The shooting has started, and we have shot the part of ourselves in Beijing. Like this only, the tension of three days has been spent well while we both were busy doing the shooting. The three-day trip of ours here has ended now, and now it's time for us to go back to our Shanghai.
Yes, Beijing taught me that letting go of a few things in life is very important. Sometimes it gives you your peace of mind and a kind of relaxation to your Mr heart. But now I can finally say that my Mr heart is at its peace, and yes, at its best state of position, I can say that. Some things I am leaving here in Beijing only; I am not taking them back to Shanghai. I am leaving a few things here. But yes, it's true that this three-day trip to Beijing has taught me a lot. I have learnt many things. My Mr heart is at its peace. It's just like I am back to normal, my normal life where I am free and happy, like nothing can ever be able to bother me. Thank you, Beijing. I have visited here for the first time, but yes, it's the most learning trip of my life.
Then a voice came, and who could it be other than my Yuan Yuan. He said, "Are you ready? We are leaving within ten minutes," he said.
I smiled and said, "Yes, I am almost."
Then within five to six minutes I came out of my hotel room. Before leaving that room, I just turned around and looked around the whole room. It's just like capturing every bit of it in my eyes, and yes, it gives a lot of thoughtful memories and learning experience to me. Then I turned my face back at my Yuan and said, "Yes, I am ready, let's go." Then the door of that room closed—the room number 2921, our birth dates—has now closed till the other person arrives to open it. But yes, staying here is the most memorable part of my life, I'll always say that.
Then the room was locked behind me. The hotel staff came to clean the room and locked it until or unless someone else will arrive here. Then leaving behind the memories of the room, hotel, and stay in Beijing, I moved forward with Yuan and we took a lift back to the ground floor. Again my Mr heart beat a bit faster than usual before stepping inside it, but the lift had arrived and I had to enter it. I didn't even get time to prepare myself for it, but no matter how much time I get, that's never gonna be enough for me. So I got inside it and the lift went down to the ground floor.
I tried my best to act, but I had really forgotten that I am in front of the biggest C-drama actor. How could I even act in front of him? He'll definitely catch me—he always does. And as the lift moved down, I flinched a little, but I managed to cover it up. Thank God he didn't notice. I don't know whether he didn't notice or he just didn't react to it. Then finally the lift reached the ground floor, and I moved outside the lift very fast like some thieves were running behind me, and I finally stepped out of it. Then I took a deep breath while saying to myself, thank God this thing of going up and down here from this lift has ended now.
Then when we stepped out of the hotel, a long black lavish car was already waiting for us there in the parking lot. Then I asked him, "Will we go to the airport together? I mean, in the same car?" I asked him. He didn't say anything; he just nodded his head, and then we both got inside it.
Then we finally reached the airport, and here again my fear came back. It's the first time I am taking a flight. I am scared, yes I don't deny it, I am scared too much. But Yuan knows that I have some kind of issues and fears regarding it. Then he whispered into my ears while we were walking ahead. He said that there is no space for fear when Shiza's Yuan Yuan is here with her, and this is it—these lines are enough to make me gather some courage inside me, and yes, I did. Finally, I did.
The only thing I feared most is that if I take the flight and if anything happens, I don't wanna end this life. But if he is with me like this, then there is nothing more beautiful in the whole China than ending my life in your arms. Then I took a sigh of relief and we went forward to check in. After all that checking was done, finally we stepped inside the flight.
The fragrance here inside the flight is quite unpleasant; maybe it's not just me. I felt a little nauseatic, but I ignored that feeling. After all, I am not here to do vomiting and vomiting and make everyone worried and uncomfortable. So I just tried to ignore that feeling and sat on my seat. Luckily Yuan's seat is beside me, but it's quite dangerous as well, as if I vomited on him then everything gets ruined. No, no, Zhao Shiza, you can't let this happen—not now, I said to myself.
