Premeditated killing of an innocent.
That was what I was doing.
It was different from an accidental killing or killing in self-defense, and it was often considered the most damaging act to one's spiritual path. This was because it required you to know exactly who or what you were killing, to have a clear, settled desire to end that life, and to take the necessary steps to perform the deed. But most importantly, it required you to feel a sense of accomplishment or relief after the death.
After hearing our situation from Leon, I realized that if I wanted to survive… if I really wanted to make it out of this realm alive… I needed to gather as much black karma as possible.
But that was the problem.
Gaining a significant amount of negative karma in this realm was not that easy.
Actually, let me rephrase that:
Gaining lots of negative karma in any realm was simply not easy for me.
