((The Next Day)) I got up as early as I could so that the girls and I could walk to school together but I regretted doing that since I ended up waiting for Yua and Sora, it was an idea I never tried but…
Now that I tried it, I was not gonna do it again.
"Yaaa, Haesu!" I glanced at Ji Eun before I approached them.
It was nice to see them together after a whole week of handling our other family business in Japan.
Now that I think of it, I haven't seen Mother yet even at home...
I spent my time staring out the window during almost every class I had, it felt like this had already happened before, nothing seemed to change every single day nor will I ever let anything change.
'I've got everything anyone would want in life but why was I feeling unsatisfied?' I thought as I sighed.
Moving on from that topic, I got up from my seat so that I could use the comfort room and suddenly…
The speaker went on, "(Haesu, please come by my office this instant.)"
How lucky, I barely learned a thing...
I was called to the School Director's office just when I was about to ask for permission to go out.
The teacher allowed me to exit the classroom without questioning why I was being summoned.
The halls have been too quiet lately after I went overseas, probably because I was nowhere around to advise the students who were way below my league.
I entered Mom's office and immediately took a seat as I waited for her to hang up the call she had.
I hadn't seen Yun Oh in any of our classes either.
"Does Yun Oh have a play again?" I complained, trying not to make it obvious that I was envious of him.
"I asked him to pick up our dear new student from New York and I am certain it wasn't that hard to handle her yet I let him take a leave for about a day or two since I do owe the kid." she responded while typing something, it must be the new student's school record and the name was...
"HONEY LOU?!" I stood up from my seat, blurting the name out as I was reading her file, Mom pushed my face aside as she finalized the enrollment.
"I am very offended." I inhaled, then exhaled and continued.
"Mom, why are you doing this to me?" I sat back down and pinched myself awake from this horrible nightmare, this can't happen!
"I convinced Ivy to enroll her 'step-daughter' here and I want you to get along with her."
No one would ever fall for that brat as long as I was around, just because she has been away for so long, it doesn't mean that it did us any good...
"She hasn't changed one bit nor will she ever. Honey is still the same as how she was born in the very beginning!" I tried not to yell at her since she practically raised me when I left home.
Anyone unaware would fall for her acts, that goody-two-shoes was always putting on an innocent image to the point that everyone turned their backs on me, she had everything while I only got the leftovers.
"And those little imbeciles, how foolish!"
I whispered as I left her office, ending the conversation about my so-called sister.
They better not put us in the same class, not even under the same roof.
--Jay Hwang's Point of View--
I was just about to exit the clinic when all of a sudden, someone intentionally shoved past me.
"Move!" she's finally back, possibly along with a headache too… I shrugged, handing her a drink.
"Do you mind staying here all by yourself? I'm having cereal on break with Seokjoon-noona." I teased her knowing that she didn't like having anyone around whenever a headache paid a visit.
Immediately, I left the moment she lifted a finger, it was already a sign that she would do something to get back at me for saying that. A very harsh one, that is...
As I was walking towards the school garden, Dan happened to be there and dozing off, he must have stayed late until night again in his recording studio, he probably hadn't gone home yet.
Lack of sleep will surely affect one's mood, especially during school.
'In some cases, to be exact...' so I gave him one of the energy drinks I had.
I stayed for a bit longer and asked how he was doing.
"I'm good, Jay-Hyung. You don't have to worry." he answered right before yawning, did they seriously think that this was going to keep working on me?
There is not a single thing wrong with giving them health advice or was it the fact that I just gave them too much?
"Alrighty then, remember not to forget to take at least one day off. That'll be best for you."
I gave him a final reminder before I went straight to Seokjoon-noona this time.
I hadn't eaten anything...
--Honey Lou's Point of View--
"And sweetie, don't forget to dry clean your brand new clothes. You got that?" Mother gave another reminder as I nodded, forgetting that this was just a phone call.
"Yes, mother." I answered as she continued to start her sentences all over again with the word 'and'.