Then I went to his side and I held his hand a bit tightly. That grip was strong; I didn't even realize that I am holding his hand. But he came a little closer to me and again whispered in my ears. He said that don't worry about anything else. When I am beside you, nothing wrong is gonna happen to you. You won't get hurt, you won't even have a scratch on you. I won't let this happen—it's my promise to you, your Yuan Yuan's promise to his forever silly girl, so don't be worried about anything else. I am just beside you; if at worst anything happens, I am here, okay—he said it to me.
And I really don't know how, but his words really worked on me, like they gave me calm in this chaotic life. Didn't I always say that he is my calmness in the storm of my life? Then I don't know how, but these words were really enough for me, and I didn't feel nauseatic again. Now the flight had started moving towards its destination, Shanghai, and my Mr heart finally found its peace back in Yuan. I didn't even know when I drifted off into sleep.
Meanwhile Yuan saw it, and he very gently and softly with his hands moved the strand of my hair behind my ear and smiled while looking at me. He thought to himself that I know there were options for trains to take, but I didn't do that because I want you to overcome this fear. At least I can do something good for you. This is the therapy that you needed the most this time. I know you needed it pretty well, that's why I did all this. I know this can't go in one day, but still, at least it can help you a bit.
Yuan was thinking all this to himself, and I was sleeping there like nothing in this world could even touch me. While sleeping, my head slightly went to his shoulder and landed there, and I was still sleeping. Yuan smiled while looking at me and said to himself that you are such a baby, my silly girl.
Then we didn't even realize that our flight had finally reached its destination, and we got back to our Shanghai, our home again.
I woke up from my sleep, and my face and eyes felt a bit heavy as they got a little swollen. Then he said, "Did my silly girl get peaceful sleep?"
I just nodded my head.
He smiled and said, "Come, let's go, we have reached."
"What, we have reached? I didn't even realize it this fast we have reached. It seems like we were just in Beijing a few minutes before, and then how are we here back in Shanghai?" I said a bit shockingly.
He smiled and said, "Yes, my silly girl, now get up. We need to go out from the flight, or are you really planning to stay here the whole day?"
I just shook my head and said, "No, no, I am getting down from here."
Then we both went out from the flight. The flight never felt that light and easy for me despite it being my first time here in the flight. I felt that light—it's only because of him. Yes, I can say that being with him has eased my life and helped me overcome my most terrifying fear.
Then we were about to go out from the airport to our homes when suddenly Wang Ruoxi's message flashed on my phone screen on WeChat saying that the date sheet has been announced. After two days we are having our final exams, and tomorrow is our farewell for our batch. How will you manage all this with your shooting schedule?
After reading that message, I was a bit shocked. Why everything sounds a bit too early? I really think that it was the day when I got enrolled here in Shanghai University for my interior designer course and we had the fresher's party there—it seems like it was a thing of yesterday, and today I never thought that time flew this fast. This long four years journey here has come to its end this much earlier. I have never— I think I am really running out of time.
Meanwhile, when I was occupied in these thoughts of mine, Yuan saw my expression and asked me, "Is everything alright?"
Then I smiled and said, "Yes, let's go back home. I am a bit tired," I said to him.
Then when we both went out of the airport, his studio members were waiting for him in his car, and I was going to take my bus from here.
"Come with me," he said.
I smiled and said, "No, I really don't want the rumours to spread or it will affect your career," I said.
Then he smiled and said, "As my silly girl wishes."
"Bye-bye," I said to him.
"Bye-bye, and message me when you reach your dorm," he said to me.
I smiled and nodded my head, and then he got inside his car and it went off from there. Then I also headed towards my bus stop. While walking there, I thought to myself that I didn't tell Yuan all this. I really didn't make him busy in my stuff. He is already involved in many things because of me. Now no more fuss from me to him. I won't engage him in my things this much—it will affect his career, and I really can't let that happen. So I won't tell him about this, and this was the decision that I made for him on my way to my bus stop.
Then the moment I reached the bus stop, the bus arrived…