How dare you get it in your head
To fucking reach out...
You should have thought twice.
This won't be nice
I need to fucking speak out...
And
I saw your number
I got triggered
Yeah, I freaked out...
That inner side of me
That's traumatized
He had to peek out...
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Ms. Perez.
Stay away from me.
I hope you fucking read this.
You don't deserve my fucking energy
But fucking headless
Of that fact
No, I don't hate you
I actually wish you the best
I won't digress
Just stay away from
All the healed shit in my chest.
-
I tried to give you everything
But all you did was take
Then have the nerve to fucking look at me
And ask if it's too late!
You never thought to stop
And count the scars
Across my face!
And all the scattered pieces
That you left thrown all over the place!
-
I saw your number
And my heart
Fell to my stomach.
My mind started to spiral.
My spirit started to plummet.
I didn't know how to answer.
I wasn't trying to dumb it
All down
Or bite my tongue
But I needed to hit the summit.
I needed to tell you SOMETHING.
I needed to keep from running.
Wasn't trying to open fire,
I needed to tuck my gun in.
I filtered it through my soul
And an answer began to come; it
Was not all that I wanted
But my consciousness was tumbling...
Whoa...
-
Give me a second,
I need to find the space to
Breathe...
Setting the record,
I wore it all out on my
Sleeve...
Beating me mentally,
Till I found the strength to
Leave...
Using, abusing me till
There's nothing left to
Grieve...
Silently dying,
You killed the brightest parts of
Me...
Followed me
When I left
To never really set me
Free...
I had to hate you
And block my heart
To finally
See...
You were never good for me
You brought to me
Insanity...
-
My dust has settled,
You don't get to be a part of my life.
I bought you three different rings
Trying to have you be my wife.
You told me, "We can still be friends."
That cut me like a fucking knife.
You knew I had nothing but you,
Yet still,
You filled
My life
With strife.
-
I can't stand to see your face
Because I once loved it more than anything.
You'll never understand the kind of trauma
That can fucking bring
And
Don't need your closure,
My composure
Gives me everything.
You'd never fucking mean it
Fuck, I've seen it.
I don't mean a thing.
-
Please go enjoy your fucking life.
Just stay the fuck away from me.
I've been everything but nice
And you don't fucking care to see
That you are toxic air for me
A sustenance that I can't breathe
And all I need from you
I plead from you
Just stay
Away from me...