Settling done for while Shad Darc wonder what the feeling felt might be. It was too strange, a feeling he has never felt before.
While thinking about it he thought of a way he can feel that strange feeling once again because it made him feel so much at peace something he rarely feels except in his absolute depressed state which occurs once in a while.
And he is feeling at peace without falling into the absolute depression
'What to do, what to do' he thought
'Hmm, but this have never happened before even when I do the deep meditation on normal days, well except when I am in that absolute depressed state which I do not like at all'
"Hmm" he ponders once more. 'Maybe it's because of this strange forest but I can't be too sure about it I can't just jump into conclusion without verifying the odd situation first'
He let out a deep breath and contemplated him then decided to repeat the deep breathing meditation which he has just done earlier.
He thought maybe by repeating the same act of the deep breathing meditation he will be able to have the same feeling he just felt earlier, well that was what he thought. " Well, if the deep breathing meditation I did earlier was responsible for the strange feeling and peace I felt earlier then doing it again might give the same result if not then I will have to think of another way and possibilities".
He sighs out then decided to do the deep breathing meditation again. Calming his mind down and slowing down his heartbeat he then began to inhale and exhale slowly just like before which place his mind and body in state of serenity.
While deep breathing meditating for about 10 seconds nothing seems to be happening, he didn't get anxious rather he continued on with it and then about 10 minutes passed still no result before he knew it an hour has passed already without yielding any result or whatsoever.
He soon stops the deep breathing meditation, he thought for while on why he couldn't feel that strange feeling he did earlier, but he couldn't come up with any logical explanation left him a little sad.
"What am supposed to do" he asked himself while lying down on one of the wide branches of the tree, looking up into the now night sky above looking a bit anxious. His thoughts were unknown and empty because at this point in time he doesn't know what to think of anymore or rather there was nothing to think of, there is absolutely nothing coming to his head it just blank.
In that state he decided to meditate again this time it was not for the purpose of replicating or diving into the strange sensation earlier felt. This particular meditation holds no meaning at all; it was not to calm his mind because at this point his mind is already strangely calm. It is a type of meditation that holds no special meaning or for any special purpose. A type of meditation that holds no meaning to it.
In the now state of emptiness, Shad Darc mind was silent and unproductive it is a state which feels himself falling into the vast emptiness of the world. A place he usually falls into when he temporary stops to think and also stop to feel anything, a state where all his senses are made numb and irrelevant.
In stillness of self, Shad Darc feel into his usual depressed as he called it. A state he terms the absolute of depression known only to him due to the fact that he believes he has a serious mental disorder.
Breathing at this point is halted, though that does not mean he doesn't breathe at all but rather it's so faint that it feels as if he not breathing.
What makes this state of self to special about is that this state of partial emptiness is that it's the place where he feels a sense of absolute peace which he can't seem to find for some unknown reason.
While he is in the place of temporary emptiness Shad Darc began to get a sense of the strange feeling earlier felt but unlike before this time around the feeling is stronger than before which means that he can now know what the strange feeling is and how it feels to him.
What is happing right now is extremely strange considering the fact that when he is in this strange sense of emptiness where he usually feels and sense nothing at all and by nothing it means nothing at all.
Reasons because his sense of self is in strange state that made him not feel like himself but rather like one who is extremely empty and still which he also calls the state of un-flowing.
But then there is always a first time for everything after all.
And this is just one of it.
The moment he began to have those strange feelings his original sense of self began to sip in into his absolute depression state making him to be both consciously, subconsciously and unconsciously aware of what is happening.
And in this eerie state of being he came to have a faint understanding of the strange feeling.