Ji Meishu stopped laughing.
She took a deep breath and said, "I also used to like Xie Yundu. Does hearing this make you feel it's funny?"
Hu Zhonglian didn't find it funny but just stared at her intently.
Ji Meishu said lazily, "How should I put it? I liked everything my sister liked. I didn't even know why myself. Later, when my sister gave up on Xie Yundu, I began to dislike him too. I looked down on his background, hated his aloofness. Except for that face of his, which people never seem to tire of looking at, I couldn't think of anything else about him worth clinging to."
"You're insane!" Hu Zhonglian said.
"Yes, that's right, I am insane. Don't you think there's a thrill to going insane? I feel thrilled, especially when I can replace my sister and get everything she wanted. That thrill fascinates me to this day."