It went on for an hour or so. "And just ask me for more money if ever you need to spend on anything you can't afford with your allowance or if you caused any trouble..." she paused for a second.
"Be sure that your father doesn't hear if EVER it does happen."
For the entire week, it took me some time to get used to my way home as well as the café, the girls' place was kind of difficult for me to memorize whenever I hung out with Sora & Yua, plus, taking a cab intrigued me because of my nervousness getting in the way as always.
I honestly wanted to get along with everyone but I couldn't help when I started getting nervous even just at the thought of it. Surely one day I'll be able to step out of my comfort zone…
'I hope.'
I went back to cleaning the dishes and shook the thought off.
I should not continue to live my life this way too, it was time for me to step out.
'I will make sure of it this time around.'
What I should have done was to think positively, that is exactly who Honey Lou was. Right?
A very cheerful, sincere, and generous girl, not a depressed-feeling one surrounded by cloudy thoughts.
I placed my phone down on the bedside table, reminiscing about the total irritation-free home I've got.
My energy was drained from cleaning the whole house including the outside, and I didn't want to waste my last day of free time although I was already ahead of my studies.
I can never get away from school, especially since I was only in high school.
I wouldn't want to be called a nerd based on my intelligence yet I also didn't want to be a school delinquent due to my moody personality. How exactly will I overcome it all?
I had been living my life with depressive thoughts and fear.
It is a miracle that I am still alive to this day.
Change was bound to happen once I set foot in the school tomorrow and new peers I will encounter daily, a new experience for a 16-year-old like me is life in an actual school.
"Let's just think about it in the morning..."
I inaudibly spoke, closing my eyes as I fell into slumber.
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"--------" the sound went on and on, and on... I turned the alarm off and checked the time, exactly 4:45 in the morning. I then got up and headed out to bathe myself.
Usually, I'd be stretching my body but because of the excitement I could feel rushing up my spine, I did not do any of that. "Woohoo!!"
I simply decided to skip it only for today on my first day of school since I also planned to walk to the bus stop. "I'm officially not homeschooled anymore!"
At last, I was going to an actual school with other humans.
"Very glad I am." I deliberately danced to the song of silence, I felt incredibly enthusiastic on that day.
Soon enough, as I finally finished my bathing routine which took up a whole hour.
Breakfast was the very next thing I thought about doing, and of course, my cheese-ham sliced bread was a must on this memorable day of my life...
I settled down to eat as I began to think.
'I must say… Haesu has got it all here, a group of friends, fame, money, and a family...'
I wonder why her blood keeps on boiling around me, not that I was doing any better than she is.
There was nothing she had to worry about.
Another thing was that she also owns the Bloom Café and it has no other branches in any place in the country besides here in Seoul.
Moving on, Sora did tell me that they were supposed to meet me at the bus stop which is outside the subdivision I live in at around 6:00 AM, and by 'they' she meant to go there with another friend of hers.
'Not sure if I'll make it but I guess they will still wait by all means.'
This neighborhood was really quiet as I have observed.
It may be because of their occupations too, just like my parents, they must have a very fragile business that makes them keep their children locked up at home alone with only the housemaids or gardeners.
They can even be so similar to the point that they lie or hide their children from the public...
I must have a grudge against those types of people since I was acting this way, I sighed.
'It's no use anyway since I have my own life as they do.'
Furthermore, I shouldn't have gotten myself used to deep thinking while I was out here in the streets or on the roadside near cars, for so many times I've been unintentionally doing this which was not a good thing.
"It eventually led to my accident…" I am curious to find out what had happened to me back then.
Amidst all of those thoughts, I arrived early at the agreed spot we had, and with plenty of time to spare, the sun wasn't that high yet so the school probably wouldn't be fully crowded with students.
They chose a nice time to start the day in school.
No wonder a lot of people want to attend Seoul Global High, in fact, even just by looking at me you can tell that I was looking forward to meet Sora's friends from the café but that was not all, I wanted to see the 'her' again because if ever the sunrise wasn't able to cheer her up then I don't know what will...
'I just hope I didn't come here just to ruin anything for anyone.'