[Music: Still Here (Even When I'm Not) By Exiles Of Eden]
I rasped heavily, sitting up while trembling, before I shattered in tears. It streamed down my cheeks hotly as I gripped to grapple with reality again. Sobbing, I looked at my hands, but they weren't covered in Ares blood; they were clean. But it didn't look clean to me.
I feel it and smell it even.
I rushed out of bed, straight to the bathroom. I turned on the faucet, washing my hands over and over again until I was certain it was clean enough.
The sound of my sobs and muffled cries filled the space as the scene replayed in my head like a broken record, haunting me until all I could hear was the gunshot and my screams as I tried to stop the bleeding.
When Ares was rushed into surgery, I wanted to go in there with him, but I was stopped, and the doors closed.
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"What's happening? Why aren't you going in there with him?!" I screamed at the doctor stepping out. "Y-You have to save him!"
