bear this pain , if you are not coming back , I will come with you , please keifer..... " I cried out , loudly, I cried loud enough that his soul would hear this ,
Aries pulled me in a hug , but I didn't let go of his fingers ,
" Ms please leave his hand " nurse said but aries insisted to her stop
I held aries in one hand ,
" Aries please bring keif... Back to me " I cried even harder,
He stroked my hairs
" Jay he is gone you should accept the reality"
I hit his chest continusly " don't you dare to say he is no more ,"
He held me tighter, I can feel his tears falling on my shoulders" jay you can't keep thinking he would come back, he is already gone "
I let go of the hug ,
I slapped him despite I knew he was correct
He didn't talk further,
Now we are here at his funeral
My tears stopped falling,
I sat in a corner, pulling my knees near my chest,
I held it tightly,
I didn't spoke, didn't ate ,
No one dared to talk to me ,
Everything felt useless, afterall this was happened because of me , I should have been careful,
Neither he would come to rescue me , neither this would happen,
I lost him , forever,
I closed my eyes ,
His face appeared,
His laugh
His tears
His smirk
His smile
His scent
His accent
His softness for me
I love you keifer until scientist find the end of the universe,
Tears fell again
My eyes were swollen from crying,
But everytime I consoled myself reality hit harder , that he is no more ,
Every one prayed for him,
I couldn't,
Percy came near me , held my hand
And made me keep flowers on his graveyard ,
The worst part of my life ,
I lost him forever,
This isn't digesting anymore,
Keiren and keigan were crying to infinity, hugging each other,
I didn't know what made me , but I went to them , hugged them ,
The cried in my embrace,
" Ate we are alone, mama left us alone at that time , now kuya" keigan said
" Shh..." I whispered wiping his tears
" I will be there for you"
" Ate you have your life , you can't keep looking after us for the entire life " keigan said
I didn't have a answer for that
But I promised myself, whatever happens until I am alive, I will take their responsibility,